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Money can’t buy everything

Background: This is an exerpt from another set of stories I wrote set in the universe of The McIlwraith Statements and The Grains of Magic. These stories centre on a family living in small town Scotland who are known as “Exchange witches”. They can only do magic when something is given to them in exchange.

Eilidh didn’t get to drive often. Living near a city there had never been the need to take the car, unless relentless queues to get anywhere was the desired outcome. That meant when she moved back home, a small town surrounded by an abundance of mountains, woodland, and fields, driving became a more relaxing experience. In theory.

In reality, white-knuckling it down single-track roads hoping it wasn’t harvesting time for the tractors was less joyful than she’d been anticipating. Eventually her journey came to an end. The car engine purred happily as she waited in front of a ten-foot metal gate with electronic hinges, and an intercom attached to the stone pillar. Eventually the gates hummed open and she drove the rest of the way down the gravel road until she parked the car outside a country mansion. It was a place she had only looked at on the internet when she’d been browsing for properties, as adults of a certain age are wont to do. It was several hundred times out of her price range, unless she were to make a deal with the devil himself. It was the home of MPs, an ex-Prime Minister, a celebrity, or other public figure who had made their riches and spent it on real estate.

Eilidh admitted to not revolving in the same circles as the millionaires of Scotland, so when Mr Brown had invited her to visit, as he was interested in placing an order for a special event, her mind had drawn a blank. Brown was a common name, almost on the same level as Smith. For all she knew, he had invented the sim card.

It looked to be an old house, a relic from the twentieth century where the grandchildren of the Victorian elite were spending their hard-inherited assets. It wouldn’t have looked out of place as the host of a summer family event, or a car show. Made of sandstone that had been stained and worn with age, the windows were large, and the curtains that covered them even larger. The wooden door looked as though it would survive Armageddon, and she was almost reluctant to knock on it, fearing no one would be able to hear it from inside.

Thankfully there was already a middle-aged woman swinging it open to greet her. No smiles were exchanged, and the older woman appeared to be more prepared for a funeral than for a guest. With a swift nod of the head Eilidh was summoned over the threshold. The antiquity continued as she observed cabinets filled with crystal, expensive looking china, and porcelain figurines. Various pieces of weaponry hung from the walls, some medieval, others more modern with their thin blades and intricate handles. Interspersing the axes and spears were large gold-framed paintings of dream worlds with lush greenery and perfectly pastel skies.

The carpet beneath her feet was blood red but patterned and didn’t show any of the usual signs of wear. Eilidh continued to follow the older woman through rooms with increasing opulence. Life sized portraits of powerful men and women, a suit or two of armour, antique furniture large enough for rich ladies’ dresses, and ancient books that looked as though they were freshly bound, their gold lettering shimmering in the daylight.

Eventually their journey ended in a long dining room, with rectangular table and upholstered chairs in the middle, two empty fireplaces on either wall. This room was different. This room made her feel instantly uneasy. Rather than the antiques anyone would expect to find in an old mansion, this room was straight from a gothic novel. On the walls were symbols Eilidh didn’t recognise, and some she did. In the bookshelves and cabinets were black leather volumes and tomes with no writing on the spine except the odd pentagram and upside down cross, and strangely shaped crystals and talismans that were no doubt meant to curse or bless in equal measure.

Sitting at the head of the table was an older man, in his late fifties, with receding hairline and more salt than natural colour of hair. He was cleanly shaven, but his face sagged with age, spots becoming more pronounced on his cheeks. He didn’t appear sinister, but anyone who had such a vast collection of the occult should always incite some unease.

“You’re right on time, Miss MacAslan. Thank you for coming all this way,” he stood up to shake her hand.

She smiled and introduced herself, confirming that he was indeed the Mr Brown she had come to see. He invited her to sit down and almost as soon as he had she launched into the products they offered, and fished for some information on the event he was hosting.

“We can do something occult themed, if you’d like,” she offered, motioning around the room.

He nodded pensively, “I’ve always had a love of the stuff. I find it so fascinating. Do you know the most interesting is actually local history?”

Eilidh had been in conversations like this one before, and knew her potential customer was about to launch himself into a long rhetoric displaying all of his accumulated knowledge on the subject, to which she’d pretend to be interested but secretly be trying to think of what to have for dinner.

“This area has a bit of a reputation for apparent miracles,” he continued eagerly, “For instance, just a month or two ago a man came back from the dead.”

The unease returned, if it had ever left. Other people didn’t put the recovery of John Anderson like that, not aloud. The local articles certainly hadn’t used that language. She was sure there’d be some complaints if they had.

“That’s not the only one either. There’s a story from World War two about a local lad who came back from France paralysed from the waist down, he was never supposed to walk again, yet the week after his arrival he was up and walking about. A similar tale from the first world war explains how a lad was rumoured to have lost his arm, yet when he attended his first church service it was intact. There are many more stories like this one in local news, and no doubt even more not copied down in print.”

“That’s interesting,” her smile was hollow.

“And tales of witches are abound,” he looked at her directly, as if he was observing her reaction, “Especially about your family.”

“Well, it is rural Scotland, I’m sure if you go back far enough there’s a witch in every family tree,” she replied as lightly as she could, disliking the direction the conversation was heading towards.

“Not many, and not as consistently. Your family’s name always comes up in legends and stories,” he probed.

“My family have been on the same land for hundreds of years, it’s not that surprising that we’d feature in some stories, is it?” Eilidh replied.

Mr Brown sat back, and she could see him think carefully about what to say next. She didn’t like the topic of discussion, and the uneasy lump at the bottom of her stomach was growing. She had never been fond of coincidences. What were the chances sitting in a room full of occult paraphernalia, speaking about local legends of witches and miracles, that Mr Brown just wanted to order a cupcake tree?

He began to shake his head, “I don’t think that’s it. You see none of these miracles happen when there’s no MacAslan living near. Let’s take the last 15 years as an example. There’s nothing strange in the local papers, nothing spectacular, yet as soon as you return and open your family’s business a man is raised from the dead.”

His intimate knowledge of her family’s presence and lack of immediately put her on edge. She was no longer trying to sell him their services but to protect her life, and her secret. Eilidh could tell he was probing, leading her in a direction only to back her into a corner somewhere down the line.

“No one’s ever connected the dots between the miracles and your family because they don’t happen often, and people forget easily. Or perhaps there’s an unofficial rule in your town that no one mentions the connection.”

“Between a family of bakers and so-called miracles?” she checked, “That sounds like a thin connection to me.”

“But you don’t deny there’s too much of a coincidence for it to be just chance?” he encouraged.

Eilidh paused, feeling her heart beat against her ribs as fast as a high-speed train. She needed to take stock of the conversation and decide what she was going to do. Was Mr Brown trying to elicit a confession from her about being a witch? What did he plan to do with such a confession? Was she being recorded and filmed, and once she admitted the truth it would be released to millions around the world? Mr Brown, despite his abundance of knowledge, wasn’t a local, he wasn’t like the people who came to the bakery and made deals because they hoped beyond all reason that the legends about the MacAslans were true. Mr Brown had lured her to his house of horrors on false pretences. He could only mean her harm.

“Mr Brown,” she began slowly, “I came here in good faith, assuming you wanted our services as a bakery. I’m not interested in discussing my family’s history with you, or the very small connection you’ve managed to draw between us and the occurrences in the town.”

She went to stand up, but he lunged forward and tapped her arm lightly, desperately, frantically.

“No, please, I’m not trying to hurt you. I want to make a deal, like all of these other people did.”

“What?” she retorted blankly, bowled over by the sudden shift in mood.

“That’s what happens, isn’t it? These desperate people come to you and you fix them, probably in exchange for something.”

“Listen, I-,” but she was interrupted.

“I want to be immortal.”

The five words no MacAslan ever wished to hear in their lifetime. Immortality was a dangerous business, and a costly one. It was never encouraged, or offered outright, but there were stories of such deals being made in the past. Thankfully, few and far between, because many people knew they couldn’t pay the price or had the desire to live forever.

“No one wants immortality, not really,” she told him carefully.

“So, it’s true, you are a witch?” he checked.

“I didn’t say that.”

“Please, please,” he begged earnestly, “I’m not trying to trick you, I really want to make a deal. I have terminal cancer, and I don’t want to die, not now, not ever.”

“Why not just ask me to cure your cancer?” Eilidh probed.

“If I’m going to make one of these deals it’s going to be for something spectacular.”

Eilidh saw a man surrounded by more objects than people. In all the rooms, amidst all the priceless antiques, she had never seen a family photo, or even a normal frame with beaming faces shining out. She began to better understand why few asked for immortality, and why the people who did shared something saddening in common. Her unease had gone, and she was overcome with a strange sense of calm, of surety.

“It’ll cost you,” she warned.

“I’ll pay anything,” he answered instantly.

“Entry-level immortality isn’t what you think it is, and upgrades cost more. At the lowest level you’ll still age, you’ll still get sick or injured, but you won’t die from any of it. If you do get injured, say run over by a bus, it’ll take a while to heal,” Eilidh explained.

“That’s not what I want!” Mr Brown cried in protest, “That sounds more like torture.”

Said by a man who was a stranger to true torture. Immortality had always been a tricky subject with the MacAslans and the rest of the witching community. The old magic clans forbade it amongst themselves, severely punishing anyone who transgressed, yet there was little they could do to enforce such a rule on exchange witches like Eilidh and her family. Their power didn’t come from the same source, and the method of creating an immortal being didn’t cost the same. Not to the witch at least. Her family always erred on the good side of the old magic clans, but the no refusal policy inevitably bumped up against their strict rules from time to time. Thankfully, the old magic clans were more interested in governing other supernatural groups than the handful of exchange witches left in existence.

“How about you tell me what you were imagining, and I can name a price?” Eilidh offered.

“I want to be young, and to never age. I also never want to get sick again, no more diseases, and immunity from injury,” Mr Brown answered.

“That should be doable,” Eilidh pretended to think but already had her price, “That will cost 90% of your total fortune and the entirety of your collection of occult items.”

His eyes bulged so much she thought she’d have to pick them up off the floor. The surprise was soon eclipsed by indignation.

“That’s a ridiculous amount!” he exclaimed, the outrage palpable.

“For eternal youth and good health I think it’s a bargain. And it’s not as though you don’t have the time or means to accumulate everything again,” she pointed out.

Mr Brown took a long pause to think. The strange sense of calm remained with Eilidh. It was almost like surety, as if she knew the outcome of this meeting, as though this was a memory and it had already happened. Mr Brown took less than two minutes to decide, and Eilidh wondered if he would come to regret it.

“Yes, I agree to your price,” he confirmed, “And immortality means I’ll never age and never become sick?”

“Yes,” she nodded, “And by 90% of your fortune I mean 90% of everything; this house, your moveable assets, stocks and shares, and any other antique collections you may have. You’ll also be giving up all of your occult paraphernalia.”

Mr Brown nodded his head in agreement. Eilidh held out her hand, palm facing upwards, and instructed him to hold his own just above. He flinched as a reaction to the sharp, invisible force that drew his blood, and watched in amazement as a single drop fell to pool in the middle of her palm.

“The deal is done,” Eilidh uttered as the droplet of blood disappeared into her skin.

Almost as soon as the blood was gone Mr Brown transformed into the man he had been twenty years previously. The age spots vanished, the lines, wrinkles, and sags firmed up, and the white hair was engulfed by the dark. He rushed over to one of the cabinets and looked at his reflection, touching his new face in reverence, beaming. Eilidh observed her monster’s joy, for there was no doubt that’s what she had done, that’s what the deal had made him. Mortals, humans, aged, became ill, and got injured, yet Mr Brown would never experience what those things were again. In an instant, she had created a monster. But, every monster had to have an Achilles heel.

An alarm rang somewhere in the room, an offensively loud beeping that would wake the dead. It pulled Mr Brown from his joy so he could switch it off.

“That’s the alarm for my cancer pills, but I won’t be needing them anymore,” he informed her with glee.

“Why won’t you be needing them?” Eilidh queried.

“I’m healthy now, of course. I don’t have cancer anymore.”

“Who said that?” she queried slyly, “You stated you never wanted to be ill again, not that you wanted me to cure your cancer. That would’ve been a whole other deal.”

“It was implied!” he cried.

“I only deal with explicit conditions.”

“Then let’s make another deal, cure me of my cancer,” he demanded, and Eilidh could hear more of a threat than a plea in his tone.

The monster had what it wanted, but she didn’t fool herself into believing she was the one who created this monster. He was always there, hiding in an old man’s skin, she had just given him the means to hatch. Her family may practice the rule of no refusals, but that didn’t mean she had to play fair.

“I’m afraid you no longer have anything of value,” she explained calmly, “If you had friends, or family, then it’d be a different story, but as it stands 10% of your fortune isn’t enough to make that deal. It is enough to hire a small army of carers.”

“You bitch,” he growled.

“You should feel honoured, you’ll be the first person to live with stage 5 cancer,” she informed him as she stood up and gathered her things, “I told you, Mr Brown, no one wants immortality, not really.”

For a moment she thought he was going to lunge for her, to hurt her, but he thought better of it. On her way out she began to contemplate who the real monster was. An immortal with stage 5 cancer who only cared about himself, or the one who had tricked him into becoming such a creature. This was the compromise that all exchange witches made when they made a deal with someone wishing to live forever. It wasn’t natural, it was against the order that the old magic witches fought so hard to protect, and this was the MacAslan way to compromise and keep themselves safe from the old magic clans’ wrath. An immortal with terminal cancer wouldn’t cause anyone trouble.

Episode 50 – Fated

Scots vocabulary

To play funny buggers – to start acting up, acting awkward/stubborn/petulant on purpose.

Story

Anora and I have a plan. There’s a ray of hope on the horizon, a parting in the clouds that lets the sunshine down. During my scheming and sneaking around with the enemy, I never forgot that our wee rebel group was missing someone.

Madam Norna.

Over the years the woman has always been a question mark, someone that’s right there ready to talk, listen, and offer advice, yet seems aloof, occupying a place no one can reach. I still feel as though I don’t really know her. How did she feel about being the Madam? Did she get sick of it sometimes? Did her heart ache as mine did? Did she suffer episodes of bitterness or envy? When I wasn’t there did she gaze out of the window and marvel at how much the world had changed when she remained stationary? How had she felt when I turned up, her unequipped replacement?

Perhaps it wasn’t that she was aloof, maybe it was that I’d never bothered to ask. Perhaps I’d put my boss on a pedestal, put her so high above me that she lost her humanity. How could a being so far away, so all knowing and seeing, feel the petty emotions I did? But she wasn’t a god, or a creature, or anything else I’d ever encountered. She was human, and I knew I owed it to her to explain what I’d been doing.

One day I left my familiars and Chronos down in the shop and ascended the stairs unaccompanied by a customer and their problems. For the first time there was no creaking floorboards echoing behind me. I still went and made tea, still sat on the floor at my boss’s feet, still put the cups and pot on the table in front of me.

I told her I needed to talk to her, and although I was hoping the words would tumble unceremoniously out like they usually did, I struggled to start. What if she thought I’d betrayed her? What if she was on Fate’s side? What if by telling her this I’d ruin everything? I’d just admitted I didn’t really know this person, my boss, the enigmatic Madam Norna, and yet I was telling her a plan she could easily derail. I realised then that even though there were question marks, and that I didn’t know the ins and outs of her own life, that I trusted her, trusted that she wouldn’t intentionally hurt anyone, including me.

My conversations with Madam Anora, my revelation about Chronos and his connection to Death, the story, and about how they’d agreed to help set us all free fell between us. After I’d finished, I stared into her face and the familiar frustration about not being able to read it simmered at the back of my mind. Did that eyebrow twitch mean she thought this was a stupid plan? Did that blank gaze mean she was going to scold me for getting my head together with Madam Anora?

The silence sank my heart and threatened to snipe what hope that had buoyed me along this far. Could I go through with this if Madam Norna wasn’t on board? This woman who seemed to know everything about everyone, and events to come. The walking inventory of items in the shop, their history, and their purpose. If someone like that thought this plan was stupid, then she was probably right. I’d have paid a good amount of money to have her say anything the silence felt like it stretched on for that long.

She finally admitted in gentle, lulling tones, that she was uncertain whether it was a good idea. Fate was not one to be provoked. What happened if we failed? How harsh would the punishment be? She confessed in a rare moment of transparency that she’d had her misgivings when I’d shown up as it had signalled that her time was almost done, but over the years I’d been her apprentice she’d come to terms with it. What if interfering now, fighting against Fate’s grand plan, made things worse?

I really would’ve been an idiot if I hadn’t seen she had a point. I’d seen what Fate could do, what it could hurt. It was an almost omnipotent being, and we were trying to stop it. She was right, there could be worse consequences waiting for us if we failed. That didn’t mean we couldn’t at least try. What about all those women who’d been Madams before us, who’d given up their lives and loves because Fate said so, because Fate was too lazy to do its own job? The Madams were created to be servants, to be at the mercy of Fate’s controlling plan for the world, but if we beat it we could all have our freedom, we could live our lives the way we chose, not one that was chosen for us by an uncaring immortal being. Wasn’t the possibility of freedom better than living a life resigned to misery?

I can honestly say I didn’t know what I would’ve done if the Madam had refused. Would I still have gone through with it, or would I have called it all off and lived like she had, resigned to my fate? Thankfully I never have to find out, because she agreed to be a part, to help take down our master.

The bigger plan was put into action, although no doubt Madam Anora was already gleefully doing her part. I descended into the shop to tell my familiars what we needed to do next, something for once I knew I’d be great at because I’d done it so well before. Messing with Fate.

For the next week customers came and were sent away, white business cards confiscated. Purchases were refused or swapped with another item that was similar. Items were moved into storage, but no stock came out to replace them. Although it started getting concerning when no matter how much stuff we put into storage, the shop was still as full as ever. I don’t think we’ll ever know where all that shite comes from. All of us were doing all in our power to get Fate’s attention.

It’d taken me months on my own, but with all five of us in the shop, and Madam Anora in her own, it took a mere week to gain Fate’s attention. I think they’d timed it intentionally as it was during one of the rare times I was in the shop completely on my own that they turned up, perched on a vanity table facing the glass counter where I was sorting the jewellery.

A bit like with Madam Anora, I sensed the presence before I saw it. The same sharp-eyed, imposing owl standing still, staring blankly in my direction. I know animals don’t have facial expressions, but if this owl had lips, they’d be pursed in disgust. I’ll admit, I felt a jolt of fear as we made eye contact, and I felt very vulnerable in that moment, alone in the shop with something as powerful as Fate.

I had to try hard to remember that I wasn’t alone. My familiars, Chronos, and the Madam were all upstairs, a shout away, which I never got out as Fate began to speak.

They reminded me that they’d warned me about interfering with Fate and were disappointed that I’d not learned my lesson.

I corrected them that I’d learned it very well, in a voice so loud it travelled through the private door, up the stairs, and to the ears of my family. Hopefully. I began a half-baked apology whilst I reached beneath the counter for the jewellery box that I’d found last year, the one that connected this shop to Madam Anora’s, and opened the lid. This was our agreed signal that she and Madam Norna were to summon Death to the shop.

Now, all I had to do was give them some time. As much as I wanted to gloat to the owl’s face, tell it to put its affairs in order, I knew that wasn’t an option. I lightened my tone and said that all I’d wanted this time was to ask a question, and the only way to get its attention was to start playing funny buggers.

The owl looked suitably unimpressed, but I asked my question anyway. Why the Madams? Why give one person so much power, so much influence? What did Fate get from such an arrangement?

Silence.

 I started to coax. If I was going to be punished anyway, I might as well get an answer. It was a harmless question, wasn’t it? What could I, a mere apprentice, do with the answer?

Fate replied that I already knew the answer to my question, because I’d done the same thing. I felt my eyebrows draw into a frown. What did that mean? I don’t remember picking some poor victim to be my servant for eternity.

The ring on my little finger disagreed strongly.

Was that what the Madams were to Fate? Familiars? No, it wasn’t as simple as that, not as transactional. They were companions. Death had Chronos, but who did Fate have? Was that part of the reason they’d stolen him in the first place? Envy?

‘You…you wanted a friend,’ I stuttered.

The owl replied no, it had never wanted something so fragile, so easily destroyed by outside influence. It had wanted a bond, a connection, a kinship with another being that knew, even a wee bit, of what it was like to exist for so long. They’d thought humanity was the answer, transform one of them into a companion. But Fate’s gift had gone to their head, made them dangerous, made them a problem that needed to be balanced out.

The Madams had proven not to be the companions Fate had wished for, and after that they’d become resigned to a solitary existence.

I honestly wished I’d asked anything else because I truly wasn’t prepared for that answer. Loneliness doesn’t justify everything that had been done, and the irony that Fate had condemned the Madams to the same thing they’d tried to avoid by creating them wasn’t lost on me. I only faltered for a second, sympathy tainting my determination, until I heard a creak on the stairs, and the private door was opened by my familiars, Chronos, and the Madam.

I don’t know what my familiars or the Madam saw when they looked at Fate. A person? A creature? Someone they knew? I forgot to ask.

I thought we’d have to stall Fate for a bit longer, maybe even pretend to beg for our lives and for us not to be punished. I even thought Fate might do the job for us and launch into a villain’s monologue. Almost as soon as Chronos jumped onto the glass counter beside me, there was a sudden darkness to the shop, the light from outside wasn’t streaming in as brightly.

The bodach glas, Death, had arrived, Madam Anora at their side. I saw a brief glimmer of something in the owl’s depthless eyes as they noticed Death, something that looked an awful lot like doubt.

This didn’t last long as Fate began to scoff, realising what our plan was. The owl chastised me for being foolish, saying that Death had no power over it ever since their wee arrangement. If Death were to ever lift a finger against Fate, then they’d never see their love again.

Except Death had already seen their love. Chronos and the Bodach glas locked eyes, and almost immediately his eyes changed colour, there was a kind of clarity, as though recognising an old pal you haven’t seen in decades.

I corrected Fate by pointing at Chronos. The wee shite took his cue, jumped from the counter and transformed into his true form, complete with too many tails, and third sparkling eye. His growl was feral, made more menacing by the growing darkness caused by Death’s presence.

Fate began to realise that it was over. Their reign over the world and the power they held over it fading.

Death pronounced their judgment on Fate. They were to be confined to the shop, in the form that the architect of their downfall saw them in. Who was me, meaning that Fate was forced to be an owl for the rest of time. With Fate confined to the shop, their hold over the world and everything in it would be limited. There would be no more Madams, no more destinies, no more chosen lives. People would be free to choose for the first time in millennia.

With no more Madams, it meant that the current Madams were now free to live their lives. They were fully mortal. They’d live, age, and die just like everyone else. No longer would they be required to live for centuries, to be the guardians of Fate, and the gatekeepers of all the strange items in the world.

However, there needed to be one exception. Fate couldn’t be confined to the shop on its own, nor could the shop be left without someone to watch over it. The items inside had a purpose, and there were more out in the world that needed a place to go, and the ones already here a place to stay.

You’ll never guess who volunteered for this position. A life dedicated to the shop and all of the horrors inside?

Aye, it was me.

The problem was never the shop, it was being a Madam, being forced to be there day in, day out, for the rest of my long days. It’d always been about choice and the lack of one. Here I was being handed it. I could’ve walked away, could’ve left all this behind and went back to normal. Except, I didn’t want to do that. How could I after all the amazing, horrifying, spectacular things I’d seen? I’d been struggling with my future, not knowing what direction I wanted to go in, resigned to knowing I didn’t have a choice. Now I had one, and I’d made it.

Death confirmed that although not a Madam, I’d probably live a bit longer than an average person. I would age, and one day I’d die, but I’d get a bit longer on the ride than most people, which was fine by me. Death threw in a bonus, in gratitude for reuniting him with his greatest love, Chronos, who himself was a facet of time. His presence had been the main reason that the shop was suspended, a pocket dimension in its own right. Aye, the wee shite was a lot more powerful than I’d ever appreciated, and no, I still haven’t stopped calling him that. He’ll always be my wee shite, no matter how big he is.

The bonus allowed Fionn to leave the shop. He wasn’t free. Even though we’d done Death a favour, it still wasn’t enough to completely resurrect Fionn, but he was able now to go outside for a day at a time. If he didn’t come back, then he’d die for good. Fionn has since taken full advantage of his new freedom and seems the happier for it.

Everyone parted ways. Death left with Chronos, who I didn’t want to see leave. The full story of what happened was told to me after he came back to visit. Fate kidnapped him from Death many millennia ago and had kept him prisoner, forcing Death to do their bidding. One day, by chance or something more powerful we’ll never know, he escaped. On his way back to Death his memories faded, Fate’s last attempt to prevent the reunion, and had condemned Chronos to wander the earth not knowing who he was, until the Madams found him. It wasn’t clear whether Fate knew who he was, or whether they were arrogant and thought that the shop was as good a prison as any, as long as it was away from Death. Once Chronos and Death had been reunited, whatever Fate had done fell away, and Chronos remembered everything. He and Death are happily reunited, but he still visits from time to time.

It’s been a few months since this all happened, since Fate was trapped in the shop amongst the many items it allowed to be created. Reid and Fionn are no longer my familiars because I’m no longer an apprentice. I still wear the ring though, I got used to it, but it no longer has the powers it used to.

Fionn is still in the shop, although takes advantages of his day’s freedom every now and then. We’ve both tried to sort the shop, made the mistake of trying to change it, make it neater, but like when we were preparing to face Fate, no matter what we move or change, more items appear from thin air. We’ve since given up. We also have to put up with the owl, which has been given its own perch, in prime position to glare at me and whoever comes in. Fate hasn’t spoken a word since we trapped it in the shop, but I’m sure in time that’ll probably change. Neither Fionn nor I have the courage to put it in storage.

Reid, since gaining his freedom, has started living his life away from the shop. He’s in a relationship that’s lasted more than two minutes, and during his visits to the shop he appears happier than I’ve ever seen him, the frown he used to wear softened.

The Madams are also taking full advantage of their freedom. Anora has been looking for her descendants, or rather her family’s descendants, and has been trying to reconnect with them. We receive almost weekly postcards from Norna as she travels from exotic place to exotic place, seeing things in person she’d only read in books.

As for me. I’m now the Proprietor of the shop. I didn’t want to keep the Madam title since I’d been so desperate to avoid it. I don’t appear to have the same powers as I used to, but there’s still wee things here and there, inclinations about customers, and unbelievably they still come in with their weird problems, and I can still help them. It might surprise you to know that by some miraculous twist of luck I actually managed to graduate with a degree that I’ll now never use. For once I got to be smug to my family and pals, telling them I was going to be running my own business. To this day they still haven’t been able to find the shop.

It’s all still a bit new. I chose the name Proprietor but what that even entails is still something I don’t quite know. I’m curious as to how I’m going to forge a path ahead when I feel as unequipped as the day I walked into the shop for the first time. But I suppose that’s the fun of it, not knowing where things are going, not knowing which direction you’re travelling in, knowing that your life isn’t planned out for you by something out of your control. That was always the world I wanted to live in, and now I get to do just that. Live by my own choices.

Scots-ish language version

Anora and I have a plan. There’s a ray ae hope on the horizon, a partin’ in the clouds that lets the sun shine doon. Durin’ ma schemin’ and sneakin’ aroond wi’ the enemy, I never forgot that our wee rebel group was missin’ someone.

Madam Norna.

Over the years the woman has always been a question mark, someone that’s right there ready tae talk, listen, and offer advice, yet seems aloof, occupyin’ a place no one can reach. I still feel as though I dinnae really know her. How did she feel aboot bein’ the Madam? Did she get sick ae it sometimes? Did her heart ache as mine did? Did she suffer episodes ae bitterness or envy? When I wasnae there did she gaze oot ae the windae and marvel at how much the world had changed, when she remained stationary? How had she felt when I turned up, her unequipped replacement?

Perhaps it wasnae that she was aloof, maybe it was that I’d never bothered tae ask. Perhaps I’d put ma boss on a pedestal, put her so high above me that she lost her humanity. How could a being so far away, so all knowing and seeing, feel the petty emotions I did? But she wasnae a god, or a creature, or anythin’ else I’d ever encountered. She was human, and I knew I owed it tae her tae explain whit I’d been doin.

One day I left ma familiars and Chronos doon in the shop, and ascended the stairs unaccompanied by a customer and their problems. Fae the first time there was no creakin’ floorboards echoin’ behind me. I still went and made tea, still sat on the floor at ma boss’s feet, still put the cups and pot on the table in front ae me.

I told her I needed tae talk tae her, and although I was hopin’ the words would tumble unceremoniously oot like they usually did, I struggled tae start. Whit if she thought I’d betrayed her? Whit if she was on Fate’s side? Whit if by tellin’ her this I’d ruin everything? I’d just admitted I didnae really know this person, ma boss, the enigmatic Madam Norna, and yet I was tellin’ her a plan she could easily derail. I realised then that even though there were question marks, and that I didnae know the ins and oots ae her own life, that I trusted her, trusted that she wouldnae intentionally hurt anyone, includin’ me.

Ma conversations wi’ Madam Anora, ma revelation aboot Chronos and his connection tae Death, the story, and aboot how they’d agreed tae help set us all free fell between us. After I’d finished I stared intae her face and the familiar frustration aboot no bein’ able tae read it simmered at the back ae ma mind. Did that eyebrow twitch mean she thought this was a stupid plan? Did that blank gaze mean she was gonnae scold me fae gettin’ ma heid together wi’ Madam Anora?

The silence sank ma heart and threatened tae snipe whit hope that had buoyed me along this far. Could I go through wi’ this if Madam Norna wasnae on board? This woman who seemed tae know everythin aboot everyone, and events tae come. The walkin’ inventory ae items in the shop, their history, and their purpose. If someone like that thought this plan was stupid, then she was probably right. I’d have paid a good amount ae money tae have her say anything the silence felt like it stretched on fae that long.

She finally admitted in gentle, lulling tones, that she was uncertain whether it was a good idea. Fate was no one tae be provoked. Whit happened if we failed? How harsh would the punishment be? She confessed in a rare moment ae transparency, that she’d had her misgivings when I’d shown up as it had signalled that her time was almost done, but over the years I’d been her apprentice she’d come tae terms wi’ it. Whit if interfering noo, fightin’ against Fate’s grand plan, made things worse?

I really wouldae been an ijit if I hadnae seen she had a point. I’d seen whit Fate could do, whit it could hurt. It was an almost omnipotent being, and we were tryin’ tae stop it. She was right, there could be worse consequences waitin’ fae us if we failed. That didnae mean we couldnae at least try. Whit aboot all ae those women who’d been Madams before us, who’d given up their lives and loves because Fate said so, because Fate was too lazy tae do its own job? The Madams were created tae be servants, tae be at the mercy ae Fate’s controlling plan fae the world, but if we beat it we could all have our freedom, we could live our lives the way we chose, no one that was chosen fae us by an uncaring immortal being. Wasnae the possibility ae freedom better than living a life resigned tae misery?

I can honestly say I didnae know whit I wouldae done if the Madam had refused. Would I still have gone through wi’ it, or would I have called it all off and lived like she had, resigned tae ma fate? Thankfully I never have tae find oot, because she agreed tae be a part, tae help take doon our master.

The bigger plan was put intae action, although no doubt Madam Anora was already gleefully doin’ her part. I descended intae the shop tae tell ma familiars what we needed tae do next, somethin’ fae once I knew I’d be great at because I’d done it so well before. Messin’ wi fate.

Fae the next week customers came and were sent away, white business cards confiscated. Purchases were refused or swapped wi’ another item that was similar. Items were moved intae storage but no stock came oot tae replace them. Although it started getting’ concernin when no matter how much stuff we put intae storage, the shop was still as full as ever. I dinnae think we’ll ever know where all that shite comes fae. All ae us were doin’ all in our power tae get Fate’s attention.

It’d taken me months on ma own, but wi’ all five ae us in the shop, and Madam Anora in her own, it took a mere week tae gain Fate’s attention. I think they’d timed it intentionally as it was durin’ one ae the rare times I was in the shop completely on ma own that they turned up, perched on a vanity table facin’ the glass counter where I was sortin’ the jewellery.

A bit like wi’ Madam Anora, I sensed the presence before I saw it. The same sharp-eyed, imposin’ owl standin’ still, starin’ blankly in ma direction. I know animals dinnae have facial expressions, but if this owl had lips, they’d be pursed in disgust. I’ll admit, I felt a jolt ae fear as we made eye contact, and I felt very vulnerable in that moment, alone in the shop wi’ somethin’ as powerful as Fate.

I had tae try hard tae remember that I wasnae alone. Ma familiars, Chronos, and the Madam were all upstairs, a shout away, which I never got oot as Fate began tae speak.

They reminded me that they’d warned me aboot interferin’ wi’ Fate, and were disappointed that I’d no learned ma lesson.

I corrected them that I’d learned it very well, in a voice so loud it travelled through the private door, up the stairs, and tae the ears ae ma family. Hopefully. I began a half-baked apology whilst I reached beneath the counter fae the jewellery box that I’d found last year, the one that connected this shop tae Madam Anora’s, and opened the lid. This was our agreed signal that she and Madam Norna were tae summon Death tae the shop.

Noo, all I had tae do was give them some time. As much as I wanted tae gloat tae the owl’s face, tell it tae put its affairs in order, I knew that wasnae an option. I lightened ma tone, and said that all I’d wanted this time was tae ask a question, and the only way tae get its attention was tae start playin’ funny buggers.

The owl looked suitably unimpressed, but I asked ma question anyway. Why the Madams? Why give a person so much power, so much influence? What did Fate get fae such an arrangement?

Silence.

 I started tae coax. If I was gonnae be punished anyway I might as well get an answer. It was a harmless question, wasn’t it? Whit could I, a mere apprentice, do wi’ the answer?

Fate replied that I already knew the answer tae ma question, because I’d done the same thing. I felt ma eyebrows draw intae a frown. Whit did that mean? I dinnae remember pickin’ some poor victim tae be ma servant fae eternity.

The ring on ma wee finger disagreed strongly.

Was that whit the Madams were tae Fate? Familiars? No, it wasnae as simple as that, no as transactional. They were companions. Death had Chronos, but who did Fate have? Was that part ae the reason they’d stolen him in the first place? Envy?

You…you wanted a friend, I stuttered.

The owl replied no, it had never wanted something so fragile, so easily destroyed by outside influence. It had wanted a bond, a connection, a kinship with another being that knew, even a wee bit, of what it was like tae exist for so long. They’d thought humanity was the answer, transform one ae them intae a companion. But Fate’s gift had gone tae their head, made them dangerous, made them a problem that needed tae be balanced oot.

The Madams had proven no tae be the companions Fate had wished fae, and after that they’d become resigned tae a solitary existence.

I honestly wished I’d asked anything else because I truly wasnae prepared fae that answer. Loneliness doesnae justify everythin’ that had been done, and the irony that Fate had condemned the Madams to the same thing they’d tried tae avoid by creating them wasnae lost on me. I only faltered fae a second, sympathy taintin’ ma determination, until I heard a creak on the stairs, and the private door was opened by ma familiars, Chronos, and the Madam.

I dinnae know whit ma familiars or the Madam saw when they looked at Fate. A person? A creature? Someone they knew? I forgot tae ask.

I thought we’d have tae stall Fate fae a bit longer, maybe even pretend tae beg fae our lives and fae us no tae be punished. I even thought Fate might do the job fae us and launch intae a villain’s monologue. Almost as soon as Chronos jumped ontae the glass counter beside me, there was a sudden darkness tae the shop, the light fae ootside wasnae streamin’ in as brightly.

The bodach, Death, had arrived, Madam Anora at their side. I saw a brief glimmer ae somethin’ in the owl’s depthless eyes as they noticed Death, somethin’ that looked an awful lot like doubt.

This didnae last long as Fate began tae scoff, realising’ whit our plan was. The owl chastised me fae bein’ foolish, sayin’ that Death had no power over it ever since their wee arrangement. If Death were tae ever lift a finger against Fate, then they’d never see their love again.

Except Death had already seen their love. Chronos and the Bodach locked eyes, and almost immediately his eyes changed colour, there was a kindae clarity, as though recognisin’ an old pal ye havenae seen in decades.

I corrected Fate by pointin’ at Chronos. The wee shite took his cue, jumped fae the counter and transformed intae his true form, complete wi’ too many tails, and third sparklin’ eye. His growl was feral, made more menacin’ by the growin’ darkness caused by Death’s presence.

Fate began tae realise that it was over. Their reign over the world and the power they held over it fadin’.

Death pronounced their judgment on Fate. They were tae be confined tae the shop, in the form that the architect ae their downfall saw them in. Who was me, meanin’ that Fate was forced tae be an owl fae the rest ae time. Wi’ Fate confined tae the shop, their hold over the world and everythin’ in it would be limited. There would be no more Madams, no more destinies, no more chosen lives. People would be free to choose fae the first time in millennia.

Wi’ no more Madams, it meant that the current Madams were now free tae live their lives. They were fully mortal. They’d live, age and die just like everyone else. No longer would they be required tae live fae centuries, tae be the guardians ae Fate, and the gatekeepers ae all the strange items in the world.

However, there needed tae be one exception. Fate couldnae be confined tae the shop on its own, nor could the shop be left withoot someone tae watch over it. The items inside had a purpose, and there were more oot in the world that needed a place tae go, and the ones already here a place tae stay.

You’ll never guess who volunteered fae this position. A life dedicated tae the shop and all ae the horrors inside?

Aye, it was me.

The problem was never the shop, it was bein’ a Madam, bein’ forced tae be there day in, day oot, fae the rest ae ma long days. It’d always been aboot choice and the lack ae one. Here I was bein’ handed it. I couldae walked away, couldae left all this behind and went back tae normal. Except, I didnae want tae do that. How could I after all ae the amazin’, horrifying, spectacular things I’d seen? I’d been strugglin’ wi’ ma future, no knowin’ whit direction I wanted tae go in, resigned tae knowin’ I didnae have a choice. Noo I had one, and I’d made it.

Death confirmed that although no’ a Madam, I’d probably live a bit longer than an average person. I would age, and one day I’d die, but I’d get a bit longer on the ride than most people, which was fine by me. Death threw in a bonus, in gratitude fae reuniting’ him wi’ his greatest love, Chronos, who himself was a facet ae time. His presence had been the main reason that the shop was suspended, a pocket dimension in its own right. Aye, the wee shite was a lot more powerful than I’d ever appreciated, and no I still havenae stopped callin’ him that. He’ll always be ma wee shite, no matter how big he is.

The bonus allowed Fionn tae leave the shop. He wasnae free. Even though we’d done Death a favour, it still wasnae enough tae completely resurrect Fionn, but he was able noo tae go ootside fae a day at a time. If he didnae come back, then he’d die fae good. Fionn has since taken full advantage ae his new freedom, and seems the happier fae it.

Everyone parted ways. Death left wi’ Chronos, who I didnae want tae see leave. The full story ae whit happened was told tae me after he came back tae visit. Fate kidnapped him fae Death many millennia ago and had kept him prisoner, forcin’ Death tae do their bidding. One day, by chance or somethin’ more powerful we’ll never know, he escaped. On his way back tae Death his memories faded, Fate’s last attempt tae prevent the reunion, and had condemned Chronos tae wander the earth no knowin’ who he was, until the Madams found him. It wasnae clear whether Fate knew who he was, or whether they were arrogant and thought that the shop was as good a prison as any as long as it was away fae Death. Once Chronos and Death had been reunited, whatever Fate had done fell away, and Chronos remembered everythin. He and Death are happily reunited, but he still visits fae time tae time.

It’s been a few months since this all happened, since Fate was trapped in the shop amongst the many items it allowed tae be created. Reid and Fionn are no longer ma familiars because I’m no longer an apprentice. I still wear the ring though, I got used tae it, but it no longer has the powers it used tae.

Fionn is still in the shop, although takes advantages ae his day’s freedom every noo and then. We’ve both tried tae sort the shop, made the mistake ae tryin’ tae change it, make it neater, but like when we were preparin’ tae face Fate, no matter whit we move or change, more items appear fae thin air. We’ve since given up. We also have tae put up wi’ the owl, which has been given its own perch, in prime position tae glare at me and whoever comes in. Fate hasnae spoken a word since we trapped it in the shop, but I’m sure in time that’ll probably change. Neither Fionn or I have the courage tae put it in storage.

Reid, since gaining his freedom, has started living his life away fae the shop. He’s in a relationship that’s lasted more than two minutes, and durin’ his visits tae the shop he appears happier than I’ve ever seen him, the frown he used tae wear softened.

The Madams are also takin’ full advantage ae their freedom. Anora has been lookin’ fae her descendants, or rather her family’s descendants, and has been tryin’ tae reconnect wi them. We receive almost weekly postcards fae Norna as she travels fae exotic place tae exotic place, seein’ things in person she’d only read in books.

As fae me. I’m noo the proprietor ae the shop. I didnae want tae keep the Madam title since I’d been so desperate tae avoid it. I dinnae appear tae have the same powers as I used tae, but there’s still wee things here and there, inclinations aboot customers, and unbelievably they still come in wi’ their weird problems, and I can still help them. It might surprise ye tae know that by some miraculous twist ae luck I actually managed tae graduate wi’ a degree that I’ll now never use. Fae once I got tae be smug tae ma family and pals, tellin’ them I was gonnae be runnin’ ma own business. Tae this day they still havenae been able tae find the shop.

It’s all still a bit new. I chose the name proprietor but whit that even entails is still somethin’ I dinnae quite know. I’m curious as tae how I’m gonnae forge a path ahead when I feel as unequipped as the day I walked intae the shop fae the first time. But I suppose that’s the fun ae it, not knowing where things are going, not knowing which direction you’re travelling in, knowing that your life isnae planned oot for you by something oot ae your control. That was always the world I wanted tae live in, and now I get tae do just that. Live by ma own choices.

Episode 49 – The death message

Scots vocabulary

Dobber – yet another word for idiot; we have a lot of them.

Dreich – dull, gloomy, usually referring to the weather.

Tatties – potatoes

Bodach glas – a grey man figure that’s thought to be an omen of death in Scottish folklore.

Story

I didn’t bother going to the shop the next day, not my shop at least. I went to another one. I’m not really sure how I found it. I’ve seen it before through a jewellery box mirror, but never really known in what dark alleyway it’s been hiding all these years.

Turns out it’s not in a dark alleyway at all, but a normal part of the town. There’s no shop front, no window display. It’s just a doorway that people walk past and don’t notice. Not unless they need to. It doesn’t look like anything else around it, it’s not painted, there’s no glass that you can peek through, there’s no sign outside. There’s not even a handle. It only opens from the inside.

I’d been running on excitement since the festival, since I’d learned about Death’s greatest love, but now that I was here my confidence started to wither. What if I was wrong? Making connections between things that weren’t? Seeing patterns where there wasn’t any? I should walk away.

But I didn’t.

I ignored the doubts, the thoughts that made me stop, the fear, and I knocked on the door of Madam Anora’s shop. I don’t think I’ve ever seen that woman look surprised, but I was satisfied with the perplexed frown she threw me when she realised I wasn’t a customer.

There’s no one to make tea here so we sit at her small table across from one another. The room is as dark as it was in the mirror, whatever light came from the lampshades was smothered by the carpets and walls. I thought it’d be stuffy, no windows to leave open, no draft to filter through the gaps in the door frame, but it’s not. This place is quiet, almost peaceful. The shop, my shop, is cavernous, stuffed from floor to ceiling with items and objects and trinkets, but sometimes it feels vacant, almost lonely.

Madam Anora’s shop was the opposite and yet the same, familiar, yet alien. Everything was neat here; everything had an order. There was very little on display. Some items on a shelf, the one I’d been viewing the room through, and I wondered if whatever the jewellery box I’d found had been attached to was still here, or if Madam Anora had noticed. It was sparse, but the darkened walls and dull light lent it a more comfortable feel, the lack of clutter and mess meant you could see every corner, every nook, and knew there was nothing there.

I didn’t like that I wasn’t as disgusted by being there as I should’ve been. She was the enemy, wasn’t she? This was where curses were cast, bad people were helped, and lives were ruined. But what had I expected? A cauldron?

Madam Anora let my eyes wander, let the silence settle. The similarities between her and my boss were perhaps better left unmentioned. When I finally realised there had been a lengthy silence I got straight to the point. Had she ever heard the story about Death’s greatest love?

Her eyes narrowed, her mouth pursed, and I could tell she wanted to throw an insult. I surmised from this reaction that she did know the story, which she confirmed, before wondering why I’d asked her about it.

Was it true?

The distaste melted from her features and a shadow of smugness settled in its place. At least she felt superior now. According to popular myth it was true, she confirmed, but it’d happened so long ago, before even the Madams existed, that no one really knew the exact truth, or the finer details, only what had been passed down.

Maybe the depiction of a Chronos-like creature at the festival had been the version that had been passed down the generations of foxes, maybe it was artistic licence by the puppet makers, but I wasn’t about to let this go over some flimsy coincidences.

Now it was my turn to look smug. I told Madam Anora that I had a way to break us all free of our fates as Madams, but in order to do it we needed to summon Death.

My smugness didn’t last long as Anora sneered and snickered in derision. I was an idiot, she said, the only way Death can be summoned is by dying, and unless I was willing to die for this, we’d have to use another way.

Before I could petulantly throw something back at her, she said that the quickest way to find death was to go somewhere they frequented. A place of death.

A cemetery? I’m glad I never said that aloud because I did feel like a dobber when she told me where we were going.

A hospice.

I don’t know what’s worse. Why does every place that begins with “hosp” have to be so bad? Visiting Reid after his accident was bad, but now we were going somewhere equally as dreich. And I was going there with the anti-Madam.

I’d never heard of the hospice we ended up at, none of my family have ever been a patient in one, but it was an eerie place. Hospitals are noisy, ironically full of life, yet this place was stuffed with something else, an unsettling peace that acted more like a vacuum. It was as if no one wanted to make a sound, as though breaking the silence was an act of sacrilege, a taboo. There were less people here, less staff, more carpets, less beds, less everything.

The staff never really said anything to us, didn’t even give us a glance, and I wondered whether this was Anora’s doing, an extension of her powers as a Madam. There was a lot I didn’t know about her, and that had been why I hadn’t told her about Chronos and his possible connection with Death. I didn’t trust her as far as I could throw her.

Where I was affected by the atmosphere of the hospice, Anora was blissfully immune, and she told me we needed to find the patient who was most likely to die next. I threw her a glare that bounced off of her like rain off a window. And then we split up.

I had no idea what I was supposed to look for. It’s not like people have signs over their head with “Death take me next!”, and although the visitors and patients couldn’t really see me, it felt intrusive peering through doorways into rooms.

There was a mix of communal rooms and private ones. Most people in the single rooms weren’t conscious, the beeps of their machinery the only sound seeping out, the only sign of any life. I hurried past quicker than I should’ve, and I felt like Reid in a cemetery, as though walking quickly and avoiding eye contact would somehow spare me.

I became used to the beeps, to the exhale of a machine, the high-pitched tone of a counter or timer. So, when I heard the thunk of heavy plastic hit the linoleum floor in the room I’d just walked past, I reversed to look in.

An older looking woman, maybe fifties or sixties, was sitting up in her bed in a private room, staring down forlornly at the ground where she’d dropped a thick, navy blue brick shaped object. At first glance I thought it was a glasses case, and without thinking crossed the threshold and swooped down to pick it up.

It wasn’t anything to do with glasses, it was a fucking phone.

I’m not joking this thing weighed about as much as a bag of tatties. It even had buttons, proper buttons! I don’t remember these types of phone, but my Da had one in a drawer that he’d had before I was born. He’d called them invincible, and I think some are even in museums now. This one was testament to how well they were built if it was still working more than 20 years later. You even had to press buttons multiple times to get a single letter.

Why was this person still using this phone? Technology had come a long way, and surely it wasn’t even supported by the manufacturer anymore. I realise that I’m staring in amazement at this phone, and that it’s not mine, so I start to give it back to the woman when it nearly vibrates out of my hand and reads ‘1 new message’ on the screen. The sender is 1983.

I don’t know how these phones worked, but four digits is too few for a number, and what kind of nickname was 1983? Old person, unknown strange number; I started to think this might be a scam.

The patient, who later told me her name was Joan, noticed the look on my face and tried to reassure me that it was nothing sinister, that this phone was letting her communicate with her dead husband. This did nothing to reassure me like she was hoping.

I slowly sank down into the armchair left for visitors and acted interested, trying to hide the shrill lilt of surprise from my tone. Joan told me that when she was healthier, before her cancer diagnosis, she had run a small business that bought vintage items from estate sales and sold them online. One day she’d been at an auction and a box of random items had been one of the lots. She’d been more interested in the other things inside, but the phone was a part of the sale. Assuming she’d just hand it in somewhere, or throw it away, she’d thought nothing of it. Then it’d started vibrating.

It’d been a text message saying that it’d been a long time since they’d spoken and asked her if she was doing well. The text had been sent from the number 1983. The same year her first husband had died in a motorbike accident.

Out of morbid curiosity she’d replied, and over the proceeding text message exchange it’d become clear that the person on the other end was her first husband. He mentioned things about their marriage, he remembered her favourite restaurant, what house they’d been wanting to buy, how many guests they’d had at their wedding.

That’d been a few years ago, and they’d been talking ever since. It’d been a comfort, especially through her cancer, which she’d been diagnosed with shortly after getting the phone.

I tried not to stare at the phone, tried not to be concerned with the loving way she gazed at it. There was that familiar unease swarming in my stomach, that same sense that something wasn’t adding up here.

Before I could ask any more questions, Madam Anora appeared in the doorway, small frown drawing her eyebrows together as she noticed me sitting down talking. Curtly, she summoned me over to the door with a flick of her hand, and apologising to Joan I did as I was told.

I presumed by her short attitude that she hadn’t found Death, and before she could berate me for sitting on my arse whilst she traipsed around, I asked her about the phone Joan had. Anora glanced at it, observed Joan, and said it was probably a transference phone, and that it was too late to help her now.

Although the shop may be filled with antiques with a long history, there was the occasional item from more recent times. With the rise of technology, someday they themselves were bound to become antiques, and it’d already started. Some people had begun to use older mobile phones to avoid the inevitable. They’d do something to the phone, enchant it in some way, so that whoever received it and began texting them back on it would swap places with them. If they had cancer, then the phone would transfer the cancer to its new owner. Whoever was texting Joan, pretending to be her husband, had been diagnosed with whatever cancer she had now, and over the years it’d slowly transferred to her.

I felt sick. Why the fuck were things like this allowed to happen?

Anora noticed my disgust and told me we had no time, and that Joan didn’t either. Before I could berate her for being so unhelpfully crass about the death of a stranger, I heard the phone drop to the ground again, but when I looked at Joan she was unconscious.

Not unconscious. Dead.

Madam Anora perked up and told me that I should’ve said if I’d found the person who was going to die next. I had no words. They had all disappeared.

It didn’t take long for the familiar black shadow of Death to colour the walls and smother the light. They hadn’t changed a bit since I’d seen them last, although why would they? It’s not like in the last few months I’d suddenly overcome my fear of the Bodach glas, or my fear of Death. I didn’t really think about it at the time, but I wonder now what Anora saw, what Death was to her.

The Bodach glas stopped on its way to the old woman, lying in her bed, phone having fallen on the floor, still not broken. Its cloaked figure glanced at Anora, then at me, and again greeted me as Fate’s apprentice before wondering why they’d seen so much of me lately.

I cleared my throat because I knew my voice would’ve cracked otherwise. I asked them about the story, the one I’d seen at the festival, about their greatest love. Was it true? Bodach’s don’t have faces, they have no expressions, yet there was a bitterness to the air, a sad ripple through the darkness Death was cloaked in.

I began to tell them about Chronos, about his preference for being a black cat, about his many tails and third eye, until finally I confess that I know where he is, and what he’s been doing for all of these millennia.

I don’t know if you’ve ever been stared at by Death, but it’s not pleasant, even without facial features.

The adrenaline was starting to make my hands shake and I balled them into fists to stop it from spreading to the rest of my body. I wasn’t done yet.

I told the Bodach glas that I would only reunite them with their love if they killed Fate.

Confidence doesn’t bloom in me when even Madam Anora stares at me like I’ve gone mad, and I suppose she’s not far off being right.

The bodach glas is silent, the shadow shifts, it’s cloak ripples like sand on a windy day, and after a few moments they propose their counteroffer. They’d just kill me and be done.

The shaking got worse, and the doubts began to ravage my mind. What if I was wrong and I’d just threatened one of the most powerful beings in existence? I had no doubt Death would kill me for being such a cheeky shite. But I’d been doing this for years, doubting, procrastinating, finding anything else to believe because I was too slow, too unaccepting of myself and everything I’d seen.

I knew I was right, and I knew could do this.

I replied that they couldn’t kill me. I was a future Madam, my fate had already been set. Currently, I was immune, and it was all because Death had put themselves beneath Fate, had given into their whims and fancies, let themselves become inferior. But I was offering a solution, a happy ending.

Anora looked as though she was about ready to walk out and refuse that she ever knew me. She wouldn’t have any faith in me, would she?

Death, after a few more moments of ominous silence, confirmed that I was right on all accounts, except one. Yes, they couldn’t kill me, but they also couldn’t kill Fate either. As long as there was life, there would be some semblance of Fate. You can’t kill a concept, an idea.

However, you can imprison it.

Scots-ish language version

I didnae bother going tae the shop the next day, no ma shop at least. I went tae another one. I’m no really sure how I found it. I’ve seen it before, through a jewellery box mirror, but never really known in whit dark alleyway it’s been hidin’ all these years.

Turns oot it’s no in a dark alleyway at all, but a normal part ae the town. There’s no shop front, no windae display. It’s just a doorway that people walk past and dinnae notice. No unless they need tae. It doesnae look like anything else aroond it, it’s no painted, there’s no glass that ye can peek through, there’s no sign ootside. There’s no even a handle. It only opens from the inside.

I’d been runnin on excitement since the festival, since I’d learned aboot Death’s greatest love, but noo that I was here ma confidence started tae wither. Whit if I was wrong? Makin’ connections between things that werenae? Seeing patterns where there wasnae any? I should walk away.

But I didnae.

I ignored the doubts, the thoughts that made me stop, the fear, and I knocked on the door ae Madam Anora’s shop. I dinnae think I’ve ever seen that woman look surprised, but I was satisfied with the perplexed frown she threw me when she realised I wasnae a customer.

There’s no one tae make tea here so we sit at her small table across fae one another. The room is as dark as it was in the mirror, whitever light came fae the lampshades was smothered by the carpets and walls. I thought it’d be stuffy, no windaes tae leave open, no draft tae filter through the gaps in the door frame, but it’s not. This place is quiet, almost peaceful. The shop, ma shop, is cavernous, stuffed fae floor tae ceiling wi’ items and objects and trinkets, but sometimes it feels vacant, almost lonely.

Madam Anora’s shop was the opposite and yet the same, familiar, yet alien. Everything was neat here, everything had an order. There was very little on display. Some items on a shelf, the one I’d been viewing the room through, and I wondered if whatever the jewellery box I’d found had been attached to was still here, or if Madam Anora had noticed. It was sparse, but the darkened walls and dull light lent it a more comfortable feel, the lack ae clutter and mess meant ye could see every corner, every nook, and knew there was nothin’ there.

I didnae like that I wasnae as disgusted by bein’ there as I shouldae been. She was the enemy, wasn’t she? This was where curses were cast, bad people were helped, and lives were ruined. But whit had I expected? A cauldron?

Madam Anora let ma eyes wander, let the silence settle. The similarities between her and ma boss were perhaps better left unmentioned. When I finally realised there had been a lengthy silence I got straight tae the point. Had she ever heard ae the story aboot Death’s greatest love?

Her eyes narrowed, her mouth pursed, and I could tell she wanted tae throw an insult. I surmised fae this reaction that she did know the story, which she confirmed, before wondering why I’d asked her aboot it.

Was it true?

The distaste melted fae her features and a shadow ae smugness settled in its place. At least she felt superior noo. Accordin’ tae popular myth it was true, she confirmed, but it’d happened so long ago, before even the Madams existed, that no one really knew the exact truth, or the finer details, only whit had been passed doon.

Maybe the depiction ae a Chronos-like creature at the festival had been the version that had been passed doon the generations ae foxes, maybe it was artistic licence by the puppet makers, but I wasnae aboot tae let this go over some flimsy coincidences.

Noo it was ma turn tae look smug. I told Madam Anora that I had a way tae break us all free ae our fates as Madams, but in order tae do it we needed tae summon Death.

Ma smugness didnae last long as Anora sneered and snickered in derision. I was an idiot, she said, the only way Death can be summoned is by dying, and unless I was willing tae die fae this, we’d have tae use another way.

Before I could petulantly throw somethin’ back at her, she said that the quickest way tae find death was tae go somewhere they frequented. A place ae death.

A cemetery? I’m glad I never said that aloud because I did feel like a dobber when she told me where we were goin.

A hospice.

I dinnae know whit’s worse. Why does every place that begins with “hosp” have tae be so bad? Visitin’ Reid after his accident was bad, but noo we were goin somewhere equally as dreich. And I was goin’ there wi’ the anti-Madam.

I’d never heard ae the hospice we ended up at, none ae ma family have ever been a patient in one, but it was an eerie place. Hospitals are noisy, ironically full ae life, yet this place was stuffed wi’ somethin’ else, an unsettling peace that acted more like a vacuum. It was as if no one wanted tae make a sound, as though breaking the silence was an act ae sacrilege, a taboo. There were less people here, less staff, more carpets, less beds, less everything.

The staff never really said anythin’ tae us, didnae even give us a glance, and I wondered whether this was Anora’s doing, an extension ae her powers as a Madam. There was a lot I didnae know aboot her, and that had been why I hadnae told her aboot Chronos and his possible connection wi’ Death. I didnae trust her as far as I could throw her.

Where I was affected by the atmosphere ae the hospice, Anora was blissfully immune, and she told me we needed tae find the patient who was most likely tae die next. I threw her a glare that bounced aff ae her like rain aff a windae. And then we split up.

I had no idea whit I was supposed tae look for. It’s no like people have signs over their heid wi “Death take me next!”, and although the visitors and patients couldnae really see me, it felt intrusive peering through doorways intae rooms.

There was a mix ae communal rooms and private ones. Most people in the single rooms werenae conscious, the beeps ae their machinery the only sound seeping oot, the only sign ae any life. I hurried past quicker than I shouldae, and I felt like Reid in a cemetery, as though walking quickly and avoiding eye contact would somehow spare me.

I became used tae the beeps, tae the exhale ae a machine, the high-pitched tone ae a counter or timer. So when I heard the thunk ae heavy plastic hit the linoleum floor in the room I’d just walked past, I reversed tae look in.

An older lookin’ woman, maybe fifties or sixties, was sittin’ up in her bed in a private room, starin’ doon forlornly at the ground where she’d dropped a thick, navy blue brick shaped object. At first glance I thought it was a glasses case, and withoot thinkin’ crossed the threshold and swooped doon tae pick it up.

It wasnae anythin’ tae do wi’ glasses, it was a fuckin’ phone.

I’m no jokin’ this thing weighed aboot as much as a bag ae tatties. It even had buttons, proper buttons! I dinnae remember these types ae phones, but ma Da had one in a drawer that he’d had before I was born. He’d called them invincible, and I think some are even in museums noo. This one was testament tae how well they were built if it was still working more than 20 years later. Ye even had tae press buttons multiple times tae get a single letter.

Why was this person still usin’ this phone? Technology had come a long way, and surely it wasnae even supported by the manufacturer anymore. I realise that I’m starin’ in amazement at this phone, and that it’s no mine, so I start tae give it back tae the woman when it nearly vibrates oot ae ma hand, and reads 1 new message on the screen. The sender is 1983.

I dinnae know how these phones worked, but four digits is too few fae a number, and whit kind ae nickname was 1983? Old person, unknown strange number; I started tae think this might be a scam.

The patient, who later told me her name was Joan, noticed the look on ma face and tried tae reassure me that it was nothin’ sinister, that this phone was lettin’ her communicate wi’ her deid husband. This did nothin’ tae reassure me, like she was hopin’.

I slowly sank doon intae the armchair left fae visitors and acted interested, tryin’ tae hide the shrill lilt ae surprise fae ma tone. Joan told me that when she was healthier, before her cancer diagnosis, she had run a small business that bought vintage items fae estate sales and sold them online. One day she’d been at an auction and a box ae random items had been one ae the lots. She’d been more interested in the other things inside, but the phone was a part ae the sale. Assumin’ she’d just hand it in somewhere, or throw it away, she’d thought nothin’ of it. Then it’d started vibratin’.

It’d been a text message sayin’ that it’d been a long time since they’d spoken, and asked her if she was doin well. The text had been sent fae the number 1983. The same year her first husband had died in a motorbike accident.

Oot ae morbid curiosity she’d replied back, and over the proceeding text message exchange it’d become clear that the person on the other end was her first husband. He mentioned things aboot their marriage, he remembered her favourite restaurant, whit hoose they’d been wantin’ tae buy, how many guests they’d had at their wedding.

That’d been a few years ago, and they’d been talkin’ ever since. It’d been a comfort especially through her cancer, which she’d been diagnosed wi’ shortly after getting’ the phone.

I tried no tae stare at the phone, tried no tae be concerned wi’ the loving way she gazed at it. There was that familiar unease swarmin’ in ma stomach, that same sense that somethin’ wasnae addin’ up here.

Before I could ask anymore questions, Madam Anora appeared in the doorway, small frown drawin’ her eyebrows together as she noticed me sittin’ doon talkin’. Curtly, she summoned me over tae the door wi’ a flick ae her hand, and apologisin’ tae Joan I did as I was told.

I presumed by her short attitude that she hadnae found Death, and before she could berate me fae sittin’ on ma arse whilst she traipsed aroond, I asked her aboot the phone Joan had. Anora glanced at it, observed Joan, and said it was probably a transference phone, and that it was too late tae help her noo.

Although the shop may be filled wi’ antiques wi a long history, there was the occasional item fae more recent times. Wi’ the rise ae technology, someday they themselves were bound tae become antiques, and it’d already started. Some people had begun tae use older mobile phones tae avoid the inevitable. They’d do somethin’ tae the phone, enchant it in some way, so that whoever received it and began texting them back on it would swap places wi’ them. If they had cancer, then the phone would transfer the cancer tae its new owner. Whoever was texting Joan, pretendin’ tae be her husband, had been diagnosed wi’ whitever cancer she had noo, and over the years it’d slowly transferred tae her.

I felt sick. Why the fuck were things like this allowed tae happen?

Anora noticed ma disgust, and told me we had no time, and that Joan didnae either. Before I could berate her fae bein’ so unhelpfully crass aboot the death ae a stranger, I heard the phone drop tae the ground again, but when I looked at Joan she was unconscious.

Not unconscious. Deid.

Madam Anora perked up, and told me that I shouldae said if I’d found the person who was gonnae die next. I had no words. They had all disappeared.

It didnae take long fae the familiar black shadow ae Death tae colour the walls and smother the light. They hadnae changed a bit since I’d seen them last, although why would they? It’s no like in the last few months I’d suddenly overcome ma fear ae the Bodach glas, or ma fear ae Death. I didnae really think aboot it at the time, but I wonder noo whit Anora saw, whit Death was tae her.

The Bodach glas stopped on its way tae the old woman, lyin in her bed, phone havin fallen on the floor, still no broken. Its cloaked figure glanced at Anora, then at me, and again greeted me as Fate’s apprentice before wondering why they’d seen so much ae me lately.

I cleared ma throat because I knew ma voice wouldae cracked otherwise. I asked them aboot the story, the one I’d seen at the festival, aboot their greatest love. Was it true? Bodach’s dinnae have faces, they have no expressions, yet there was a bitterness tae the air, a sad ripple through the darkness Death was cloaked in.

I began tae tell them aboot Chronos, aboot his preference fae bein a black cat, aboot his many tails and third eye, until finally I confess that I know where he is, and whit he’s been doing fae all ae these millennia.

I dinnae know if you’ve ever been stared at by Death, but it’s no pleasant, even withoot facial features.

The adrenaline was startin’ tae make ma hands shake and I balled them intae fists tae stop it fae spreadin’ tae the rest ae ma body. I wasnae done yet.

I told the bodach that I would only reunite them with their love if they killed Fate.

Confidence doesnae bloom in me when even Madam Anora stares at me like I’ve gone mad, and I suppose she’s not far aff ae bein right.

The bodach is silent, the shadow shifts, it’s cloak ripples like sand on a windy day, and after a few moments they propose their counter offer. They’d just kill me and be done.

The shakin got worse and the doubts began tae ravage ma mind. Whit if I was wrong and I’d just threatened one ae the most powerful beings in existence? I had no doubt Death would kill me fae bein such a cheeky shite. But I’d been doin this fae years, doubtin, procrastinatin’, findin’ anything else tae believe because I was too slow, too unaccepting ae maself and everythin’ I’d seen.

I knew I was right, and I knew could do this.

I replied that they couldnae kill me. I was a future Madam, ma fate had already been set. Currently, I was immune, and it was all because Death had put themselves beneath Fate, had given intae their whims and fancies, let themselves become inferior. But I was offerin’ a solution, a happy ending.

Anora looked as though she was aboot ready tae walk oot and refuse that she ever knew me. She wouldnae have any faith in me, would she?

Death, after a few more moments ae ominous silence, confirmed that I was right on all accounts, except one. Yes, they couldnae kill me, but they also couldnae kill Fate either. As long as there was life, there would be some semblance ae Fate. Ye cannae kill a concept, an idea.

However, you can imprison it.

Episode 36 – The other customers

After everything that’s happened recently, I think I’m due a quiet week. Just me and the shop. I always used to be cautious when I wandered around. I’d still touch things, get dragged to places few people should go, but overall, I did try to be careful. Now that I’ve seen storage, seen what’s hidden there, know that those items are so bad they’re not allowed to be sold, I’ve let my guard down a bit. There’s nothing in the shop that can be that bad.

I’m lethargic as I shuffle down the narrow pathways, past the ancient cameras and newly appeared fishing equipment. I hear a faint noise, like a radio’s on somewhere beneath the clutter. Realising if it was a radio I’d never find it, I began to look for the customer who’d snuck in, listening too loudly to their music through headphones that weren’t as noise-cancelling as they promised. I checked down the pathways, in the nooks, even at the counter, but there was no one there. I was alone.

But that noise was still trickling from somewhere.

I could just leave it. Ignore it for the rest of the day and maybe it would stop as easily as it’d started. Aye, only in a perfect world, which the shop certainly wasn’t. I floated around, further into the chaos, turning my ears this way and that to try and pick which direction the sound was coming from, like when you hold your phone up looking for signal. I pinged from one side of the shop to the next, wondering how finding a noise wasn’t easier in a shop packed full of an antique form of sound proofing.

Eventually, after rifling through some wicker baskets full of old biscuit tins celebrating national holidays and anniversaries, and a box or two of buttons, I managed to find the source. A jewellery box. There’s plenty in the shop, most are made of all kinds of wood, dark, light, inlaid. There are a few lacquered ones from China or Japan, sporting a white pearl crane or shell Mount Fuji. Some are bound in battered leather, whilst others are made entirely of glass.

The one where the sound’s coming from is pretty simple. It’s a rich red, probably painted wood, with gold leaves and flowers printed on the corners of the lid. The rest of the box is plain, and there’s a wee winder on the bottom of one side with a warning not to wind it too tight. As I rotate it in my hands, I can still hear the noise coming from inside, only it seems off. These wee musical jewellery boxes sound similar, high-pitched and delicate, like someone’s playing on the world’s smallest piano. The noise I was hearing wasn’t like that, it was deeper, longer, almost like someone whispering.

Thinking that perhaps the music box inside had broken or become detached, I opened the lid. The sound became louder, more distinct, and it wasn’t the dull notes of a broken music box. It was voices, a conversation. There’s no dancing ballerina inside, twirling around for all eternity, and no necklaces or earrings either. The red felt compartments are empty. On the inside of the lid there’s a larger mirror than you’d expect, the size of an iPhone.

But I don’t see my reflection in its surface. I see a room flooded with amber light from a few dull bulbs covered by dark lampshades. It gives the room a sense that it’s only lit by candles. The darkness is exacerbated by the décor. The carpet is a deep bottle green, whilst the walls are a light absorbing burgundy. There’s not much furniture, a modest table with two chairs facing each other, and one shelf I can barely make out at the edge of the mirror. The angle I view the room from is a bit like CCTV, stuck up near the ceiling in a corner.

I don’t know where this place is, or why I can see it through the mirror in a jewellery box, but it doesn’t take long for things to become a wee bit clearer. The sharp angles of Madam Anora open a door in the room. She’s followed by someone else I thought acted an awful lot like the customers that come into the shop. It’s a woman and she glances around the room with the same awe I’ve seen hundreds of times on our customers. Madam Anora closes the door behind the customer and motions her over to the wee table with the two chairs. The one I seem to be pointing directly at.

The woman gingerly takes the chair opposite the one Anora sits in, leaning back languidly, surveying her guest. No one says anything. I half-expect Anora to ask what she can help with before I remember who and what she is. Eventually, unable to bear the silence, the woman, with her handbag balanced on her lap, begins to tell her tale.

She’s been working for the same company for five years, ever since she got accepted onto their graduate programme. Diligently, over that time, she became a permanent employee and built up her portfolio, hoping that in a few years she could use it to apply for a promotion. She dug her nails into the faux leather of her handbag, leaving crescent moon impressions in the surface, hesitating with her next words, like she wanted to go on but was afraid if she did she’d never stop.

The time came for promotions, hard to come by according to her, and there was only one opportunity in her department. She and two other colleagues applied. One was a lad who’d started at the same time as her, and the other was a lassie who was only a few years into her job but had been the star of her particular graduate programme. This woman was confident she was the best candidate to get a promotion.

You can probably guess where this is going. She didn’t get it. Unable to understand why, she marched to her manager to demand to know the reason. The manager fobbed her off, saying that who they’d chosen, the younger lassie, had performed better even though she’d not been working as long. Smelling shite, the woman dug around, shook the grapevine, and found out that the reason she was overlooked was because of her age, an age where every woman, apparently, goes off on maternity leave to have bairns. It’d be a waste to promote her when she was about to take a few years off. This other lassie didn’t want bairns, so she was the safer option.

A wee bird had told the woman about Madam Anora, about what she did, what she could do. And here she was, sitting in a dark room, asking the anti-Madam for a favour. Madam Anora asked, in her sharp, smoky voice, what exactly the customer wanted.

For the lassie who’d got the promotion to do so badly, to make such a shambles of her new role, that management would be begging for the woman to take over.

Honestly, I thought it was going to be worse. Heartbreak, a mysterious accident, maiming, even death. This was…tame. I wondered, for a moment, if Anora would refuse, too beneath her, but then I realised I wasn’t entirely sure what it was Madam Anora even did. What did being the anti-Madam even entail?

Anora slides from her chair and heads towards the set of shelves just out of my view, draws her fingers over something I can’t see, then returns to the table with a pot in her hand. A succulent to be exact. It was quite short, resembled a flower, as though someone had poorly photoshopped a rose. Did it smell? Was it poisonous?

Madam Anora places the pot in front of the woman and retakes her seat. She begins to explain that in order to make this promoted colleague fail the plant would need watered twice a week for two weeks. Each watering must contain a drop of blood. It could be anyone’s, as long as it was human blood. After the fortnight was over, the promoted colleague would be on the brink of losing her job.

The woman stares at the succulent as though it’s a winning lottery ticket. A mix of awe and disbelief. A blood eating succulent? Why not. I’ve never seen any in the shop, yet.

But this made me realise something. Of all the objects I’ve come across, all the horrible things they do or can do, some of them must come from Madam Anora. She must’ve made them. Whether the succulent was a normal desk plant before she got her hands on it is still a mystery, but now it can destroy people’s careers in a matter of weeks.

The woman happily takes her new desk plant and is escorted from the room by Madam Anora. After the customer is gone, she starts arranging something beneath where I’m positioned before going back to the table with a small notebook that she begins to write in. I’m not at an angle where I can see the writing, but after a few lines of scribbling she stops abruptly. Her body appears to tense, shoulders going rigid and her grip on the pen turning her knuckles white.

There’s a shadow in the corner of the mirror, near the door where the customer had left. They smother what light is in the room, and I can’t see their face. I can’t really see them at all, not their height, their features, if they’re even human. Madam Anora doesn’t keep writing, but she’s tensed, waiting for something. She knows she has a visitor and doesn’t seem happy about it.

The shadow asks if the statue’s been sold yet. They were a Collector? That’s a wee bit disconcerting. I wonder if Flora, or that man looking for the rose, frequent Anora’s place as much as they do Madam Norna’s.

Madam Anora snaps her pen down on the table, but the motion’s restrained, as though she thought better of being rude to this person. She leans back in her chair and stares at the shadow, the usual sharpness and condescension replaced by something more uncertain, wary. She answers that she hadn’t sold the statue yet. I can tell she wants to say something more, something petulant, but whatever is causing her body to tense is also holding her tongue. This version of Anora is far from the one I’ve met. Her confidence had vanished, her careless blunt way of speaking replaced by restraint. Seeing her of all people act this way began to make me inexplicably afraid. Who was this shadow?

I was concentrating so intently on this conversation that when the bell to the shop bounced down the pathway to where I was, I had a heart attack. I don’t think I’ve ever jumped so high. I’d briefly looked away from the mirror to check who’d come in, but when I glanced back Anora was staring straight at me.

I slammed the lid shut and almost threw the box across the shop, before thinking better of it.

It hadn’t been a customer, and as I was standing stupidly still with this jewellery box in my hands, Fionn appeared down the aisle. I didn’t notice anything at the time, I was too unsettled, but I wish I’d taken the time to observe my second familiar, not that it would’ve prepared me much for what came later.

Instead, I told him I needed to go and see the Madam. His eyebrows crease and he says he needs to speak to me about something. I tell him later, after. His eyes cast down to the ground, he changes weight from one foot to the other, looks as though he’s about to open his mouth, to say something, but I take no notice and head upstairs to see my boss.

I rarely go upstairs by myself, I’m usually always with a customer, so it’s strange to only hear one floorboard creak at a time. I round the banister and go into the front room. Madam Norna is sitting in her usual seat, looking at a book she doesn’t seem to be reading. Her eyes are distant. I begin to say something, as soon as the first syllable is released she jumps visibly and whips her head to face me.

Did I just startle the Madam? The Madam, who waits at the top of the stairs for most of the customers? The Madam who practically knows how everything plays out? Maybe she wasn’t feeling well? Maybe even the guardian of Fate caught a cold.

I apologise and start to tell her about the box and what I’d seen. I place it on the coffee table and immediately suggest we put it in storage, just in case it was a two-way system. I didn’t want to think of what havoc Madam Anora could cause if she caught a glimpse into the shop. I assume the Madam will agree or suggest something more secure. I at least expect her to tell me what’s going to happen with it.

But she doesn’t. She looks at the box as though she can’t make up her mind, as though it’s one of the hardest decisions to make. She tells me not to worry, and that I should leave it with her.

Maybe it wasn’t as simple as hiding it away in storage. I nod in understanding and leave my boss alone with the box that’s somehow connected to Madam Anora’s shop. It was only when I got downstairs that I realised how strange it was that the Madam hadn’t told me anything.

Scots-ish language version

After everything that’s happened recently I think I’m due a quiet week. Just me and the shop. I always used tae be cautious when I wandered roond. I’d still touch things, get dragged tae places few people should go, but overall I did try tae be careful. Noo that I’ve seen storage, seen whit’s hidden there, know that those items are so bad they’re no allowed tae be sold, I’ve let ma guard doon a bit. There’s nothin’ in the shop that can be that bad.

I’m lethargic as I shuffle doon the narrow pathways, past the ancient cameras and newly appeared fishing equipment. I hear a faint noise, like a radio’s on somewhere beneath the clutter. Realisin if it was a radio I’d never find it, I began tae look fae the customer who’d snuck in, listening too loudly tae their music through headphones that werenae as noise-cancellin as they promised. I checked doon the pathways, in the nooks, even at the counter, but there was no one there. I was alone.

But that noise was still tricklin’ fae somewhere.

I could just leave it. ignore it fae the rest ae the day and maybe it would stop as easily as it’d started. Aye, only in a perfect world, which the shop certainly wasnae. I floated roond, further intae the chaos, turnin’ ma ears this way and that tae try and pick which direction the sound was comin’ fae, like when ye hold your phone up lookin’ fae signal. I pinged fae one side ae the shop tae the next, wonderin’ how findin’ a noise wasnae easier in a shop packed full ae an antique form ae sound proofin’.

Eventually, after riflin’ through some wicker baskets full ae old biscuit tins celebratin’ national holidays and anniversaries, and a box or two ae buttons, I managed tae find the source. A jewellery box. There’s plenty in the shop, most are made ae all kinds ae wood, dark, light, inlaid. There are a few lacquered ones fae China or Japan, sporting a white pearl crane or shell mount Fuji. Some are bound in battered leather, whilst others are made entirely ae glass.

The one where the sound’s comin’ fae is pretty simple. It’s a rich red, probably painted wood, wi’ gold leaves and flowers printed on the corners ae the lid. The rest ae the box is plain, and there’s a wee winder on the bottom ae one side wi’ a warnin’ no’ tae wind it too tight. As I rotate it in ma hands I can still hear the noise comin’ fae inside, only it seems aff. These wee musical jewellery boxes sound similar, high-pitched and delicate, like someone’s playin’ on the world’s smallest piano. The noise I was hearin’ wasnae like that, it was deeper, longer, almost like someone whisperin’.

Thinkin’ that perhaps the music box inside had broken or become detached, I opened the lid. The sound became louder, more distinct, and it wasnae the dull notes ae a broken music box. It was voices, a conversation. There’s no dancin’ ballerina inside, twirlin’ roond fae all eternity, and no necklaces or earrings either. The red felt compartments are empty. On the inside ae the lid there’s a larger mirror than you’d expect, the size ae an iPhone.

But I dinnae see ma reflection in its surface. I see a room flooded wi’ amber light fae a few dull bulbs covered by dark lampshades. It gives the room a sense that it’s only lit by candles. The darkness is exacerbated by the décor. The carpet is a deep bottle green, whilst the walls are a light absorbing burgundy. There’s no much furniture, a modest table wi’ two chairs facing each other, and one shelf I can barely make oot at the edge ae the mirror. The angle I view the room fae is a bit like CCTV, stuck up near the ceiling in a corner.

I dinnae know where this place is, or why I can see it through the mirror in a jewellery box, but it doesnae take long fae things tae become a wee bit clearer. The sharp angles ae Madam Anora open a door in the room. She’s followed by someone else I thought acted an awful lot like the customers that come intae the shop. It’s a woman and she glances roond the room wi’ the same awe I’ve seen hundreds ae times on our customers. Madam Anora closes the door behind the customer and motions her over tae the wee table wi’ the two chairs. The one I seem to be pointin’ directly at.

The woman gingerly takes the chair opposite the one Anora sits in, leanin’ back languidly, surveying her guest. No one says anythin’. I half-expect Anora tae ask whit she can help wi’ before I remember who and what she is. Eventually, unable tae bear the silence, the woman, wi’ her handbag balanced on her lap, begins tae tell her tale.

She’s been workin’ fae the same company fae five years, ever since she got accepted ontae their graduate programme. Diligently, over that time, she became a permanent employee and built up her portfolio, hopin’ that in a few years she could use it tae apply fae a promotion. She dug her nails intae the faux leather ae her handbag, leavin’ crescent moon impressions in the surface, hesitatin’ wi’ her next words, like she wanted tae go on but was afraid if she did she’d never stop.

The time came fae promotions, hard tae come by accordin’ tae her, and there was only one opportunity in her department. She and two other colleagues applied. One was a lad who’d started at the same time as her, and the other was a lassie who was only a few years intae her job but had been the star ae her particular graduate programme. This woman was confident she was the best candidate tae get a promotion.

Ye can probably guess where this is goin’. She didnae get it. No able tae understand why, she marched tae her manager tae demand tae know the reasons. The manager fobbed her aff, sayin’ that who they’d chosen, the younger lassie, had performed better even though she’d no been workin’ as long. Smellin’ shite, the woman dug aroond, shook the grapevine, and found oot that the reason she was overlooked was because ae her age, an age where every woman, apparently, goes off on maternity leave tae have bairns. It’d be a waste tae promote her when she was aboot tae take a few years aff. This other lassie didnae want bairns, so she was the safer option.

A wee bird had told the woman aboot Madam Anora, aboot whit she did, whit she could do. And here she was, sittin’ in a dark room, askin’ the anti-Madam fae a favour. Madam Anora asked, in her sharp, smoky voice, whit exactly the customer wanted.

Fae the lassie who’d got the promotion tae do so badly, tae make such a shambles ae her new role, that management would be beggin’ fae the woman tae take over.

Honestly, I thought it was gonnae be worse. Heartbreak, a mysterious accident, maiming, even death. This was…tame. I wondered, fae a moment, if Anora would refuse, too beneath her, but then I realised I wasnae entirely sure whit it was Madam Anora even did. Whit did bein’ the anti-Madam even entail?

Anora slides fae her chair and heads towards the set ae shelves just oot ae ma view, draws her fingers over somethin’ I cannae see, then returns tae the table wi’ a pot in her hand. A succulent tae be exact. It was quite short, resembled a flower, as though someone had poorly photoshopped a rose. Did it smell? Was it poisonous?

Madam Anora places the pot in front ae the woman and retakes her seat. She begins tae explain that in order tae make this promoted colleague fail the plant would need watered twice a week fae two weeks. Each watering must contain a drop ae blood. It could be anyone’s, as long as it was human blood. After the fortnight was over, the promoted colleague would be on the brink ae losin’ her job.

The woman stares at the succulent as though it’s a winning lottery ticket. A mix ae awe and disbelief. A blood eating succulent? Why not. I’ve never seen any in the shop, yet.

But this made me realise somethin’. Ae all the objects I’ve come across, all ae the horrible ‘hings they do or can do, some ae them must come fae Madam Anora. She mustae made them. Whether the succulent was a normal desk plant before she got her hands on it is still a mystery, but noo it can destroy people’s careers in a matter ae weeks.

The woman happily takes her new desk plant and is escorted fae the room by Madam Anora. After the customer is gone she starts arranging something beneath where I’m positioned before goin’ back tae the table wi a small notebook that she begins tae write in. I’m no at an angle where I can see the writin’, but after a few lines ae scribblin she stops abruptly. Her body appears tae tense, shoulders goin rigid and her grip on the pen turnin’ her knuckles white.

There’s a shadow in the corner ae the mirror, near the door where the customer had left. They smother whit light is in the room, and I cannae see their face. I cannae really see them at all, no their height, their features, if they’re even human. Madam Anora doesnae keep writin, but she’s tensed, waitin’ fae something. She knows she has a visitor, and doesnae seem happy aboot it.

The shadow asks if the statue’s been sold yet. They were a collector? That’s a wee bit disconcerting. I wonder if Flora, or that man lookin’ fae the rose, frequent Anora’s place as much as they do Madam Norna’s.

Madam Anora snaps her pen doon on the table, but the motion’s restrained, as though she thought better ae bein’ rude tae this person. She leans back in her chair and stares at the shadow, the usual sharpness and condescension replaced by something more uncertain, wary. She answers that she hadnae sold the statue yet. I can tell she wants tae say somethin’ more, somethin’ petulant, but whitever is causin’ her body tae tense is also holdin’ her tongue. This version ae Anora is far fae the one I’ve met. Her confidence had vanished, her careless blunt way ae speakin’ replaced by restraint. Seein’ her ae all people act this way began tae make me inexplicably afraid. Who was this shadow?

I was concentrain’ so intently on this conversation that when the bell tae the shop bounced doon the pathway tae where I was, I had a heart attack. I dinnae think I’ve ever jumped so high. I’d briefly looked away fae the mirror tae check who’d come in, but when I glanced back Anora was starin’ straight at me.

I slammed the lid shut and almost threw the box across the shop, before thinkin’ better ae it.

It hadnae been a customer, and as I was standin’ stupidly still wi’ this jewellery box in ma hands, Fionn appeared doon the aisle. I didnae notice anythin’ at the time, I was too unsettled, but I wish I’d taken the time tae observe ma second familiar, no that it wouldae prepared me much fae whit came later.

Instead, I told him I needed tae go and see the Madam. His eyebrows crease and he says he needs tae speak tae me aboot somethin’. I tell him later, after. His eyes cast doon tae the ground, he changes weight fae one foot tae the other, looks as though he’s aboot tae open his mouth, tae say something, but I take no notice and head upstairs tae see ma boss.

I rarely go upstairs by maself, I’m usually always wi’ a customer, so it’s strange tae only hear one floorboard creak at a time. I round the banister and go intae the front room. Madam Norna is sittin’ in her usual seat, lookin’ at a book she doesnae seem tae be readin’. Her eyes are distant. I begin tae say somethin’, as soon as the first syllable is released she jumps visibly and whips her heid tae face me.

Did I just startle the Madam? The Madam, who waits at the top ae the stairs fae most ae the customers? The Madam who practically knows how everythin’ plays oot? Maybe she wasnse feelin’ well? Maybe even the guardian ae fate caught a cold.

I apologise and start tae tell her aboot the box and whit I’d seen. I place it on the coffee table and immediately suggest we put it in storage, just in case it was a two way system. I didnae want tae think ae whit havoc Madam Anora could cause if she caught a glimpse intae the shop. I assume the Madam will agree, or suggest somethin’ more secure. I at least expect her tae tell me whit’s gonnae happen wi it.

But she doesnae. She looks at the box as though she cannae make up her mind, as though it’s one ae the hardest decisions tae make. She tells me no tae worry, and that I should leave it wi’ her.

Maybe it wasnae as simple as hidin’ it away in storage. I nod in understandin’ and leave ma boss alone wi’ the box that’s somehow connected tae Madam Anora’s shop. It was only when I got doonstairs that I realised how strange it was that the Madam hadnae told me anythin’.

Episode 35 – The storage

Scots vocabulary

Roasters – idiots, stupid people.

ijit – idiot

Greeting – Crying/sobbing.

Story

There’s a few places in the shop I haven’t been. The rooms upstairs where the Madam lives, each with their closed door and mysterious contents. One, at least, is a bedroom, one a kitchen, and the other the front room where the customers spill their secrets. As for the rest, I suppose I’ll have plenty of time to explore them in the future.

The only other place is storage. That enigmatic place mentioned every so often that contains even more horrors than the shop itself, the place where the cabinet in the front room draws its contents.

I managed to answer at least one of the mysteries of the rooms upstairs. One of them leads to storage, but let’s set the scene first. It’s a full house, both of my familiars are in, playing checkers together. Chronos, uncharacteristically, is upstairs. I presume he’s upstairs because I haven’t seen him since I arrived. I leave the roasters to their game and busy about the shop until the bell goes and everyone’s attention wanders. The customer that walks in is strange. They’re confident as they stride over to the counter and stare expectantly at my familiars. Very few people stride into the shop, they don’t even stride out, it’s usually a run or a sprint. No hesitation, no questioning looks, no ogling curiously at the chaos. This woman knew exactly what she wanted, and it was to see my boss.

Except there was no card. I’d expected it to be lying on the glass counter, but there was nothing to find. I approached the woman from behind and she eventually honoured me with a glance. Her face crumpled into surprise before being replaced by understanding. She surmised, aloud, that I must be the apprentice, and that she was here to see Madam Norna.

Despite myself I threw a look at Fionn to check if he knew the woman, if there was recognition or distaste on his features, but he shrugged, and I felt rather than observed that he didn’t know her. I wonder if the rings will ever let me read his mind. On second thoughts, I don’t think I want that, just in case it’s a two way-street.

Realising this woman was impatient about her business with my boss I led her past the roasters and up the stairs where the Madam was waiting in the front room. This woman was perhaps in her thirties, the only thing of note about her was the designer handbag she had hanging from her shoulder. Just by looking I couldn’t tell what she might do for a living. She, in general, was a bit of a mystery. A normal person who knew enough about the shop to take me by surprise.

When my boss greeted this woman by name, I wish I could say the pieces fell into place. She could be anything. The Madam called her Lydia, didn’t need to offer her a seat because she strode with as much confidence to the sofa as she had through the door, and told me we wouldn’t be needing tea.

Silence settled, unusually. My boss was never the first one to speak, and I had a feeling she could sit there all day in silence if she wanted without ever feeling that pressure of awkwardness. A master of silence was the Madam. Lydia was not. Irritably, Lydia stated that Norna must know why she was there, and what it was she wanted.

“There are a lot of things you want in this shop,” my boss answered.

Lydia almost rolled her eyes before she sat forwards and pulled out a drawing of a carriage clock. They look a bit like boxes, either of wood or gold, with a clock face on one side. They adorn the mantelpiece of many a home, although probably more are tucked away in lofts or gathering dust in the back room of an antique dealer. I was surprised Lydia hadn’t pulled out a photo but a pencil line drawing with some shading. The clock pictured was a wee bit different to what I’d seen before. This clock, rather than box like, was covered in a dome of glass, the pendulum swinging down fae the clock face itself.

Lydia asserted that she knew it was in the shop, that her trail her led her right to the Madam’s door. She was willing to part with a pretty penny if she could get her hands on this carriage clock. I began to suspect during this conversation that Lydia was a Collector, like Flora but more aggressive. Where Flora had things drop into her lap, Lydia went hunting for them like a fox after a rabbit. I dreaded to think what this clock did, and what else she had in her collection.

I wasn’t sure what my boss would say. I’d never seen her sell anything to a Collector before. It seemed a requirement that you couldn’t know what the object you bought from the shop did. So, I was surprised when Madam Norna confirmed that the clock was in the shop, but that it was still in storage. I perked up at this word, the fabled and ever mysterious storage that was hidden somewhere in the shop. I felt the Madam’s eyes shift over to me and I couldn’t decide if I was nervous or excited.

Maya can get it for you,” she told Lydia.

I was slow to get up, uncertain if this was a good idea. I knew of at least one thing in storage. The monster jars, and if they were kept down there, then how much worse was everything else? Once I was standing my boss told me to take either Reid or Fionn with me as it was easy to get lost when searching, and two sets of eyes were better than one. The refusal jumps out my mouth before I can stop it. I don’t say it aggressively, but it sounds defensive, almost petulant. It’s not like I can usually tell what the Madam is thinking, and this was no different. She nodded unreadably and told me that the door to storage was the last one on the left, down the corridor.

So it was behind one of those closed doors up there. I suppose that’s the only place it could be, but I’m kind of…disappointed. I wanted it to be a bit like the wardrobe to Narnia, or some vortex. Why is storage so boring when you can pop into the past through a hole in the shop’s wall or by staring at a painting? A part of me wanted to pack for the journey, take a few pieces of survival kit, rations, a tent, a flare. I didn’t really know what to expect. If it was in one of the rooms then it could be no bigger than a cupboard under the stairs. Perhaps storage wasn’t as big as the shop itself. Perhaps there were fewer truly awful things in the world than I realised, and they would only need a small room to contain them.

What an ijit.

I found the door at the end of the corridor, boring in its uniformity with all the rest. I opened it quickly onto a room full of clutter, similar to the shop. There were shelves on the walls that held glasses, tea sets, ornaments and decorations, sets of drawers and wardrobes shunted against the green walls, and miscellaneous tat strewn on the remainder of the floor space, save for one single aisle that led to another doorway. This one had no door and opened out onto another room filled with clutter.

I took the path and passed through the equally chaotic room, and then another, until the final doorway I passed through opened into a warehouse. Maybe it wasn’t as big as that, but it felt cavernous, with higher ceilings and rough stone walls that echoed every breath and footprint I made back at me three times over. There were no windows anywhere, not even in the ceiling. It should’ve been dark, but I could see as if there was natural light streaming in. Storage was just a bigger shop. Stuff was everywhere, with only a single narrow aisle winding its way past, into antique-made alcoves and special areas with bookshelves and racks of clothes. I felt like every antique in the world could be here.

There were a few things I couldn’t understand about this place. How was it so big when the shop itself wasn’t? We had neighbours on either side, businesses with patrons, yet the storage sprawled out where they should be. The second was how the hell you found anything! I thought I’d seen a cabinet similar to the one in the front room, presuming they were mirrored somehow. Was this actually where the Madam spent all of her time? I didn’t know what she got up to up here, I just assumed she read a book and waited for customers to turn up. Was she actually the one who changed the stock in the cabinet? It’d make more sense than my idea of what she did with her time. If I got lost looking through the shop’s various inhabitants, think of how much time I could spend getting lost in here? Hundreds of years might just be enough.

I had to remind myself I was in storage to look for something, although how I was supposed to find it escaped me. This wasn’t as neatly arranged as a library, with numbered shelves and labelled items. Like the shop itself, there was no order here, only chaos.

Although having said that, there evidently was a theme to certain areas. There was one corner full of typewriters, another filled with war memorabilia, even more filled with just fur coats. Perhaps there was an area full of clocks?

It was worth a try. At times I felt a bit like Jason in the labyrinth, except I didn’t have a string to show me the way out. I couldn’t get lost in here…right? I got distracted, scanning around looking for a clock, so I didn’t notice as a I brushed against something and heard it smash on the ground.

For fuck’s sake, I’d been so careful not to touch anything.

It was a glass jar filled with candle wax. Almost as soon as it’d hit the ground, I’d been assaulted by the scent of cinnamon and Christmas. I wasn’t aware that a scented candle could be considered an antique, but it wasn’t the strangest thing I’d glimpsed so far. Only the candle was left intact, the wick burnt down a few centimetres. It was too late for the glass. I tried to scrape it to one side, vowing to come back and clean it up once I’d found the clock.

I took a few steps forwards and saw something else do the same. I say saw, but it was more like felt, that inkling you get when something moves at the edges of your vision. Some alcoves were created by large antiques, the biggest wardrobes you’ve ever seen, paintings that could only fit on the wall of a stately home. They created blind spots, corners that you couldn’t see around, but you could catch glimpses through the gaps in the chaos. It was through these gaps I noticed the movement.

In a very unwelcome game of Simon says, every time I moved, so did something deep in storage. A shadow, a cloud, I couldn’t tell. Then when I stopped, it kept moving, inching closer to the blind corner. Instinctively I darted into another alcove, behind a set of drawers and amongst a sea of magazines and dolls clothes. I held my breath because it was deafening amidst the morbid silence. I listened for footsteps, shuffles, even cracks of bone or muscle as whatever it was moved towards me, but the silence remained.

I dared a glimpse over the top ae the drawers and saw it inching closer, about to round the corner where I was.

“Maya!”

It was impossible to tell where the voice had come from, but I knew it was Fionn’s. Just as it had snared my attention it captured the shadow’s just as quickly. It disappeared from the corner, from between the gaps I was peering through, and fled in the opposite direction. I quickly realised I had no idea where I was. I’d thought the exit was behind me on the path, but Fionn’s voice had come from the opposite direction.

I heard another voice, gruffer, calling out to me. Both of my familiars had been sent in here, no doubt to get me. How long had I been in storage? It could only have been twenty minutes at the most, and that was starting to be enough. The more their shouts echoed the easier it’d be for that creature to find them. Fate knew what it would do. Storage was where the real monsters were kept.

I had to warn them both. I darted from my hiding spot and ran in the direction of their voices, hoping it wouldn’t be too late. What was once clear parallel paths soon became a labyrinth of antiques and memorabilia, making it near impossible to navigate. Had I seen that gramophone before? Was that hatbox not on top of a wardrobe and not the floor? I should’ve been more careful, should’ve noted items I could use to feel my way out.

I had no other option than to follow their voices, desperately shouting at them to run in the hopes they could hear me as clearly as I could hear them. I eventually rounded the last corner and saw them both standing in the path in front of me. There was nothing else around, no shadows, no bared teeth, no frosty presence.

I almost let myself exhale.

Then it slid past me, a brief breath of air on my cheek as it shot its way towards my familiars. Made of shadow, it was difficult to see if it slid along the ground or moved in the dark places created by the antiques. With a snap of someone’s fingers my familiars were sucked down paths and into alcoves by long, black whisps of shadow. It was everywhere and nowhere. One moment they stood there, the next I heard the crashing of antiques and the desperate grunts as they both tried to free themselves from their bonds. The gasps of breath, the choking sounds filled the air, cutting through the silence like a scalpel through flesh.

What did I do? How was I here again? How many more times was I going to watch those two get injured or attacked by some arsehole? Why was it that I could do nothing? Against monsters, against Fate itself? Was I really this powerless?

“Enough!” I shouted to the empty air, to all of the antiques, and to every single thing in storage that thought they would crawl from their nests and hiding places.

My voice kept going, bouncing off of each stone wall, curving around the ceiling, and wrapping around each item and trinket. The air became thinner, the echo lost its edge, and the atmosphere became static, like the night before a thunderstorm. The room tilted around me, bent where I wanted it to, and I could feel something drawing near, summoned by my voice. It struggled and squirmed, trying to escape from my strange electric orbit.

It didn’t succeed.

Every inch it got closer to me it shrunk. I watched its strange tentacle limbs, its once grinning face baring jagged teeth, and its single black eye collapse in on themselves until the creature was no bigger than my thumb. And that’s where it ended up. I’ve seen moths make less mess. A sudden wave of fatigue rolled across my mind, and I remembered Reid and Fionn.

I didn’t know where they’d ended up, so I began calling their names in desperation. Fionn was the first to answer and I followed his voice to the path he’d been dragged down, trying to grasp onto any of the larger antiques as an anchor. He’s peeling himself from the ground, inspecting his favourite shoes for damage. He confirms to me that he’s unhurt. I haven’t heard Reid’s voice.

Following the other trail of debris I finally see Reid’s legs draped over an upturned set of drawers. They’re not moving He’s not moving.

My heart’s never stopped before, but I swear it did then.

I clamber over the mess, standing on things and barely hearing them crack beneath my weight. Once I manage to get to him, he’s covered in red, smattered on his clothes, his skin, and dripping from his hair. Viscous, crimson liquid pooling on the ground beneath him. His eyes flutter open, and he groans in pain. I frantically tell him not to move, hearing my voice crackle in desperation. I ask him where he’s hurt, or where he hurts the most, I tell him not to worry and that we’ll get him help, the Madam will know what to do. Words are tumbling out as I’m desperately trying to find the source of the blood. He’s trying to speak, opening his mouth before I cut straight through.

Eventually he grabs my arm, shaking it gently, and says he’s fine, and that the red stuff isn’t blood. I stare blankly, not really comprehending what he’s said. He indicated to some broken glass at his side, red waxy liquid oozing onto the floor. A broken lava lamp. Reid kicked it over trying to get free and had covered himself with the red wax in the process. Gingerly I begin prodding the red stains on his clothes and realise they’re starting to harden, transform from a deep crimson to a rosy pink.

I started greeting then, the hardening wax going blurry as tears filled my eyes. I hated it. Not the crying, although that wasn’t exactly fun, but hated the feeling of helplessness. I always knew I was useless in the shop, the class ijit who never knew anything, but I hadn’t cared before. Now I had people to care about, and I couldn’t stand that I might be too slow to help them or save them. I couldn’t protect them from Fate, and I might not be able to protect them from the things in the shop either if I kept on the way I was going.

I was ugly crying, I could tell, wailing like a weeping widow in a drama, so loud that Fionn came over and began to blame Reid for it. I tell them both everything about my encounter with Fate, what I’d been doing in the shop and to customers, and to the fact that Reid’s accident had been all my fault. The distance I’d tried to keep from them in the last few months had been because I hadn’t wanted them to be hurt due to my mistakes.

We three sit on the floor, somewhere lost in storage, cross-legged, some of us wishing we had a tissue. Fionn uses my sleeve to dry my face, and confirms that I am, indeed, an ijit. He says no one signs up to be a Madam or apprentice’s familiar thinking they’re going to be baking and sprinkling fairy dust onto baked goods all day. They both knew what the shop was, what Fate was, when they agreed to be my familiars. It also wasn’t my job to protect them, just like it wasn’t theirs to protect me. Not anymore, at least.

Reid frowns darkly, agrees with Fionn for the first time in history, and makes us each promise the other that we don’t keep secrets. We all promise, no pinkies involved, but the two-headed ring on my finger goes frosty for a few seconds. I assume there’s been a new clause added to our familiar-apprentice bond, and am concerned what the penalty will be if one of us breaks that promise.

We pick ourselves up off the ground and I follow them out of storage. I tell them I haven’t even been in that long. They exchange a concerned glance and tell me it’s been nearly 2 hours.

Shite.

Just before we’re about to leave, the door to the corridor in sight, I stop and growl with frustration. I never found that bloody carriage clock Lydia had come for. Fionn, who’s behind me, pushes me out the door completely and closes it behind him. He reaches into his pocket and pulls out a clock that looks like the one I’d been sent to find, only smaller. By the time he puts it in my hands it’s regular sized. Reid and I glance between the clock and the wyvern, bemused. Fionn winks, pats me on the head, and walks off towards the front room.

Storage, despite its mess and size and potential for dangerous creatures, is interesting. Does time move differently, or did I just get carried away? How is it even there? I’d like to go in again, but it might be a wee while. Just until I get my courage back.

Scots-ish language version

There’s a few places in the shop I havenae been. The rooms upstairs where the Madam lives, each with their closed door and mysterious contents. One, at least, is a bedroom, one a kitchen, and the other the front room where the customers spill their secrets. As fae the rest, I suppose I’ll have plenty ae time tae explore them in the future.

The only other place is storage. That enigmatic place mentioned every so often that contains even more horrors than the shop itself, the place where the cabinet in the front room draws its contents.

I managed tae answer at least one ae the mysteries ae the rooms upstairs. One ae them leads tae storage, but let’s set the scene first. It’s a full hoose, both ae ma familiars are in, playin’ checkers together. Chronos, uncharacteristically, is upstairs. I presume he’s upstairs because I havenae seen him since I arrived. I leave the roasters tae their game and busy aboot the shop until the bell goes and everyone’s attention wanders. The customer that walks in is strange. They’re confident as they stride over tae the counter and stare expectantly at ma familiars. Very few people stride intae the shop, they dinnae even stride oot, it’s usually a run or a sprint. No hesitation, no questionin’ looks, no ogling curiously at the chaos. This woman knew exactly whit she wanted, and it was tae see ma boss.

Except there was no card. I’d expected it tae be lyin’ on the glass counter, but there was nothin’ tae find. I approached the woman fae behind and she eventually honoured me wi’ a glance. Her face crumpled intae surprise before bein’ replaced by understandin’. She surmised, aloud, that I must be the apprentice, and that she was here tae see Madam Norna.

Despite maself I threw a look at Fionn tae check if he knew the woman, if there was recognition or distaste on his features, but he shrugged, and I felt rather than observed that he didnae know her. I wonder if the rings will ever let me read his mind. On second thoughts, I dinnae think I want that, just in case it’s a two way-street.

Realisin’ this woman was impatient aboot her business wi’ ma boss I led her past the roasters and up the stairs where the Madam was waitin’ in the front room. This woman was perhaps in her thirties, the only ‘hing ae note aboot her was the designer handbag she had hangin’ fae her shoulder. Just by lookin’ I couldnae tell whit she might do fae a livin’. She, in general, was a bit ae a mystery. A normal person who knew enough aboot the shop tae take me by surprise.

When ma boss greeted this woman by name I wish I could say the pieces fell intae place. She could be anythin’. The Madam called her Lydia, didnae need tae offer her a seat because she strode wi’ as much confidence tae the sofa as she had through the door, and told me we wouldnae be needin’ tea.

Silence settled, unusually. Ma boss was never the first one tae speak, and I had a feelin’ she could sit there all day in silence if she wanted withoot ever feelin’ that pressure ae awkwardness. A master ae silence was the Madam. Lydia was not. Irritably Lydia stated that Norna must know why she was there, and what it was she wanted.

“There are a lot of things you want in this shop,” ma boss answered.

Lydia almost rolled her eyes before she sat forwards and pulled oot a drawing ae a carriage clock. They look a bit like boxes, either ae wood or gold, wi’ a clock face on one side. They adorn the mantle piece ae many a home, although probably more are tucked away in lofts or gatherin’ dust in the back room ae an antique dealer. I was surprised Lydia hadnae pulled oot a photo but a pencil line drawin wi’ some shadin’. The clock pictured was a wee bit different tae whit I’d seen before. This clock, rather than box like, was covered in a dome ae glass, the pendulum swinging doon fae the clock face itself.

Lydia asserted that she knew it was in the shop, that her trail her led her right tae the Madam’s door. She was willin’ tae part wi’ a pretty penny if she could get her hands on this carriage clock. I began tae suspect durin’ this conversation that Lydia was a collector, like Flora but more aggressive. Where Flora had things drop intae her lap, Lydia went huntin’ fae them like a fox after a rabbit. I dreaded tae think whit this clock did, and whit else she had in her collection.

I wasnae sure whit ma boss would say. I’d never seen her sell anythin’ tae a collector before. it seemed a requirement that you couldnae know whit the object you bought fae the shop did. So I was surprised when Madam Norna confirmed that the clock was in the shop, but that it was still in storage. I perked up at this word, the fabled and ever mysterious storage that was hidden somewhere in the shop. I felt the Madam’s eyes shift over tae me and I couldnae decide if I was nervous or excited.

“Maya can get it for you,” she told Lydia.

I was slow tae get up, uncertain if this was a good idea. I knew ae at least one ‘hing in storage. The monster jars, and if they were kept doon there, then how much worse was everything else? Once I was standin’ ma boss told me tae take either Reid or Fionn wi’ me as it was easy tae get lost when searchin’, and two sets ae eyes were better than one. The refusal jumps oot ma mouth before I can stop it. I dinnae say it aggressively, but it sounds defensive, almost petulant. It’s no like I can usually tell whit the Madam is thinkin, and this was no different. She nodded unreadably and told me that the door tae storage was the last one on the left, doon the corridor.

So it was behind one ae those closed doors up there. I suppose that’s the only place it could be, but I’m kindae…disappointed. I wanted it tae be a bit like the wardrobe tae Narnia, or some vortex. Why is storage so borin when ye can pop intae the past through a hole in the shop’s wall, or by starin’ at a painting? A part ae me wanted tae pack fae the journey, take a few pieces ae survival kit, rations, a tent, a flare. I didnae really know whit tae expect. If it was in one ae the rooms then it could be no bigger than a cupboard under the stairs. Perhaps storage wasnae as big as the shop itself. Perhaps there were fewer truly awful things in the world than I realised, and they would only need a small room tae contain them.

What an ijit.

I found the door at the end ae the corridor, borin’ in its uniformity wi’ all the rest. I opened it quickly ontae a room full ae clutter, similar tae the shop. There were shelves on the walls that held glasses, tea sets, ornaments and decorations, sets ae drawers and wardrobes shunted against the green walls, and miscellaneous tat strewn on the remainder ae the floor space, save fae one single aisle that led tae another doorway. This one had no door and opened oot ontae another room filled wi’ clutter.

I took the path and passed through the equally chaotic room, and then another, until the final doorway I passed through opened intae a warehouse. Maybe it wasnae as big as that, but it felt cavernous, wi’ higher ceilings and rough stone walls that echoed every breath and footprint I made back at me three times over. There were no windaes anywhere, no even in the ceiling. It shouldae been dark but I could see as if there was natural light streamin’ in. Storage was just a bigger shop. Stuff was everywhere, wi’ only a single narrow aisle windin’ its way past, intae antique-made alcoves and special areas wi’ bookshelves and racks ae clothes. I felt like every antique in the world could be here.

There were a few ‘hings I couldnae understand aboot this place. How was it so big when the shop itself wasnae? We had neighbours on either side, businesses wi patrons, yet the storage sprawled oot where they should be. The second was how the hell ye found anythin’. I thought I’d seen a cabinet similar tae the one in the front room, presumin’ they were mirrored somehow. Was this actually where the Madam spent all ae her time? I didnae know whit she got up tae up here, I just assumed she read a book and waited fae customers tae turn up. Was she actually the one who changed the stock in the cabinet? It’d make more sense than ma idea ae whit she did wi’ her time. If I got lost lookin’ through the shop’s various inhabitants, think ae how much time I could spend getting’ lost in here? Hundreds ae years might just be enough.

I had tae remind maself I was in storage tae look fae somethin’, although how I was supposed tae find it escaped me. This wasnae as neatly arranged as a library, wi numbered shelves and labelled items. Like the shop itself, there was no order here, only chaos.

Although havin’ said that, there evidently was a theme tae certain areas. There was one corner full ae typewriters, another filled wi’ war memorabilia, even more filled wi’ just fur coats. Perhaps there was an area full ae clocks?

It was worth a try. At times I felt a bit like Jason in the labyrinth, except I didnae have a string tae show me the way oot. I couldnae get lost in here…right? I got distracted, scannin’ roond lookin’ fae a clock, so I didnae notice as a I brushed against something and heard it smash on the ground.

Fae fuck sake, I’d been so careful no tae touch anything.

It was a glass jar filled wi’ candle wax. Almost as soon as it’d hit the ground, I’d been assaulted by the scent ae cinnamon and Christmas. I wasnae aware that a scented candle could be considered an antique, but it wasnae the strangest ‘hing I’d glimpsed so far. Only the candle was left intact, the wick burnt doon’ a few centimetres. It was too late fae the glass. I tried tae scrape it tae one side, vowin’ tae come back and clean it up once I’d found the clock.

I took a few steps forwards and saw somethin’ else do the same. I say saw, but it was more like felt, that inkling ye get when somethin’ moves at the edges ae your vision. Some alcoves were created by large antiques, the biggest wardrobes you’ve ever seen, paintings that could only fit on the wall ae a stately home. They created blind spots, corners that you couldnae see aroond, but you could catch glimpses through the gaps in the chaos. It was through these gaps I noticed the movement.

In a very unwelcome game ae Simon says, every time I moved, so did somethin’ deep in storage. A shadow, a cloud, I couldnae tell. Then when I stopped, it kept movin, inchin’ closer tae the blind corner. Instinctively I darted intae another alcove, behind a set ae drawers and amongst a sea ae magazines and dolls clothes. I held ma breath because it was deafening amidst the morbid silence. I listened fae footsteps, shuffles, even cracks ae bone or muscle as whitever it was moved towards me, but the silence remained.

I dared a glimpse over the top ae the drawers and saw it inchin’ closer, aboot tae roond the corner where I was.

“Maya!”

It was impossible tae tell where the voice had come fae, but I knew it was Fionn’s. just as it had snared ma attention it captured the shadow’s just as quickly. It disappeared fae the corner, fae between the gaps I was peerin’ through and fled in the opposite direction. I quickly realised I had no idea where I was. I’d thought the exit was behind me on the path, but Fionn’s voice had come fae the opposite direction.

I heard another voice, gruffer, callin’ oot tae me. Both ae ma familiars had been sent in here, no doubt tae get me. How long had I been in storage? It could only ha been twenty minutes at the most, and that was startin’ tae be enough. The more their shouts echoed the easier it’d be fae that creature tae find them. Fate knew whit it would do. Storage was where the real monsters were kept.

I had tae warn them both. I darted fae ma hidin’ spot and ran in the direction ae their voices, hopin’ it wouldnae be too late. Whit was once clear parallel paths soon became a labyrinth ae antiques and memorabilia, makin’ it near impossible tae navigate. Had I seen that gramophone before? Was that hatbox no on top ae a wardrobe and no the floor? I shouldae been more careful, shouldae noted items I could use tae feel ma way oot.

I had no other option than to follow their voices, desperately shoutin’ at them tae run in the hopes they could hear me as clearly as I could hear them. I eventually rounded the last corner and saw them both standin’ in the path in front ae me. There was nothin’ else aroond, no shadows, no bared teeth, no frosty presence.

I almost let maself exhale.

Then it slid past me, a brief breath ae air on ma cheek as it shot its way towards ma familiars. Made ae shadow, it was difficult to see if it slid along the ground or moved in the dark places created by the antiques. Wi’ a snap ae someone’s fingers ma familiars were sucked doon paths and intae alcoves by long, black whisps ae shadow. It was everywhere and nowhere. One moment they stood there, the next I heard the crashing ae antiques and the desperate grunts as they both tried tae free themselves fae their bonds. The gasps ae breath, the choking sounds filled the air, cuttin’ through the silence like a scalpel through flesh.

What did I do? How was I here again? How many more times was I gonnae watch those two get injured or attacked by some arsehole? Why was it that I could do nothin’? Against monsters, against Fate itself? Was I really this powerless?

“Enough!” I shouted to the empty air, to all ae the antiques, and tae every single thing in storage that thought they would crawl fae their nests and hiding places.

Ma voice kept goin’, bouncin’ off ae each stone wall, curvin’ roond the ceiling, and wrapping roond each item and trinket. The air became thinner, the echo lost its edge, and the atmosphere became static, like the night before a thunderstorm. The room tilted roond me, bent where I wanted it tae, and I could feel somethin’ drawin’ near, summoned by my voice. It struggled and squirmed, tryin’ tae escape fae ma strange electric orbit. It didnae succeed.

Every inch it got closer tae me it shrunk. I watched its strange tentacle limbs, its once grinning face baring jagged teeth, and its single black eye collapse in on themselves until the creature was no bigger than my thumb. And that’s where it ended up. I’ve seen moths make less mess. A sudden wave ae fatigue rolled across ma mind, and I remembered Reid and Fionn.

I didnae know where they’d ended up, so I began callin’ their names in desperation. Fionn was the first tae answer and I followed his voice tae the path he’d been dragged doon, tryin tae grasp ontae any ae the larger antiques as an anchor. He’s peelin’ himself from the ground, inspectin’ his favourite shoes fae damage. He confirms tae me that he’s unhurt. I havenae heard Reid’s voice.

Followin’ the other trail ae debris I finally see Reid’s legs draped over an upturned set ae drawers. They’re no movin. He’s no movin’.

Ma heart’s never stopped before, but I swear it did then.

I clamber over the mess, standin’ on things and barely hearin’ them crack beneath ma weight. Once I manage tae get tae him he’s covered in red, smattered on his clothes, his skin, and drippin’ fae his hair. Viscous, crimson liquid poolin’ on the ground beneath him. His eyes flutter open and he groans in pain. I frantically tell him no tae move, hearin’ ma voice crackle in desperation. I ask him where he’s hurt, or where he hurts the most, I tell him no tae worry and that we’ll get him help, the Madam’ll know whit tae do. Words are tumblin’ oot as I’m desperately tryin tae find the source ae the blood. He’s tryin tae speak, openin’ his mouth before I cut straight through.

Eventually he grabs my arm, shakin’ it gently, and says he’s fine, and that the red stuff isnae blood. I stare blankly, no really comprehendin’ whit he’s said. He indicated tae some broken glass at his side, red waxy liquid oozin’ ontae the floor. A broken lava lamp. Reid kicked it over tryin’ tae get free and had covered himself wi’ the red wax in the process. Gingerly I begin proddin’ the red stains on his clothes and realise they’re startin’ tae harden, transform fae a deep crimson tae a rosy pink.

I started greetin’ then, the hardenin’ wax going blurry as tears filled ma eyes. I hated it. no the cryin’, although that wasnae exactly fun, but hated the feelin’ ae helplessness. I always knew I was useless in the shop, the class ijit who never knew anythin’, but I hadnae cared before. Noo I had people tae care aboot, and I couldnae stand that I might be too slow tae help them, or save them. I couldnae protect them fae Fate, and I might no be able tae protect them fae the things in the shop either if I kept on the way I was goin’.

I was ugly cryin’, I could tell, wailin’ like a weepin’ widow in a drama, so loud that Fionn came over and began tae blame Reid fae it. I tell them both everythin’ aboot ma encounter wi’ Fate, whit I’d been doin in the shop and tae customers, and tae the fact that Reid’s accident had been all ma fault. The distance I’d tried tae keep fae them in the last few months had been because I hadnae wanted them tae be hurt due tae ma mistakes.

We three sit on the floor, somewhere lost in storage, cross-legged, some ae us wishin’ we had a tissue. Fionn uses ma sleeve tae dry ma face, and confirms that I am, indeed, an ijit. He says no one signs up tae be a Madam or apprentice’s familiar thinkin’ they’re gonnae be bakin’ and sprinklin’ fairy dust ontae baked goods all day. They both knew whit the shop was, whit Fate was when they agreed tae be ma familiars. It also wasnae ma job tae protect them, just like it wasnae theirs to protect me. No anymore, at least.

Reid frowns darkly, agrees wi’ Fionn fae the first time in history, and makes us each promise the other that we don’t keep secrets. We all promise, no pinkies involved, but the two-headed ring on ma finger goes frosty fae a few seconds. I assume there’s been a new clause added tae our familiar-apprentice bond, and am concerned whit the penalty will be if one ae us breaks that promise.

We pick ourselves up off the ground and I follow them oot ae storage. I tell them I havenae even been in that long. They exchange a concerned glance and tell me it’s been nearly 2 hours. Shite.

Just before we’re aboot tae leave, the door tae the corridor in sight, I stop and growl wi’ frustration. I never found that bloody carriage clock Lydia had come for. Fionn, who’s behind me, pushes me oot the door completely and closes it behind him. He reaches intae his pocket and pulls oot a clock that looks like the one I’d been sent tae find, only smaller. By the time he puts it in ma hands it’s regular sized. Reid and I glance between the clock and the wyvern, bemused. Fionn winks, pats me on the heid, and walks aff towards the front room.

Storage, despite its mess and size and potential fae dangerous creatures, is interesting. Does time move differently or did I just get carried away? How is it even there? I’d like tae go in again, but it might be a wee while. Just until I get ma courage back.

Episode 48 – The other world

Scots vocabulary

Pram – the wheeled contraption that babies and infants are put into so people can push them around. I think the American word is stroller?

Story

My life’s not been much fun recently. I’ve not been to a bar or pub in weeks. No one tells you that by the time you’re in your final year of Uni all the good times stop. Everyone, including me, has been engulfed by thesis writing and preparing for final exams. It’s like everyone’s entire future hinges on a few hours in a silent hall, and how well you can bullshit your way through a 30-page report on a topic no one’s really interested in.

People have aged overnight, with exams, coursework, thesis writing, and interviews for internships and jobs. The future is looming, and somehow, it’s more frightening than anything in the shop or storage. My pals are asking, my tutors are pressing, and my Da is even starting to have a go.

“What are you doing after?”

And I have nothing to tell them. What do I say? That from the day I was born I only had one fate, and it didn’t involve anything they could consider even in their wildest imagination? I wished time would stop, things would remain as they are, nothing would change. I’d always be a Uni student. But time for me was running out. Uni, my pals, my flat, all that was anchoring me to normal, was about to disappear, and all I’d be left with was the madness of the shop. My normal life kept me balanced, kept me sane on some days, but in a few short months the shop would be all I had.

No checking out, no only going a few days a week. I’d be there every day, all day, until eventually I’d never leave. I’d watch those same pals grow up, move away, start careers, begin families, buy homes, retire, spend their remaining days in peace, and then disappear forever. My flat would house new people, new students, host more parties, witness more alcohol poisoning and pranks gone wrong. It’d be refurbished, sold, bought, rented, condemned, and then demolished. Everything I knew, everyone I knew, I’d watch them live their lives without having my own. I’d watch things move on and leave me behind. I’d witness progress whilst being unable to make my own. I’d be a constant in a world of change.

And it all started as soon as I left Uni.

Needless to say, I wasn’t doing great when Reid came into the shop one day looking surprisingly chipper. I was immediately sour and suspicious. Why did he get to be carefree and happy when I wasn’t? Did the ring only work one way?

He came over to the counter, where I was alone, and asked if I was free the coming Friday night. I asked why. He began to tell me about a festival that his community were having, and the elders wanted me to attend.

The who wanted me to attend what?

Fionn, a professional lurker by this point, slithered from one of the aisles and inserted himself into the conversation. Reid and I exchanged uncomfortable glances, knowing Fionn couldn’t leave the shop, and we were talking about an excursion.

His spirits dampened, Reid began to mumble something about a fox festival that went on every year, and that this year was some special anniversary, so the fox Elders had wanted the Madam to attend. When Reid had asked my boss, she’d suggested I go instead.

It’s nice to know I can still make my own decisions.

About to take the piss out of Reid for talking so quickly I didn’t understand or hear half of it, I found myself reluctant to probe further in front of Fionn, and just accepted the invitation.

A few nights later I waited outside the shop for Reid to pick me up and take me to the festival. I don’t think I’d ever thought so hard about what to wear. How formal was this event? Would it be like turning up to a funeral in pyjamas?

I was relieved when Reid pulled up looking like he always did, and despite myself I peered into the car to see if his latest relationship had beaten me to the front seat. It was just Reid, yet it’d only just occurred to me to think about who exactly Reid was going out with. Douglas hadn’t been blurry, but I hadn’t had blurry eyesight around something strange in ages. Was Reid going out with humans, his own kind, or something else entirely?

As we set off, I asked more pertinent questions than Reid’s lover of the week, and finally got an explanation of what this festival was. It was somewhere between an independence or liberation day and a founding day. It was to celebrate the existence of foxes. For something so ancient, surely there wasn’t a specific date?

Turns out foxes, and by extension all creatures like them, including wyverns like Fionn, had been created. Each species had their own day, and tonight was the fox’s. I had many more questions, but Reid appeared reluctant to tell all.

We drove down the motorway, past the commuter villages with new houses lit up by new streetlights, the road becoming emptier the more we passed. Eventually we came across a junction that no car but us used. It had no number, no signpost informing us of the closest village or town, it simply looked like an empty road sign waiting to be finished.

There were roundabouts, streetlights, parks, ponds, shops, an entire world that looked like the one I’d grown up in, the one I’d lived in, but quieter. The people we drove past looked like you or I, but all were going in the same direction, and all were dressed up in pretty, colourful clothes that was like nothing I’d ever seen. Ceremonial robes from a culture I didn’t know.

Reid parked the car, and I got out, unable to stop staring as people sauntered by in their colourful finery. That’s when I noticed the smaller creatures, the reds, blacks, browns, and brilliant whites as they padded their way down the street next to the people. Foxes chasing each other down the road, winding between pedestrians, and bouncing off walls. The scene was something out of a bairn’s book that no one had written but should. All these people, all within sight, were foxes, whether they looked it or not.

I heard someone unfamiliar calling ma name, and when I looked over the car, I saw Reid waiting with familiar looking people on the pavement. Peeling my eyes away, I went over to them and recognised the two women beside my familiar as his sister and her wife**. I briefly noticed eyes staring at me and peered down to see a pram with a wee bairn inside. Reid’s nephew, and the baby who the Madam did the blessing for a few years ago. I also glanced at the baby bump that Reid’s sister was attempting to hide underneath a floaty dress.

We smiled and exchanged greetings, both expressing how excited they were to see me, and how everyone was glad that a future Madam was attending the festival. I nodded and smiled along, thinking they were being polite. We joined the throng of people moving towards a large park in the centre of this mysterious place.

Reid’s sister was more forthcoming with information. When I asked where this place was, and why I’d never heard of it, she said that was the point. Creatures liked to keep to themselves, and so most had their own towns and villages that acted much like the shop. People could only see it if they needed to.

Despite myself I asked about human-fox relationships, since the foxes had created their own world away from human eyes. She said that whilst not forbidden or taboo, it was generally frowned upon to make a serious connection with a human. They, under no circumstances, were to be brought into this world. If a fox decided to start a family with a human, that human and any bairns would be denied access. There was no such thing as hybrids or cross breeds. The children of a fox and a human were always human, and so had no place in the fox world.

I couldn’t help but look around and admire the amount ae diversity considering how small the gene pool must be.

Reid, who was walking in front of us with the pram and his sister-in-law, glanced back at me, as if to check I wouldn’t say anything. I was almost insulted he had to, but I knew by the slight tint to his cheeks that he hadn’t only been chasing fox tail.

When we got to the park it was crowded, and exactly like the festivals you see in other parts of the world. There were stalls with food, trinkets, games. Small stages for performances, large ones, a grand stage that looked prepped and ready for a famous band to perform.

I was immediately led away from all of this into a private area where serious looking older foxes and people were congregating. Almost as soon as I got in, I didn’t have room to breathe, everyone wanted to greet me, shake my hand, touch me like I was a lucky charm. Faces I didn’t know introducing themselves, telling me I was welcome and that I honoured them with my presence. I’ve never shied away from a crowd, but it quickly became overwhelming, and it wasn’t long before I was wishing for Reid.

Just like always, he appeared at my side and politely put some distance between me and my new fan club. When we all heard a voice like an ancient wind, the fans parted, and the oldest of them all walked up to me with cane and unsteady hand.

He shooed the rest away, and they obeyed, leaving Reid, the oldest elder, and me standing alone. He apologised, and said it was the first time many of them had ever seen a Madam in person. I said I didn’t understand the reverence, I wasn’t even a Madam yet.

The elder eyed Reid bemusedly and beckoned both of us to follow him as we took a tour of the festival. He became like a protective amulet, although the whispers were faster than our pace, no one came up and swarmed me, and the crowd parted like reeds in a field.

The elder, who was indeed the most senior and essentially the highest authority, began to tell me of the fox’s origins. Many thousands of years ago, when humans were slowly becoming the most dangerous predator around, they began to hunt the foxes. At that time all were animals, they had no other abilities. Forced further and further away from their homes, losing family members and loved ones to the stone headed spear of a human, they eventually had enough and went to see Madam Norna.

Could this one have been the original, if we were talking about so long ago?

They travelled to her and begged her to save them, to give them a way to defend themselves from the threat. So, she did. She allowed them to turn themselves into humans whenever they liked and turn back with as much ease. They would cloak themselves in human skin, pretend to be like them, in order to survive.

This didn’t happen to all foxes, just the packs whose leaders had been brave enough to make the journey to one of the most powerful beings in existence. And that’s how they had remained for thousands of years. Safe away from the humans.

It became clearer why they wanted Madam Norna to attend this festival if the madam were the reason any of them were even here. I, somewhat cynically, began to wonder what the price had been for this ability. I never asked.

After we had done a lap of the festival and I’d made a list of the food I wanted to try, and the prizes I wanted to win, or have Reid win them for me, the elder thanked me again fae coming, and set us both free to enjoy the festival.

And we did. I can’t explain how nice it was to be free, to have fun again since my life feels like it’s been so lacking these last few months. I laughed, and ate, and enjoyed myself.

Eventually my legs became sore with all the walking, and we settled down at one of the small stages that were set up, that put on performances through the night. The lights were dimmer in this part of the festival, and it soon became clear why when a spotlight was shone onto a white screen.

Some writing whipped onto the screen, and I realised it was a shadow puppet show, except with card cut-outs instead of hands. It read “The story of Death’s greatest love”. This shook a few things loose in my head and I felt like I’d heard or read that phrase somewhere before.

The writing was replaced by a grim reaper type character, complete with dark hood and scythe. The narrator, who’s voice was a deep burr perfect for storytelling, began to weave this ancient fable.

Once, long ago, during a time when the earth was just fully waking up, there existed only a few primordial beings. Death was amongst their number. Another was a creature who was only referred to as Death’s love. A creature of no particular providence who was guardian, friend, and loved one. The two were everything to each other.

One day, Fate came to ask Death for a favour. Fate’s puppet was an old, wizened man and I had to stifle a shiver as I remembered the owl’s eyes shimmering with silent menace. It’s never stated what this favour is, but Death refuses to help Fate. And that appears the end of it.

Except Fate is accustomed to having its own way, and so kidnaps Death’s love to use as leverage against Death. In exchange for the favour being granted, Death can have their pet returned. Death agrees, but their love is not returned as promised. It is never returned. Each time Fate wants a favour from Death, it is granted, Fate dangling their beloved every single time.

Except I’ve noticed something strange. The card puppet used for Death’s love is black all over, has more tails than any four-legged creature should have, and has a suspicious mark on its forehead that I’d give any money was an eye.

My chest clenches with something I’ve never felt before. Anticipation? Hope in spite of all odds?

Once the show is finished and people begin to move on, I battle through the crowd to where the performers are. I begin to ask the narrator about the story, where it comes from, if it’s true. He, like everyone there, recognises me, and rather than laugh at my strange questions, he humours me.

He says it’s a very old tale that no one really knows when it started. I ask about the puppet they used for Death’s love, whether it was chosen at random. He confirms that in the spoken tale, Death’s love is always described as a creature with three eyes and many tails, one that no one has seen since it was taken by Fate.

Holy fucking shit. Holy fucking shit.

I thank the narrator and find myself sitting down, chest released and breath short, as though I’ve just ran a marathon. It couldn’t be. I was grasping at straws, there was no way this was all true. It was just a story.

Yet, after all ae these years, I knew it wasn’t. I knew.

It was about time to trust myself, listen to that voice deep down inside that I’d forced to take a back seat all of these years. I could fix this; I could give this story a happy ending. All I needed to do was find Death. And I knew exactly who to go to.

*pause*

Wait, wait a minute. Have I been calling Death’s greatest love a wee shite all these years?

** I messed up in the original writing and recording of this episode. By this episode I’d forgotten that Reid’s sister had married and had children with a woman and here I put husband instead of wife. I’m glad to have the opportunity to fix it, even if it’s a bit too late. Sorry.

Scots-ish language version

Ma life’s no’ been much fun recently. I’ve no’ been tae a bar or pub in weeks. No one tells you that by the time you’re in your final year ae uni all the good times stop. Everyone, including me, has been engulfed by thesis writing and preparing fae final exams. It’s like everyone’s entire future hinges on a few hours in a silent hall, and how well ye can bullshit your way through a 30-page report on a topic no one’s really interested in.

People have aged overnight, wi’ exams, coursework, thesis writing, and interviews fae internships and jobs. The future is looming, and somehow it’s more frightening than anythin’ in the shop or storage. Ma pals are askin’, ma tutors are pressing, and ma Da is even startin’ tae have a go.

What are you doin’ after?

And I have nothin’ tae tell them. Whit dae I say? That fae the day I was born I only had one fate, and it didnae involve anythin’ they could consider even in their wildest imagination. I wished time would stop, things would remain as they are, nothing would change. I’d always be a uni student. But time fae me was running oot. Uni, ma pals, ma flat, all that was anchoring me tae normal, was aboot tae disappear, and all I’d be left wi’ was the madness ae the shop. Ma normal life kept me balanced, kept me sane on some days, but in a few short months the shop would be all I had.

No checking oot, no only goin’ a few days a week, I’d be there every day, all day, until eventually I’d never leave. I’d watch those same pals grow up, move away, start careers, begin families, buy homes, retire, spend their remaining days in peace, and then disappear forever. Ma flat would house new people, new students, host more parties, witness more alcohol poisoning and pranks gone wrong. It’d be refurbished, sold, bought, rented, condemned, and then demolished. Everythin I knew, everyone I knew, I’d watch them live their lives withoot havin’ ma own. I’d watch things move on and leave me behind. I’d witness progress whilst bein unable tae make ma own. I’d be a constant in a world ae change.

And it all started as soon as I left uni.

Needless tae say I wasnae doin’ great when Reid came intae the shop one day lookin’ surprisingly chipper. I was immediately sour and suspicious. Why did he get tae be carefree and happy when I wasnae? Did the ring only work one way?

He came over tae the counter, where I was alone, and asked if I was free the coming Friday night. I asked why. He began tae tell me aboot a festival that his community were havin’, and the elders wanted me tae attend.

The who wanted me tae attend what?

Fionn, a professional lurker by this point, slithered fae one ae the aisles and inserted himself intae the conversation. Reid and I exchanged uncomfortable glances, knowin’ Fionn couldnae leave the shop and we were talkin’ aboot an excursion.

His spirits dampened, Reid began tae mumble somethin’ aboot a fox festival that went on every year, and that this year was some special anniversary so the fox Elders had wanted the Madam tae attend. When Reid had asked ma boss she’d suggested I go instead.

It’s nice tae know I can still make ma own decisions.

About to take the piss oot ae Reid fae talkin’ so quickly I didnae understand or hear half ae it, I found maself reluctant to probe further in front ae Fionn, and just accepted the invitation.

A few nights later I waited ootside the shop fae Reid tae pick me up and take me tae the festival. I dinnae think I’d ever thought so hard aboot whit tae wear. How formal was this event? Would it be like turnin’ up tae a funeral in pajamas?

I was relieved when Reid pulled up lookin’ like he always did, and despite maself I peered intae the car tae see if his latest relationship had beaten me tae the front seat. It was just Reid, yet it’d only just occurred tae me tae think aboot who exactly Reid was goin oot wi’. Douglas hadnae been blurry, but I hadnae had blurry eyesight aroond something strange in ages. Was Reid goin’ oot wi’ humans, his own kind, or somethin’ else entirely?

As we set off I asked more pertinent questions than Reid’s lover ae the week, and finally got an explanation ae whit this festival was. It was somewhere between an independence or liberation day and a founding day. It was tae celebrate the existence ae foxes. Fae somethin’ so ancient, surely there wasnae a specific date?

Turns oot foxes, and by extension all creatures like them, including wyverns like Fionn, had been created. Each species had their own day, and tonight was the fox’s. I had many more questions, but Reid appeared reluctant tae tell all.

We drove doon the motorway, past the commuter villages wi’ new hooses lit up by new streetlights, the road becomin’ emptier the more we passed. Eventually we came across a junction that no car but us used. It had no number, no signpost informing us of the closest village or town, it simply looked like an empty road sign waitin’ tae be finished.

There were roundabouts, streetlights, parks, ponds, shops, an entire world that looked like the one I’d grown up in, the one I’d lived in, but quieter. The people we drove past looked like you or I, but all were goin’ in the same direction, and all were dressed up in pretty, colourful clothes that was like nothing I’d ever seen. Ceremonial robes fae a culture I didnae know.

Reid parked the car and I got oot, unable tae stop starin’ as people sauntered by in their colourful finery. That’s when I noticed the smaller creatures, the reds, blacks, browns, and brilliant whites as they padded their way doon the street next tae the people. Foxes chasin’ each other doon the road, windin’ between pedestrians, and bouncin’ aff ae walls. The scene was somethin’ oot ae a bairn’s book that no one had written, but should. All ae these people, all within sight, were foxes, whether they looked it or not.

I heard someone unfamiliar callin’ ma name, and when I looked over the car I saw Reid waitin’ wi’ familiar lookin’ people on the pavement. Peelin’ ma eyes away, I went over tae them and recognised the man and woman beside ma familiar as his sister and her husband. I briefly noticed eyes starin’ at me, and peered doon tae see a pram wi’ a wee bairn inside. Reid’s nephew, and the baby who the Madam did the blessin’ fae a few years ago. I also glanced at the baby bump that Reid’s sister was attempting tae hide underneath a floaty dress.

We smiled and exchanged greetings, both expressing how excited they were tae see me, and how everyone was glad that a future Madam was attendin’ the festival. I nodded and smiled along, thinkin’ they were bein’ overly polite. We joined the throng ae people movin’ towards a large park in the centre ae this mysterious place.

Reid’s sister was more forthcoming wi’ information. When I asked where this place was, and why I’d never heard ae it, she said that was the point. Creatures liked tae keep tae themselves, and so most had their own towns and villages that acted much like the shop. People could only see it if they needed tae.

Despite myself I asked aboot human-fox relationships, since the foxes had created their own world away fae human eyes. She said that whilst not forbidden or taboo, it was generally frowned upon tae make a serious connection wi’ a human. They, under no circumstances, were tae be brought intae this world. If a fox decided tae start a family wi a human, that human and any bairns would be denied access. There was no such thing as hybrids or cross breeds. The children ae a fox and a human were always human, and so had no place in the fox world.

I couldnae help but look aroond and admire the amount ae diversity considering how small the gene pool must be.

Reid, who was walkin’ in front ae us wi the pram and his brother-in-law, glanced back at me, as if tae check I wouldnae say anythin’. I was almost insulted he had tae, but I knew by the slight tint tae his cheeks that he hadnae only been chasin’ fox tail.

When we got tae the park it was crowded, and exactly like the festivals ye see in other parts ae the world. There were stalls wi’ food, trinkets, games. Small stages fae performances, large ones, a grand stage that looked prepped and ready fae a famous band tae perform.

I was immediately led away fae all ae this intae a private area where serious lookin’ older foxes and people were congregating. Almost as soon as I got in I didnae have room tae breathe, everyone wanted tae greet me, shake ma hand, touch me like I was a lucky charm. Faces I didnae know introducing themselves, tellin’ me I was welcome and that I honoured them wi’ ma presence. I’ve never shied away fae a crowd, but it quickly became overwhelming, and it wasnae long before I was wishin’ fae Reid.

Just like always, he appeared at ma side and politely put some distance between me and ma new fan club. When we all heard a voice like an ancient wind, the fans parted, and the oldest ae them all walked up tae me wi’ cane and unsteady hand.

He shooed the rest away, and they obeyed, leavin Reid, the oldest elder, and me standin’ alone. He apologised, and said it was the first time many ae them had ever seen a Madam in person. I said I didnae understand the reverence, I wasnae even a Madam yet.

The elder eyed Reid bemusedly, and beckoned both ae us tae follow him as we took a tour ae the festival. He became like a protective amulet, although the whispers were faster than our pace, no one came up and swarmed me, and the crowd parted like reeds in a field.

The elder, who was indeed the most senior and essentially the highest authority, began tae tell me ae the fox’s origins. Many thousands ae years ago, when humans were slowly becomin’ the most dangerous predator aroond, they began tae hunt the foxes. At that time all were animals, they had no other abilities. Forced further and further away fae their homes, losin’ family members and loved ones tae the stone heided spear ae a human, they eventually had enough and went tae see Madam Norna.

Could this one have been the original, if we were talkin’ aboot so long ago?

They travelled tae her and begged her tae save them, tae give them a way tae defend themselves fae the threat. So she did. She allowed them tae turn themselves intae humans whenever they liked, and turn back wi’ as much ease. They would cloak themselves in human skin, pretend tae be like them, in order tae survive.

This didnae happen tae all foxes, just the packs whose leaders had been brave enough tae make the journey tae one ae the most powerful beings in existence. And that’s how they had remained fae thousands ae years. Safe away fae the humans.

It became clearer why they wanted Madam Norna tae attend this festival if the madam were the reason any ae them were even here. I, somewhat cynically, began tae wonder what the price had been fae this ability. I never asked.

After we had done a lap ae the festival and I’d made a list ae the food I wanted tae try, and the prizes I wanted tae win, or have Reid win them fae me, the elder thanked me again fae comin, and set us both free tae enjoy the festival.

And we did. I cannae explain how nice it was tae be free, tae have fun again since ma life feels like it’s been so lackin’ these last few months. I laughed, and ate, and enjoyed maself.

Eventually ma legs became sore wi’ all the walkin, and we settled doon at one ae the small stages that were set up, that put on performances through the night. The lights were dimmer in this part ae the festival and it soon became clear why when a spotlight was shone ontae a white screen.

Some writing whipped ontae the screen and I realised it was a shadow puppet show, except wi’ card cut-outs instead ae hands. It read “The story of Death’s greatest love”. This shook a few things loose in ma heid and I felt like I’d heard or read that phrase somewhere before.

The writing was replaced by a grim reaper type character, complete wi’ dark hood and scythe. The narrator, who’s voice was a deep burr perfect fae storytelling, began tae weave this ancient fable.

Once, long ago, during a time when the earth was only just fully waking up, there existed only a few primordial beings. Death was amongst their number. Another was a creature who was only referred tae as Death’s love. A creature of no particular providence who was guardian, friend, and loved one. The two were everything tae each other.

One day, Fate came to ask Death fae a favour. Fate’s puppet was an old, wizened man and I had tae stifle a shiver as I remembered the owl’s eyes shimmering wi’ silent menace. It’s never stated what this favour is, but Death refuses tae help Fate. And that appears the end ae it.

Except Fate is accustomed tae having its own way, and so kidnaps Death’s love tae use as leverage against Death. In exchange fae the favour bein’ granted, Death can have their pet returned. Death agrees, but their love is not returned as promised. It is never returned. Each time Fate wants a favour from Death, it is granted, Fate dangling their beloved every single time.

Except I’ve noticed something strange. The card puppet used fae Death’s love is black all over, has more tails than any four-legged creature should have, and has a suspicious mark on its forehead that I’d give any money was an eye.

Ma chest clenches wi’ somethin’ I’ve never felt before. Anticipation? Hope in spite ae all odds?

Once the show is finished and people begin tae move on, I battle through the crowd tae where the performers are. I begin tae ask the narrator aboot the story, where it comes from, if it’s true. He, like everyone there, recognises me, and rather than laugh at ma strange questions, he humours me.

He says it’s a very old tale that no one really knows when it started. I ask aboot the puppet they used fae death’s love, whether it was chosen at random. He confirms that in the spoken tale, Death’s love is always described as a creature wi’ three eyes and many tails, one that no one has seen since it was taken by Fate.

Holy fucking shit. Holy fucking shit.

I thank the narrator and find myself sittin’ doon, chest released and breath short, as though I’ve just ran a marathon. It couldnae be. I was graspin’ at straws, there was no way this was all true. It was just a story.

Yet, after all ae these years, I knew it wasnae. I knew.

It was aboot time tae trust maself, listen tae that voice deep doon inside that I’d forced tae take a back seat all ae these years. I could fix this, I could give this story a happy ending. All I needed tae do was find Death. And I knew exactly who tae go tae.

*pause*

Wait, wait a minute. Have I been callin’ death’s greatest love a wee shite all ae these years?

The Tenth Grain – Unhinged

In the week after her uncle left, Iona felt his absence more keenly than she had anticipated. Waking up in the morning and sitting alone at the table over a bowl of cereal dampened her already constrained spirits. Sometimes it was difficult to get out of bed at all. The steady stream of customers did nothing to alleviate her melancholy, and it felt more like she was a robot living day after day as if programmed to do so than a young witch continuing her family tradition. She saw everything in shades of grey rather than in colour.

An area of continued sourness was the current state of her relationship with Leif, if that’s what it was. Friendship, relationship, arrangement, there had been many different labels swirling around her mind, but trying to make one stick that encompassed its complexity was proving more difficult. One thing less difficult to ignore was the niggling sense of urgency that she needed to clear up the misunderstanding and apologise for being so abrupt. As if sensing her thoughts the shop had ensured she remained busy at all waking hours, from a steady stream of customers to the items in the shop deciding they were going to act up, she hadn’t had a chance to leave and seek the middle Morrison brother out since her uncle had left. Their misunderstanding remained, and she knew after the cold way he had addressed her he wouldn’t be waiting outside of the door in the near future.

As much as she wished to clear up the misunderstanding she couldn’t ignore the biting of pride that accompanied her musings. Why did she have to apologise? Couldn’t Leif understand the consequences that could happen if her family were to find out about whatever it was they had between them? He was clever, and his family had eyes all over the city, so surely he would have known that her uncle had come to visit, and also understood the necessity for him to remain at a distance. Pride was always a strong component in the minds of the Tullochs, but it weakened considerably when they knew they were in the wrong. Iona was the one who had been rude and dismissive of whatever it was he had wanted to speak about, therefore the need to apologise lay solely with her, if the shop would give her a chance.

As she stood vacantly at the counter a man entered the shop, bumbling across the distance until he stood opposite her. She didn’t need to be a Tulloch to observe the easily recognisable signs of fatigue. From the dark bags under his heavy eyes to the glazed expression on his features, all pointed to a severe and prolonged lack of sleep. He looked to be in his mid-forties, but in reality was probably a decade or so younger. Dependent on the life someone led depended upon their rate of ageing, and from what Iona was observing, the man before her led a chequered existence. He was smartly dressed with a shirt underneath his neatened jacket, but they didn’t mean he had always been so.

“How can I help ye?” Iona queried.

“I’m having trouble sleeping recently,” the customer began, “and a friend of a friend told me you specialise in herbal remedies.”

Iona had met many insomniacs, all with different reasons why they couldn’t get or stay asleep. Usually it was stress or anxiety, their brains were unable to get a moment’s rest because of their busy schedule or big event coming up. In some other cases it was old age and after having led a busy and full life they weren’t used to not having a reason to get up in the morning. Whatever the origin it was almost always temporary. There was something different about the customer who stood before her, he was in considerably worse shape than most of the other insomniacs she had come across, causing her to hazard a guess she may need to give him something stronger, which required more of her skills and time.

“I do,” she conceded, “There’s something I can make that may help ye. It’ll take a day or two longer than usual since I’ll have to order in the herbs. Could I take your name and contact details?”

She handed him a notepad and pen, smiling as warmly as she could. When the man bent down to write his information Iona came face to face with something she hadn’t seen in many years, and that, to her, were mostly metaphorical. Everyone had skeletons, some more than others, and the more unfortunate had ghosts. She looked directly into its eyes, having no choice but to acknowledge its presence. It didn’t look much older than the customer himself, and there was no doubt in her mind that the two were connected. Were they brothers, friends, or something else entirely? By the looks of things it wasn’t the case of a friend or brother being unable to let go and move on, but rather a spiteful soul that wanted its pound of flesh. Their gazes remained locked in an icy stare until the customer stood up and returned the notepad.

“I’ll be in touch when it’s ready,” Iona announced shakily.

The customer nodded in gratitude and plodded out of the shop, his ghostly shadow so close they could have been conjoined twins. Iona tore her gaze away from the two as they marched out of the shop and concentrated on the notepad the customer had returned. David Morby was not sleep deprived, he was haunted.

***

Despite common opinion, and films, ghosts weren’t as common as one might think. They occupied an awkward bridge between the living and the dead. It was usually only under special circumstances that they were allowed to remain in the space in between, and it wasn’t somewhere one wished to remain for long. If they did they would turn mad, either with loneliness, longing, or desperation. Having no one speak to you for months on end, if at all, being forced to look as the people in your life move on with theirs, and being unable to prevent anything from happening or intervene was a difficult cross to bear for the majority of souls. The one condition the films did have right was that ghosts were simply the souls of people who had unfinished business, what they had continuously got wrong was that they didn’t have a choice. All ghosts in existence had chosen to stay invisible amongst the living, and it was usually for one of two reasons; they wished to keep a watch over their family, or they wanted revenge.

It had appeared obvious from the moments she had observed David Morby and his unwanted passenger that it was vengeance the ghost wished for. Unfortunately for the customer no amount of her sleeping draught would help him, and the solution called for harsher measures. Digging around in the lives of customer’s was always a part of the Tulloch calling, but interfering and prying into them was something Iona always wished to avoid. Often in the cases of ghosts there was no way to avoid becoming embroiled in whatever matter was incarcerating them in the space between life and death. In past generations, when the public was all too ready to believe in ghosts, it had been easy for the Tullochs to intervene and help both parties, but ever since science had invaded the western world and brought with it an annoying scepticism, no one believed in anything supernatural. It had made not only life difficult for those a part of that world, but it had made the duty more challenging. To ordinary, educated, mortals they were a herb and trinket shop for those who still clung onto superstition and nature’s healing properties, but to those rare beings in the know they were far more than that. They weren’t priests who exorcised phantoms and poltergeists, they were gifted beings who had been given the opportunity to help restless souls move on.

Thankfully the first step in matters such as these was to confront the ghost itself and encourage it to let go. If it refused then she would have the arduous task of trying to convince someone that everything they had been told about supernatural beings was wrong. She knew which eventuality she preferred.

Unlike the glamorous witches in the programmes on TV Iona couldn’t merely summon a ghost she didn’t know the name of, and so she was forced to find the human it had attached itself to instead. David Morby lived in a neighbourhood that she didn’t need to be told was down on its luck. The buildings were cracked, the paint on doors chipped, and most of the windows on the first two floors were protected by an iron grate. The shops that weren’t open had solid iron shutters that were covered in graffiti, and the only places that were open were small convenience shops that looked no more safe, and pubs. Unfortunately for Iona, David Morby’s personal cure for his insomnia was to remain in the pub until the early hours of the morning, when he was forced to leave. She had lingered in the shadows, invisible to the mortal eye, and been witness to more than one serious crime which she couldn’t report.

Eventually the customer stumbled out of the pub in the throes of a drunken stupor and began to drag his feet in the direction she hoped was where he lived. As she had expected the ghostly presence remained, and observing it from a distance made her certain that it wasn’t a guardian ghost sent to make everything well. Emerging slowly from the darkness of the alleyway, like a cat waiting for the mouse to make a run out of its hole, she made her presence known to the spirit, like a flash from a lighthouse in thick fog. The ghost stopped following David and turned around, his eyes finding where she stood across the empty street.

“We need to talk,” she whispered, knowing he could hear her.

Like the markings on her arms it was only those who were a part of the supernatural world who would be able to see her in her current state, and the mysterious poltergeist was one of them. Ordinary drunk mortals stumbled obtusely past her, but not through her and so there had been a few times during her night’s watch where she’d had to slip quickly out of the way. The ghost contemplated what he should do, but more importantly what she could do. Iona was certain that it didn’t know what she was, not the full extent. There were a few mortals who had the ability to see ghosts, but they were usually distant relatives of the clans, great-great-grandchildren of a fourth son or daughter who had some magic there but not enough for it to manifest as it did in the main line. Even they were few in their number. As the generations became diluted by mortal blood all traces of magic vanished, and although they may share blood with witches, it was just blood and no power. She hazarded a guess that since his ghostly state had begun he hadn’t met many people who could see him, let alone interact with him on equal footing. The spiritualists may have had contact, but she doubted they had agents in this part of the city, the one where neither they nor their immortal enemy had dared to venture. Iona could see him think about his options, whether to run, if he could run, or whether he should face her head on. To him she was the herbalist who his prey had visited for help sleeping, what danger could she pose? The answer was a lot, but it was best he didn’t know that.

After a few moments he separated himself from David Morby and crossed the road to where she stood waiting. She could see by his tense shoulders that he was prepared to run if he thought his afterlife would be in any danger.

“What do you want?” he queried cautiously.

“To talk.”

“How can you see me?”

I can do much more than that, she thought cynically, but put on her most gentle voice and banished the fearsome thoughts from her mind. Ghosts were a lot like sheep or deer in that they were easily spooked into fleeing, and were hard to catch up to.

“There are some people in the world who can see ghosts, and I’m one of them.”

Some witches assumed that ghosts were overwhelmed with everything that had happened to them, especially the more recent additions who came from a world where ghosts didn’t exist. The reason Iona didn’t tell him the truth was because she was afraid he would bolt once he heard the word witch. If he thought she was simply an intuitive mortal then he would be more relaxed.

“Come with me,” she encouraged but saw his reluctance, “David won’t be going anywhere until the morning.”

He grunted and followed her, ensuring there was a few paces of distance between them at all times. There must be a reason why he was acting so cautious, and she theorised she might not be the first witch he had met. Had he been in contact with the mysterious shadow? Had he seen their face?

Her questions would have to wait as her foremost priority was to help the customer. They found a small park, covered in darkness save from a few amber street lights that didn’t quite illuminate some corners.

They sat down at a bench under one of the streetlights, flickering every so often as if the bulb was at the end of its life. The park was surprisingly empty, but not without interference by the noise that permeated the streets during the twilight hours when respectable people were in bed. Shouts, out of tune singing, and other mumblings and ramblings surrounded them like the midnight flies.

“What’s your name?” she asked gently.

“Craig Smith,” he answered sheepishly, his eyes darting at every shudder of movement in the encroaching darkness.

If she didn’t know any better she would have thought he was waiting for a trap to unfold, ensnaring him and ending the afterlife he had chosen. Perhaps she was right and he had met the mysterious figure in the margins of the city, interfering with everything, both on a small scale, and a larger one. If that were true why bother a ghost as random as this one? Had they known that David Morby would go to the shop in the hopes of solving his problem? If so what was his role in their grand plan? What Iona found even worse about her situation was that because she had never met the shadow, she assumed everything that came into her life was connected.

She tried to pull herself back to the present rather than running down a path that may not lead anywhere useful. Craig Smith, the ghost, didn’t share the customer’s surname, so it was growing more unlikely that they were related by blood.

“How do ye know Mr Morby?”

After a slight pause, “Dave? We’re old friends.”

“How old?”

“Why do you care?” he huffed.

“I’m trying to help. Mr Morby can’t continue living this way, and neither can ye.”

“He deserves to be tortured after everything he’s done,” Craig spat bitterly, “He’s not the innocent victim here.”

Iona didn’t point out that one didn’t need to be innocent to be a victim. The wheel turned and spun, and although it was usually the innocent who were victims, there were times when the perpetrator switched roles. If his embittered words hadn’t shown her how deeply the anger ran, then the way he scowled, or his dogged following of David solidified her conclusions. Sometimes it was difficult to encourage a ghost to move on because they had deemed their unfinished business important enough to remain stuck between stages of life. How could any witch persuade them to let go when death itself hadn’t managed it?

“What happened between ye?” she inquired.

Craig looked at her in a gauging manner, trying to glean whether she was earnestly interested or simply asking to detain him further.

“We were best friends,” he began, “I considered him more like a brother, and I thought he did the same. Our parents didn’t care for us much and we were left to our own devices. By the time we left school we were part of a local gang.”

London wasn’t the only place where gangland ruined the lives of unfortunate people. Every city had some kind of gang culture, one that was surprisingly tolerated by the authorities, and ignored by the respectable. Entire boroughs of the city were skimmed over and left to their own devices, so long as no one was killed. Those who lost their lives remained unsatisfied if they wanted justice because there was none to be found, usually no one cared enough to investigate. It was a sad, sometimes short, existence, and one she knew relatively little about growing up in the Highlands.

“We were sellers at first, out on the street, doling it out, but as we got older we became more involved with sourcing and the supply chain. It was a harsh environment, kill or be killed, but we had each other, and because of that we progressed until we were near the top of the chain. Our climb made us a lot of enemies, both in the gang and from rival ones. I didn’t care though, because Dave and I were a team, we always looked out for each other.”

It had perhaps been an obvious direction for a story involving gangs and drugs, but such things were confined to the cities, not the quiet, uneventful countryside where she had grown up. Everything about David and Craig’s story could have been taken from one of many television programmes they broadcast. From ghosts, to gangs, to illegal drugs, it appeared that fiction wasn’t as far away from reality as ordinary people liked to believe.

“I was wrong,” Craig continued, “Dave only cared about himself, I was just convenient to keep at his side. As soon as things went wrong, as soon as there was trouble, he ran and left me behind. We were waiting on a delivery when a rival gang ambushed us. I got stabbed, and instead of helping me Dave ran and left me there to die. I was supposed to be his friend, his brother, and he never even looked back as he left. He even lied about what happened to the other members, and he was let off!”

Betrayal was a tale as old as the human race, perhaps stretching even further back. Iona had spent her life observing how easy it seemed for mortals to do, whether it was a friend betraying a friend, or a spouse deceiving a spouse. She could never imagine forsaking any of her family members as easily as ordinary mortals did. Craig and David’s story wasn’t a new one, and it wouldn’t be the last time it happened to two friends who had been through harsh times together. This ghost did want its pound of flesh.

“What happened after ye died?” she inquired.

With her question his rage momentarily abated, replaced by unease and fear. No one, at least no mortal, knew what happened after death until they died themselves. Tullochs, and the other old magic clans, were privileged in that they did. Through thousands of years of natural magic they had been granted the ability to see the Overseers. They, like ghosts, weren’t nearly as glamorous in reality as they were on the television. There were various theories as to what, or who, they were, but their most important function was to guide the souls of the dead. Beyond that was an area of forbidden knowledge, even to practitioners of old magic.

“I…I was a ghost. I could see everything but no one could see me. I didn’t see why Dave should get away with what he’d done, so I followed him.”

“That was it?” she pressed.

Progress was always made faster when the customer reached conclusions themselves. They both knew that an Overseer had been there when Craig had died, and they both knew he had chosen to remain amongst the living despite their arguments, he just didn’t know the extent of Iona’s knowledge on the subject.

“Why? What else is there?” he retorted petulantly.

“That someone came to see ye when ye died.”

As the words left her mouth Iona began to understand why he was so nervous, so suspicious of every shadow and shiver in the darkness. Overseers were harmless, they were told who to collect and they gave the same choice to every soul they came into contact with; remain or move on. The majority of mortals chose to go when they were informed of the alternative afterlife of being an observer of the world they were forced to leave. Some, the occasional few who couldn’t let go, were set free to become ghosts, with the warning that no mortal soul could remain in between forever.

It wasn’t a warning so much as a promise, for Overseers weren’t the only ones in the business of soul collection. Iona didn’t know what their intended name was, but the old magic clans called them Catchers after their job of capturing lost souls and forcing them to move on. She had never met one, and had only read descriptions of them in the Tulloch library, but where Overseers were compassionate and gentle, it was nothing but business with their hunting counterparts. According to the sparse legends there weren’t as many Catchers as Overseers, but no one knew how many existed at one time. Their sole purpose was to capture the souls of mortals who had refused to go with the Overseer. Iona was talking to one of those very souls, marked for hunting, following David Morby around when he had a price on his own head.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he huffed.

“If ye lie I can’t help ye.”

“How do you know about it?”

“It’s my business to know,” was all she said in reply.

“Yeah, there was a woman who was there when I woke up like this. She said I could go with her and move on or I could stay here. How could I leave when Dave got away with everything? Who would make him pay when only he and I knew what’d happened?”

Perhaps when the time came it was harder to move on than Iona presumed, or perhaps it was because she knew what the alternative was. Lost souls, also known as missing souls, were finite beings, just like mortals. Nothing was supposed to last forever, and souls weren’t made to. Just like the ancient buildings around the world they would decay over time, creating grotesque problems that had to be dealt with swiftly before they caused harm to the still living. Craig Smith knew why he was following his former best friend around now, but there would come a time when he wouldn’t. His memories, his personality, and everything he was before he died would erode until there was nothing left but a monster bent on revenge on anyone they found.

“Did she tell ye what would happen if ye didn’t go with her?” Iona queried.

Craig blanched at her words and for a moment she thought she was going to bolt. His whole body tensed in fear and for a breath of a moment she swore she could have glimpsed his realisation that his time was up.

“You’re one of them, aren’t you? That’s why you know so much.”

“Them?” she questioned.

“I can’t remember what she called them, collectors, apprehenders, I don’t know! The ones who take souls who don’t move on.”

“I don’t know what she called them, but I know them as Catchers. Ye don’t need to worry, I’m not one of them. I’m simply here to help you. If ye chose to move on of your own accord then the woman ye met will return.”

“I don’t know what’s so scary about those Catcher guys. I’m already dead, what can they do?”

“Make the rest of your existence unbearable, until they inevitably force ye to move on, and even I don’t know what happens after that. Souls aren’t meant to remain indefinitely, and only misery awaits the ones who cling on.”

She had never tried to persuade a ghost to move on before, it was a responsibility that, until recently, had been up to her grandparents and uncle. There hadn’t been a report of a ghost in the local area for a number of years, and so she had no experience of helping the spirits of the dead. Could they be reasoned with, or was this a matter that Tullochs could only do so much before the Catchers stepped in? Voluntary choices were always preferred, but if Craig Smith didn’t heed her, or the Overseer’s, warnings then the only path left open to him was with the Catchers.

“I don’t care,” he retorted stubbornly, “I’m not leaving until I have justice.”

“Events, and consequences, have a way of sorting themselves out. There are laws to the world, a balance that must be upheld. No action can happen without a consequence, it’s how it works. Mr Morby will get what he deserves, but that has nothing to do with whether ye remain here. It’s not for mortals to decide people’s punishments,” she informed.

“I’ve been dead for a year and nothing’s happened to him, none of these consequences you’re talking about have come about.”

“It’s not always immediate,” she reasoned, “Nature has a timetable that the rest of us can’t see.”

Craig shook his head, “That’s not good enough. I want him to suffer as I did, to feel as afraid and betrayed as I did.”

“Do ye think haunting him and preventing him from sleeping will get you those things? All you’re doing is making him confused and tired. The only person you’re hurting is yourself.”

“Shut up!” he cried as he stood up, “You may know a lot, but you don’t understand anything!”

She was experienced enough with mortals to know when she’d said too much. Emotional people could rarely be reasoned with, and anything that was said to them was either ignored or twisted to fit their reality. Although she was trying to help, there was another solution to her customer’s problem. Before she could say anything more Craig disappeared from sight. She was in no doubt that there was a Catcher who had Craig’s name in their minds, and finding him was inevitable. At the end of the day it was David Morby who was her customer, the ghost was simply the reason behind his visit. Iona could call a Catcher, tell them where Craig was, but something inside her recoiled at the idea, it felt like loading a canon and aiming it at a nursery. A sleeping draught capable of drowning out the guilt, and whispers of the dead, wasn’t beyond her capabilities, but it wasn’t a long-term solution. Only the world knew when Craig’s Catcher would catch up, but she needed time to think about her next steps.

***

After a few hours of snatched sleep, she awoke in the morning groggy from her early morning excursion to the part of the city where the gangs reigned supreme. It took her a while to shake loose the heavy feeling the body takes on when it’s been deprived of slumber, and well into the morning there were still times when she found herself swaying gently. The day came and went in a string of expectedly mundane queries and purchases, and by the time she had salvaged enough energy together it was already time for the shop to close. She hadn’t found the answers she had been hoping to, and still felt uneasy whenever she thought about her customer and his ghostly companion. One possibility was to summon the Overseer who had visited him in the hopes they could reason with him once more. The other possibility was to call a Catcher and inform them of where he was so they could complete their job. The final, nauseating, solution was to use her magic and destroy his soul. Despite all of the rules against harming mortals, when it came to ghosts who refused to move on the laws were suspiciously relaxed. Their main responsibility was to the living, not the dead. Iona had never known of a witch to ever have to resort to casting such a spell, and she swore she wouldn’t be the one to do it. Summoning a Catcher was better than that.

In the end nothing came of her worrying, as it always does, and the last person she had ever expected to help arrived at the shop an hour after she had bolted the door. She felt the presence before she saw it, as was normally the case, and when she turned around she saw Craig Smith standing underneath the archway that separated the two rooms of the shop. He looked sheepish, his gaze stuck to the floor instead of her.

“I thought about what you said,” he mumbled.

“What have ye decided to do?”

“I’ll go with that woman, not those Catcher guys. It’s not too late, is it?”

Iona shook her head, “It would only be too late if you’d lost yourself, which ye haven’t. May I ask what changed your mind?”

He hesitated, unsure of what to tell her. Iona certainly had a reason she hoped was the truth, but one could never truly tell what caused a ghost’s mind to change.

“I realised you were right,” he shrugged casually, “He’s not suffering any more than he did before. The only thing I was able to do was disturb his sleep, I didn’t make him feel guilty about what he did to me, I didn’t see him repent or try to make amends. He doesn’t even know I’m here. I figure since you know a lot you must be right about consequences. I choose to believe that he’ll get his comeuppance sooner or later, and I realise that doesn’t have anything to do with whether I stay or go.”

Iona was relieved to hear that some of her arguments had managed to penetrate the vengeful exterior. Thankfully he hadn’t been too far along in the decaying process that he was beyond reason.

“How do I call her?” he asked.

“All ye need to say is that ye want to move on and she’ll appear.”

“Is that it?”

“It’s not meant to be complicated,” Iona reassured.

Craig Smith took a deep breath, garnering all the courage that death had left him, and said the words that would summon his Overseer. There were a few tense moments of silence, and she knew Craig would worry that it hadn’t worked. A ripple in the atmosphere of the shop indicated to Iona that a supernatural being had passed through the boundary. The protection that enveloped the shop, forbidding anything but mortals and Tullochs from entering, could not keep out Death and her Overseers. One stood beside the glass cabinet filled with trinkets, jewellery, and stones, a facial expression of calm serenity. The truth was that no one really knew what Overseers were, who created them, or where they had come from. Some theories stated that they were mortal souls who had been picked to fulfil the task, others stated they were supernatural beings like witches or ghosts, something that had always existed. Tullochs and others like them may be permitted to see them, to summon them, but that was the extent to which they were welcomed. What came after a mortal soul moved on, where they had come from or what they received their orders from, remained a mystery to the old magic clans.

She was relatively young, possibly the same age as Craig Smith would always be in his afterlife. Tall and slender, she would have been beautiful if it wasn’t for something jarring in her presence, a sense or feeling that coated her every move and look with surrealism. Iona had never seen an Overseer in the metaphorical flesh, and they were somehow exactly as her ancestors had painted them. They had an airy feel to them, an intangible quality that caused them to blur the line between marionette and mortal. The woman standing in the shop was flawless, there was no mark, blemish or otherwise anywhere on her translucent skin. She had round doe eyes, with long eyelashes that would give any China doll a run for their money. However, a chill swirled around the room like a bad draught in winter, and although her looks were enrapturing, her presence made the room uncomfortable, as if she shouldn’t be there.

“You’re ready to move on?” she addressed Craig Smith directly.

He swallowed hard, “I am.”

The creature turned to Iona and inclined her head politely, “Thank you, Tulloch witch, for your aid.”

Any reply Iona would usually have offered died in her throat, and she simply nodded absently. Although the presence was quiet, Iona disliked the way it seemed to lull her into a sense of relaxation, dulling the fight or flight reaction that kept her alive. She felt she was in danger of not caring about any of her worldly worries and simply being carried off with the Overseer. The sooner she took Craig Smith the better.

“I need to tell you something before I go,” Craig spoke to her.

“About what?”

“I did more than just follow Dave around,” he admitted, “I met some of the other ghosts in this city and they spoke of something coming, someone with great power. I didn’t realise what they meant, but now I think I get it.”

“I don’t understand what ye mean,” she confessed.

“You’re Iona Tulloch, aren’t you? The reason you know so much is because you’re a witch. The other ghosts know you, and they seemed to think that the great power they could feel was coming after you.”

Iona felt uncomfortable sharing a room with an Overseer, but she would take hours of its company over the truth she’d been handed by a ghost. It wasn’t as if she should be surprised, she had suspected it all along, but to have it confirmed by an outsider, by someone who was unconnected, sent fear striking straight through her like the one o’clock gun at Edinburgh Castle. Why was she their target, why were they coming after her? Iona had made many mistakes in her life, but as far as she was aware she hadn’t made any enemies until coming to the city, and she knew them. Contrary to her beliefs, there was someone out there, a powerful someone, who had her in their sights, and although Iona didn’t want to admit it, the thought frightened her.

Before she could collect herself enough to ask more questions, the shop was empty. The Overseer had taken their soul, and Craig Smith was nothing more than a memory and an unsolved police file. The shop was empty, a place that was more of a fortress than anything else, but Iona, in that moment, felt that it wouldn’t be enough to protect her from what the entire world knew was coming.

***

It didn’t take long for the gauntlet to be thrown out of the shadows to land at her feet. In the days since Craig Smith’s departure to whatever lay beyond, Iona had been fearful of every whisper and the complaints of every customer. Were they all connected somehow? Had her entire time in the city simply been following the will of someone else? She thought about sharing her fears with her grandparents, but decided against it. There was no point since, like Craig Smith, there was nothing tangible to show them, no evidence, no name to give, no reason to cite for the enmity and interference. The figure in the shadows may as well be a ghost because no one had ever seen them, or at least was willing to admit they had. Iona was left fearfully battling every shadow and unrecognisable face, and there was nothing she could do to change it.

One quiet day, one that had started as any other might, everything unravelled. The shop wasn’t full but there were enough customers for what happened next to be dangerous. A man crossed the threshold unhindered because why would he be? He was mortal, and he had been in before. One limitation of the shop’s protection was that it only discerned by species, not mental state. Iona had just finished serving one customer when a familiar one walked up to the counter.

“It’s good to see ye looking better, Mr Morby. Do ye still need the herbal remedy?” she queried politely.

The small box of herbs underneath the counter were full of vitamins and other harmless things. She knew he wouldn’t be needing anything to get him to sleep since the reason behind his insomnia had gone with the Overseer. Rather than tell him the truth she had made up a placebo, something that she did more often than she would have liked in the hypochondriac city.

“You’ve been wanting to meet me for some time, haven’t you, Iona?” David Morby intoned.

As Iona looked closer she realised that it wasn’t the customer she was speaking to. There was a glazed quality to his eyes as he stared behind her at the wall. It was different from the time Harold Morrison had sent in a mortal to send a message because this one was magic in origin rather than fear. The mysterious figure had taken a mortal’s will away from them and had turned them into a flesh puppet. It was one of the witching sins, and Iona began to understand that her adversary either didn’t know, or didn’t care.

“It appears I’ll have to wait a while longer,” she retorted darkly.

“I’ve been eager to meet you in person as well, and the time has come to do just that. Meet me at the abandoned psychiatric hospital, the one they nicknamed the Scottish Bedlam.”

“What makes ye think I’ll come?”

David Morby began to chuckle, but the sound didn’t belong to him, it was forced and unnatural.

“We may not have met, but we know a little about each other by now. I know you’ll come.”

Iona gritted her teeth in frustration. It was hard to remember that Mr Morby was simply a puppet and not the person she truly wanted to hit.

“I’ll see you then,” David Morby said before taking a few steps back from the counter and pulling a gun out of his jacket pocket.

Her heart nearly jumped out of her throat as she locked eyes with David Morby, being unable to see any semblance of the man trapped inside. Some of the more astute customers began to scream and scramble for the door. Mr Morby didn’t prevent any of them. It wasn’t long before they were alone in the shop.

“Good job with that ghost, what was his name, Craig Smith? If I’d been in your position I would have just left him to his revenge, especially after what this one’s done. There isn’t anything more disgusting than a mortal who betrays his best friend.”

Iona remained silently tense, unsure as to where the exchange was going. What was the purpose of the gun? What did they intend to do with it? With only David Morby and Iona in the shop, the options were limited.

“You may not have been able to give Craig his vengeance, but I can,” David Morby said in someone else’s voice before he put the gun to his head.

In the confined space of the shop the sound of the gun firing rattled everything from her toes to her teeth. It had happened so quickly, and her senses weren’t fast enough to keep up, that by the time the trigger was pulled there had been nothing she could do to prevent it. The question would always remain, however many times she relived the moment. Was there anything she could have done? Couldn’t she have predicted that the gun was to use on himself? The thoughts were lost, for thinking them wouldn’t resurrect David Morby. He was gone, shortly after the friend he had betrayed, and, with some bitterness, Iona knew that justice had been served.

**

There were some places she thought she would never be, situations she assumed she would never experience. She made her way through the empty corridors, past abandoned stretchers and chipping paint. Everything around her was tinged a curdling shade of green, from the cracked lino on the floor to the industrial paint that covered the walls. The history was palpable as it called down to her through the generations of decay and abandonment. Lives unfulfilled and unlived, emotions that were hard to control, and lost hopes that would never return. The feelings remained where the people did not, and she continued to shield herself against the aura as she made her way through the old psychiatric hospital.

There must be some significance to the location, a connection with who they were or where they came from. It was impossible to deny the sense of curiosity and mystery that had surrounded the shadow across the city, one that made even Iona’s formidable grandmother uneasy. They were powerful, and although her curiosity was a strong luring point, it hadn’t managed to eclipse the sense of fear that threatened to overwhelm her and cause her steps to falter. For months she had wondered about them, who they were, why they were in the city, and how they came to have all of the artefacts they had sold. Her grandparent’s suspicions were still fresh in her mind. It may not be a stranger waiting for her at the end of her journey, but a distant ancestor who had broken one of the cardinal rules. He wanted vengeance on the family for what they had done, and perhaps he would take out his vendetta on her.

She came to the end of the corridor before her trepidation could skitter out of her control. Her hand hesitated as it grasped gingerly onto the cold, lacklustre metal handle. What was on the other side of the door? Would she regret pulling it open and going inside? Would she be able to come back out? Her breathing quieted and she listened to the imposing silence that stood around her. The entire building had an eerie presence, as if haunted by the ghosts of many lives past, and she feared she would be added to their number. As a Tulloch, she had a duty to go inside, to confront the mysterious force that had been lingering in the shadows for months, interfering with the balance of nature, but as a person she was afraid, and she let herself freely admit so. There were times in the city when she had felt alone, isolated, and friendless, yet none of that matched how she felt in the moment before she pulled open the door. If anything were to happen to her no one would ever know, if she were to die in the old hospital no one would ever find her, including her family. However, one could never separate the Tulloch from the person, they were one and the same, and neither existed without the other. She may not be as good a Tulloch as her uncle, but she prided herself on the fact that she wasn’t as careless as Duncan. She had a duty, and if she were going to be remembered for anything, she wanted to be remembered as brave enough to face whatever was waiting on the other side of the door.

Inhaling one final time, she put all of her strength into her arm and pulled the door open. Slowly she crossed the threshold into a large ward that had been stripped back to its skeleton. The paint had come completely off the walls to show the raw plaster beneath, the floors were bare concrete, and the beds and anything that once covered the windows were long since gone. It was a wide, cavernous, and chilly place that had her hair standing up on her arms beneath her jacket. There was a large hole in the roof where some of the daylight escaped through, and standing just underneath the hole, in the ray of light, was a stranger. Her heart leaped and, feigning more confidence than she would ever feel, she began to make her way down the empty ward. A woman was waiting for her at the end, invoking a sickening sense of familiarity that would have made her snigger at her own stupidity if the situation hadn’t been such a tense one. 

There was an auld wives’ tale amongst witches that time slows down when you first meet someone that you’re fated to. It was very rare that you only met them once, and usually, at some random point that is easy to forget, you’ll have met them before. The memory was an obscure one but very recent. It was in the home where Aunt Isobel was kept. She and her uncle had gone to visit a few days before he had returned to the family estate. The volunteers who came to visit had just finished for the day and were starting to file out of the door. Iona had brushed past many but there had been one in particular that had been unusual. A sense, like a scent of strong perfume, had invaded her as she had brushed shoulders with the woman before her in the most poignant place she could imagine. There had been a moment back then, a brief blink of something significant, strong enough to make her turn around and look. At the time she had shrugged it off as mundane, but now she was beginning to realise that it hadn’t been.

Iona came to a stop more than a few paces in front of the woman. She was young, with hair as golden as freshly reaped wheat, twinkling with platinum and champagne strands, whilst her eyes sparkled like grass frozen by the first winter frost on a clear day. They were sharp, observing, and indicated a keen mind hidden behind them. Iona would have put them at roughly the same age, but the woman before her held herself with more poise and grace that surpassed her probable age. For the past few months she had known that whoever the mysterious force was, they were far more powerful and educated than she was. It was evident by the way the young woman’s ash coloured markings began to coil around her collar bone. Iona’s had only just reached her shoulder. Her power tainted the air, like someone brushing past with too much perfume on, and Iona could taste it on the tip of her tongue. It was metallic and bitter, much like a drop of blood. In that moment she no longer entertained the thought that she could be triumphant if their exchange came down to it.

“We’ve met before,” Iona concluded.

“We have, in a very sad and lonely place,” the woman acknowledged, “I didn’t think you’d remember.”

The concept of fate had been one of debate for as long as there had been witching clans and the ability of mortals to wield magic. Even more debated was that of fated people. They were beings that featured in the map of life, some theorised that there was no way you could avoid meeting them. Iona hadn’t really believed in it until she had met with the woman in front of her. If one could see a string of fate, she was sure they were attached by it.

“Who are ye?” Iona questioned.

The young woman sighed, “That’s a very long story. I hope you have time to hear it.”

There was a light rattling of chains from the corner of the room, shrouded in dust and darkness, a place where the light did not reach. Briefly her eyes flickered over to the place, expecting to see something, but saw nothing.

“I had a family quite a long time ago, so long that I can’t remember them very well. I was told my name by my guardian. They told me that I was deprived of my family by some very bad people.”

Iona remained silent, wondering briefly where the story was going. The young woman appeared calm, but the longer she spent in her presence the more she realised there was a storm behind it.

“Those bad people got away with destroying my family, but they’d spared me. If someone harmed your family wouldn’t you want revenge?” she put to Iona.

She knew the right answer, and she knew the reality. It was very hard to let go of hatred, and even harder to let go of a sense of entitlement that everyone should get justice for the wrongs that were done to them.

“I’d certainly want to see them pay,” Iona acknowledged.

Another light metallic rattle from the corner captured her attention once again, but was ripped away just as quickly by the young woman continuing with her story.

“Exactly,” she nodded determinedly, “You see, my name is Eilidh Harcus, and I’m the last member of my Clan left alive after your family massacred them.”

The blood froze, no longer pumping through her veins. The tips of her fingers began to go cold, and her breaths were nothing but ragged snatches of polluted air. There had been stories, legends in her family, of Clan massacres and purges, but they were centuries old, and none had been conducted in the last five decades, at least to her knowledge. However, her uncle’s visit had illuminated many things she would rather have not known, and one of them was that her family kept secrets from its members. Iona had never heard of Clan Harcus, not in any dictionary of witching families or lists of retrieved relics, there had never been anything with their name on it.

“You should be scared,” Eilidh spat spitefully, “Your family never finished the job properly, and I’m here to make sure they regret their actions.”

“I…I’ve never heard of Clan Harcus,” Iona croaked.

Eilidh’s eyes widened in a wrathful rage, “What do you mean you’ve never heard of us? It’s your clan’s fault that they no longer exist, or do you mean to say they’ve tried to erase that we ever existed in the first place?”

There had to be a misunderstanding, misinformation spread along the wrong pipeline until it had found its way to Eilidh. There were no clan massacres anymore, they were frowned upon and drew unnecessary attention to the witching community. Most of the witching clans had died out, only a few were left at best, but for one to be intentionally snubbed out was something else entirely. Iona remained in stunned silence, which only fuelled Eilidh’s outrage.

“What a sheltered life you’ve led,” she scoffed, “I wish I’d been lucky enough to have my grandparents shield me from all of this world’s evils.”

“Why would they do that?” Iona breathed.

“Because they’re greedy!” Eilidh snapped, “They wanted all of my family’s relics and were jealous that clan Harcus was becoming more powerful than Clan Tulloch, so they wiped them all out. All Tullochs are greedy, power grabbing murderers, and I won’t rest until I’ve reaped my vengeance.”

The air in the abandoned ward was becoming stuffy, threatening to suffocate her. The light from outside dimmed as it came down through the hole in the ceiling. The pipes, electrical wires, and wall insulation were all bare to the elements, like a fresh wound just opened by a sharp knife.

“But you don’t need to worry, what happened to my family had nothing to do with you. My argument is with your grandparents,” Eilidh Harcus confirmed, calming from her previous passion.

The revulsion Iona felt in that moment, if what Eilidh was saying was true, left her reeling. Her grandparents were many things; dominant, arrogant, quick to temper, but they weren’t cruel or genocidal. Her confidence soon began to wane until she was questioning everything she ever thought she knew about her family. Was this their legacy, the one that was so important to upkeep? A trail of blood that accompanied each generation, and grew until the Tullochs would be the only clan left?

“I know you must be shocked by all of this,” Eilidh cooed, “It can’t be easy seeing your family’s true colours for the first time. But it’s not like you haven’t experienced their narrow-mindedness yourself.”

Iona stared, bewildered, at Eilidh Harcus, wondering what kind of revelation she was going to break next.

“They’ve made you a slave to the family, and to your duty as heir apparent. They put their own daughter in a home when she became ill, and they’ve condemned their grandson to a hospital bed for the rest of his life because he rebelled against them.”

 How did she know? How could she have known all of those things? A fresh wave of nausea soaked through Iona’s veins, racing through her body to make the world around her spin. She had greatly underestimated the enemy before her, the one who lingered in the shadows and pulled everyone’s strings as she wished.

“And they banished you down here to be surrounded by enemies that their orders made you create. Even you’re afraid of what they’re capable of,” Eilidh pointed out, “You sent Duncan’s fiancé and his unborn child away so they wouldn’t be found out, and you’ve hidden your relationship with Leif Morrison because you know they’ll disapprove.”

Another rattle in the corner jolted her from her shock, and when she saw a ripple in the air, a break in the mirage of the corner of the ward, her heart pounded faster in her chest.

“Who is that?” she demanded.

Begrudgingly Eilidh glanced over to the corner with narrowed eyes, laden with disapproving. Slowly, she took a deep inhale and then sighed, exasperated.

“I was going to wait, but he just won’t keep quiet.”

With a wave of her hand the air in the corner rippled, and out of the waves appeared Leif Morrison, shackled in irons and attached to the wall. He was desperately struggling against his bonds, but Iona could sense they were enchanted to incarcerate an immortal. His mouth wriggled and moved but wouldn’t open, another petty spell to hold his silence.

“What have ye done?” Iona baulked, “Why is he here?”

“Before you accuse me of anything, he isn’t hurt. I simply want him here as insurance.”

“Of what?” Iona growled.

“Of your help in destroying your grandparents.”

Any rough rebuke died in her throat. The air was banished from her lungs, and she felt her whole body sag in disappointment. Eilidh Harcus had never come after her because she was useful, she was only still standing because the argument was with her grandparents and not her. How had everything become so poisonous?  The fabric of her life had started to crumble the moment she had stepped foot on the platform of the train station all those months ago, and it had all culminated in this moment.

“I…I,” she stuttered.

Eilidh held up her hand, motioning for silence, “Before you say anything, there’s probably something you should know. I’ve been watching you for a long time, I know everything you’ve done since arriving in this city. Your aunt’s regular visitor was me, and the one who sent Claire to you in the first place was also me. I saw where you sent them and have been keeping an eye on them. If you help me your aunt will live the rest of her life in peace, Claire and her child will continue living the mundane mortal life you arranged, Duncan will be released to join them and to see his child grow up, and you can start your relationship with Leif Morrison with nothing to worry about. That’s all you want, isn’t it? Your grandparents only want misery for their family, but you’re different, and if you help me then you can help all of them and yourself.”

It was easy to believe tempting words, to disregard the facts and replace them with convenient untruths. It would be even easier to trace all of their misfortune back to the misjudgements and mistakes of her grandparents. They had chosen to send Iona to Isobel all of those years ago, they had chosen to punish Duncan, and they had chosen to send the heir of the clan to a city in the midst of war. Every bad thing that had happened in her life could selfishly lead back to them.

Yet, on a similar thread, it couldn’t. 

They had made their choices, but everyone else had made their own. Iona had chosen to feed Isobel the forgetting potion; Duncan had chosen to start a relationship with a mortal and to sell family relics to support his future family. No one had forced either of them to do anything. The shop had never been a punishment, or a banishment, but a lesson, one that was intended to help her grow into the person, the witch, that the clan needed their leader to be. Whether or not Eilidh’s claims about clan Tulloch were true remained to be seen.

“What do ye need from me?” Iona queried hoarsely.

“All I want is for you to return the red beryl. That’s all I need and it’ll all be over. Everyone can move on happily with their lives without the clouds hiding the sun.”

The red beryl Iona had confiscated from a foolish teenager sat somewhere in the family archive at the shop, recorded for posterity and left to gather dust. The memory invoked the same sense of outrage she had felt at being enslaved to a moody, hormonal teenager. Eilidh Harcus had been the organiser of the humiliation, and in her confusion Iona had forgotten that. Her grandparents had faults, and at times their methods were harsh, bordering on cruel, but Eilidh Harcus was not as high and mighty as she seemed to think.

“That’s it?” Iona checked.

She saw the look in Leif’s gaze, the begging expression that adorned his face. It took most of her strength not to release him from his bonds and send Eilidh straight to hell. If she could have managed it without getting herself killed in the process she wouldn’t have thought twice. 

Eilidh nodded, “That’s all I need. Then you can step out of the way as I free your family from their dictators.”

“I can get it to you by tomorrow,” Iona intoned.

“Good, good. I’m glad we can be allies in this.”

The chains rattled violently and Iona allowed herself a glance at Leif who stood unsteadily, shaking his head from side to side. She wished she could tell him all would be well, that he would be released tomorrow, and that after that things would change. There were many things she realised she hadn’t said to him before, but it was too late for that now. After giving him a small smile, she turned around and walked out of the psychiatric hospital as bravely as he could.

***

Iona didn’t sleep that night. Instead she sat in the family archive, immune to its previous repellent power, looking through as many histories, diaries, and loose pages in search of the name Harcus. A part of her knew it was futile. If what Eilidh had told her was true, then there would be no evidence in her family’s archies that the clan ever existed. They had been very thorough if it were true. The red beryl sat on a shelf, surrounded by a thin layer of dust and regret, waiting to be picked up and delivered into another’s hands. It had been a symbol of her unwanted servitude, a situation that Eilidh Harcus had thrust her into for some unknown reason. There were still many secrets and unanswered questions surrounding the apparent heir of an unknown, forgotten, witching clan, but one thing was certain; she wanted revenge on Iona’s grandparents for what she had been told they’d done. Although Iona wanted to repel the facts, she didn’t find it hard believing that her grandparents were capable of such violence. They were always meticulous in their punishments. If they had dealt so finally with their own blood, then what qualms would they have when handling another clan?

She snapped the seventh history shut and threw it on the floor in disgust. Quickly she dug her fingers into the corners of her eyes, rubbing them until she could see blotches in her vision. 

Eilidh had Leif. She had him chained up in that horrible place full of sorrow and misery, regret and abandonment, and there had been nothing Iona could do. Eilidh knew the location of Claire and her child, she had been a regular visitor of Isobel, and her knowledge about Duncan had been hard to swallow. Eilidh Harcus was aware of where every branch of the Tulloch family tree had sprung to, and that gave her all the leverage she would need. Iona wasn’t under the illusion that if she hadn’t decided to willingly help the last Harcus witch would have used threats to get the red beryl back. Iona loathed feeling too helpless to protect the people she cared about. How could someone like her be the heir to the Tulloch line? In that moment she felt she was lacking in every way possible. She wished that there was anyone else who would take the burden of being heir from her, anyone in the world who could take away her fear that she would lose everything that had ever mattered, and things she had thought didn’t.

If she wasn’t a Tulloch, if she were just a mortal, what would her life have been like? What would have happened to her if she’d rejected her father’s family and gone to live with her mother in her banishment? Would her life have been easier? Would she have less regrets and fears than she did now? It had been many years since Iona had wanted to see her mother but now she felt the pull stronger than ever. What would her father, the rightful heir, do now? He had been a calm, collected man, but he was prodigiously talented, and she could remember observing his family markings all the way over his shoulders and further. He should be here, not her. He should still be alive to inherit the clan, to give her more time to mature, to give her guidance when she needed it. Iona wanted a Tulloch, a better one than her.

But Clan Tulloch only had her. Thousands of years of heritage, history, and power, and it all rested on her shoulders. If she were to die now then her uncle would become heir, and Duncan would have to be woken up. If she died she wouldn’t have to worry about consequences, or rules, or laws, or family secrets. However, Clan Tulloch had lost enough family members in the last twenty years, and although her grandparents were at times cold-hearted, she knew how disappointed they would be if they lost yet another heir. As much as she despised her name, loathed the family ties and rules, and hated the secrets that were kept, she was a Tulloch, and she knew that meant something. Iona wasn’t going to be remembered for running, for shutting herself away in the archive to avoid the enemy, or for bowing down from a fight. She wouldn’t disappoint her father’s expectations or the rest of her ancestor’s.

Before she could decide to go to bed daylight began to cast itself across the night sky like the brightest dye. The shop would remain closed and Iona would get her belongings in order, leaving everything in the same way that she found it in case she couldn’t return. At first she had been repulsed by the idea of the shop, and held a grudge that she had been made to remain in the city tending to it, but now she realised that the shop wasn’t a punishment for Tullochs who strayed from the family path, or for spare family members with nothing to do, but a tool for learning, something that improved whoever stayed there. Iona had learned many things during her brief tenure, and made her peace, to a certain extent, with the past and the mistakes she made. She had made friends, killed enemies, and helped ordinary mortals, and although she couldn’t admit to enjoying every minute, she also couldn’t remember feeling so at peace. Despite all the bad, she wouldn’t turn the clock back and change anything.

Midday came and went by silently, and the short hand soon approached the hour of judgement. Iona carefully wrapped the stone in a small handkerchief, and enclosed it in a protective box. The lid closed with a resounding snap and taking a few breaths to calm her racing heart, she left the shop, and heard the door lock finally behind her. She didn’t allow herself to look back reminiscently, afraid that doing so would cause her to hesitate in moving forward.

Once more she entered the abandoned psychiatric hospital and felt the silent screams and wails fill the air as she passed ward after ward. The atmosphere was thick, exacerbated by her trepidation at going to meet Eilidh Harcus. The box containing the stone weighed more than it should, laden with her guilt and growing doubts. The double doors to the ward where Eilidh had Leif had been flung open, and at the end, standing triumphantly at the bottom, was the last surviving member of Clan Harcus.

Iona knew if her steps faltered now then all would be lost. With as much confidence and arrogance as she could manage, taken from her lifetime of experience, she marched down the empty, skeletal ward to stand in front of Eilidh Harcus. She appeared exuberant, as if she could almost grasp her enemies’ defeat. Iona allowed herself a quick glance to check if Leif was injured. He remained chained to the wall, his mouth forbidden from opening to form words. He began to shake his head, eyes bulging in pleading, but she ignored it.

“I have what ye asked for,” Iona confirmed, motioning to the box held in her hands, “but there are a few questions I want answers to before I hand it over.”

Eilidh deflated when she realised she would have to wait for the red beryl. Begrudgingly she shrugged her shoulders and nodded for Iona to continue.

“Why did ye interfere in the war between the spiritualists and immortals? What did ye gain from it?”

“It wasn’t money, like Duncan,” she pointed out slyly, “but power. Every time I helped cast one of those spells my power grew. There’s only so much growth you can accomplish on your own, as you know.”

Iona had to hide the irritated frown that threatened to bloom on her features. Eilidh had carelessly interfered in mortal’s lives because of her selfish desire for more power, and hadn’t faced any of the consequences that usually came with such a decision. Not being raised by a witching clan had made her careless of the rules their community lived by. If a Tulloch was to do what she had done then the punishment would be severe, other clans would demand it. Although Eilidh may be more powerful than Iona, her knowledge of their way of life was somewhat lacking.

“What about the Leslie pendant ye gave to Harold Morrison? Ye told him it was a Tulloch family relic.”

“I wanted to test you,” she freely admitted, “I assumed you’d be as greedy as your grandparents, so would agree to his ridiculous request to turn one of his friends into an immortal. I acknowledge my mistake. That was when I knew we could be useful to one another.”

Was that why she had given an enslavement spell to a teenager with the sole purpose to use on her? Despite her best attempts at sweetness and amiability Iona was beginning to see through the calm façade. There had never, or would ever, be camaraderie between them. Iona was not an ally, she was a means to an end, one that was easily removed if necessary.

“And Blair Cox?” Iona continued.

“You challenged me, remember? I was simply showing you the reply.”

Or putting me in my place, Iona thought darkly.

Having a mortal tether her to their every whim was something that would hurt any witch’s pride, especially Iona’s, and Eilidh would have known that. What if it wasn’t a mere reply, but another trap? Iona had nearly killed the young lad, and if Leif hadn’t stopped her she would have committed another sin. What if Eilidh was lying about her intentions with clan Tulloch? What if it wasn’t just her grandparents but all of her family she wanted to destroy in retribution? Did she see Iona as so weak that there was no need for direct confrontation, but to instead use her own flaws as her downfall? Things began to fall sickeningly into perspective. Iona may not have been able to shield her grandparents from harm, but she was the last thing standing in the way of the rest of her incapacitated and helpless relatives and their deaths. Duncan, Claire, their child, and Isobel; indirectly Iona had become their guardian, and if she were to fall then there was no one left to protect them. The added benefit of having her commit a crime was that the Tulloch family would be shamed and lose the respect they had in the community. Eilidh’s revenge was well thought out and decisive. There was no mercy to be found. What qualms Iona had about their meeting slowly melted away.

“What do ye intend to do with my grandparents?”

“That’s for me to know, and you to sit back and let happen,” Eilidh warned icily, “Now give me the beryl and I’ll be on my way.”

Iona slowly closed the gap between them and handed over the box, quickly stepping out of reach once the enchanted wood left her hands. The moments trickled painfully by, each second felt like hours. Every emotion washed across Eilidh’s face from menace to smugness, and Iona quietly watched them all as her family’s enemy opened the box and reverently took out the stone wrapped in a handkerchief. With slender fingers she opened the corners of the white cotton until the red beryl was exposed to the thick air inside the ward. The red reflected in Eilidh’s awed eyes, and the smallest smile of triumph danced across her lips. Slowly she picked it out of the handkerchief and rotated it slickly in her hands.

The scream was piercing.

Iona staggered back with shock, nearly stumbling to the ground. The icy pain that reverberated from the bare plaster walls was blood curdling, and she watched as Eilidh Harcus tried to drop the stone but was unable, like a limpet to a rock. The markings on her collarbone began to recoil like injured snakes until they disappeared altogether. The core of the red stone rippled and glowed as if it was made of mercury, crashing against its sides violently in excitement. The moment stretched into eternity, and it was one Iona knew she would never forget until her dying breath. 

When the stone had finished doing its work it was allowed to drop to the floor, returning to the solid red colour it had been before. Eilidh grasped the hand that had held the stone with sheer panic. Frantically she pulled up her sleeves and gazed upon her bare arms.

“W…what have you done?” she screamed.

“What was necessary,” Iona bit coldly.

“This is a crime, punishable by death. I’ll tell the community about what you’ve done,” she threatened.

“If you’re willing to pay for your crimes then so am I,” Iona challenged, “Ye gave away powerful relics and spells to people outside of the community, harmed mortals with your selfish plans, and created an imbalance in nature. I prevented ye from doing any further damage, but I’ll gladly accept my punishment if ye accept yours.”

Eilidh screamed in frustration until it echoed around the empty cavern, resonating with the pain and confusion that once dwelt there. Iona felt like slumping with exhaustion onto the floor but kept her head held high. Duncan may have begun his work on the forbidden stone, but Iona had finished it. Upon completion she had remarked on the red colour when before it had been two-toned. With a quick enchantment at the shop both the forbidden stone and the red beryl looked similar, enough to fool an eye buoyed by hubris. It was a crime to take away another witch’s powers without sanction, but Iona didn’t care. She couldn’t stand by and watch as the people who had raised her perished, especially when she had a chance to stop it. On her own Iona wasn’t as powerful as Eilidh, and she knew she stood no chance of winning against her, but as an ordinary mortal without powers she was manageable. They may have been differing in skill level, but Duncan had given Iona the ultimate weapon.

“Give them back!” Eilidh screeched hysterically.

“I can’t,” Iona admitted, “Once taken they can’t be returned. Did ye truly think I’d stand back and let you murder my grandparents, and no doubt the rest of my family? Your lies were sweet, and certainly persuasive. If ye hadn’t been spiteful enough to have that teenager enslave me I may have believed ye. My grandparents do a lot of things, but one thing I know is that they don’t do things without a reason. Whatever the story behind your clan, there has to be an explanation that ye don’t know.”

“You’re a fool!”

“Certainly, but I’m a loyal one. Go and live your life, Eilidh, and try to forget about your hatred. You’ll be happier for it. Whatever happened to your family had nothing to do with ye, otherwise ye wouldn’t be here talking to me.”

The murderous look that Eilidh gave Iona would be one strong enough to send chills through her blood if she still had her powers. She found that without them, Eilidh was not as intimidating.

“You’ll regret this,” Eilidh spat as she brushed past Iona and ran out of the ward.

Iona found she couldn’t move until the pert footsteps had faded into silence. The atmosphere was still heavy and it surrounded her like a blizzard in the middle of winter. The forbidden stone lay on the cracked and chipped concrete beneath her feet, close enough she could feel its increased power, but far enough away that she didn’t feel threatened by it. Disbelief ran through her veins, and she knew it would take her some time to realise what she had done.

Instead, she focused on something else. Still undulating precariously in the corner was Leif Morison, the chains that had bound him now disappeared with Eilidh’s powers. He swayed gently on the spot as he looked at her, his usual pristine suit marked with dirt and some blood she was sure was his, tie notably absent, his kempt hair dishevelled and wild. She closed the distance between them, avoiding the stone and its spot on the floor, until she was standing right in front of him. Gently she grasped his collar and pulled his face closer to hers, pressing their lips together.

She admitted that the most tempting thing about Eilidh’s offer had been Leif. Being able to spend time with him without fearing she would be caught seemed bliss to her. He had been there when she had needed him, and their angry exchange during her uncle’s visit had plagued her ever since. She found that the one of the worst things she could lose was him. Considering his current state she was surprised at how responsive he was to her, possibly inappropriately timed, advances and she let herself fall into the kiss. When they pulled apart, she scraped her eyes over his appearance to see if there was any major injury she would need to try and fix. When he began to stagger, she grasped his shoulders and looked into his eyes with concern.

“You’re shivering,” she commented.

He cracked a small smile, “That’s you, love.”

Slowly she looked at the hands that were holding onto him and saw the tremors that shook them. She wasn’t cold but she felt exhausted and afraid. Despite her bravado to Eilidh’s face she was anxious about the consequences of what she’d done. It appeared that her talent of destroying other witches’ lives was growing as she added another notch to her belt.

She felt Leif wrap his arms around her and pull her closer, and she was more than happy to let him do so. It was impossible to tell how long they stood in each other’s arms but to Iona it wasn’t long enough before she began to hear a commotion from outside. Reluctantly she pulled out of his grasp.

“That’s your brother and his men,” she stated grimly, “I informed them of what had happened so they could come and get ye.”

Leif looked stung by her words, as if he had fathomed what she had left out. Iona had anonymously informed Harold where his younger brother was in case she hadn’t lived to save him herself. If she was being honest, she hadn’t been sure that Eilidh would be fooled by her fake red beryl, and if she hadn’t then Iona would be dead.

“I need to go,” she uttered, hearing as the footsteps approached.

Leif reached out for her arm to prevent her from leaving, “You don’t. I can explain what happened.”

Iona wasn’t convinced an explanation would be sufficient to clear her of suspicion, or to negate the enmity between Harold and her. Instead she gently shook her head and removed her arm. Taking a deep breath, she hurried over to the stone and used the handkerchief to pick it up, carefully replacing it back in the warded box. She glanced back at Leif who had found his pleading gaze.

“We’ll talk soon,” she reassured, smiled gently, and left out the maybe.

Coating herself in the same mirage as Eilidh had used to hide Leif she made her way silently out of the door of the ward and managed to avoid Harold Morrison and his men. He appeared to sense someone was there, she could tell by the way his step faltered, but he continued on regardless to retrieve his brother. There would be many explanations, and no doubt untruths, and she hoped that Leif wouldn’t divulge their relationship to his older brother. She had enough to contend with.

**

It had been a long and arduous week, and not for the first time she couldn’t wait until it was over. Iona sat in the back room of the shop, thankful that she had been able to return unscathed from her encounter. The box containing the forbidden stone lay in front of her on the wooden counter, surrounded by sharp knives, chopping boards, and herb manuals. No one but Leif and Eilidh knew what she had done. One would never speak about it, and the other had been warned not to. Regardless of the reason, Iona had committed a sin, broken long revered witching law. What would happen to her now? Was there a way for people to find out without her confessing? The more pressing question was what to do with the stone now? She had finished it only recently and hadn’t decided what would happen if she survived her encounter. If she was ever to be found exposed she would leave Duncan’s name out, there was no point in punishing him further, especially for something he hadn’t actually used. 

Her conversation with Eilidh Harcus had been as illuminating as it was disturbing. Her family were adept at keeping secrets, and she felt that recently she was the living proof, but what did those secrets entail? How severe were they? None in clan Tulloch knew that the last member of another clan had wanted to kill them, and that was how it would remain until Iona found out the truth of the matter, even if she had to pry it out of her grandmother. Things had changed, she could feel it keenly. If the last few months in the city had taught her anything it was that too many bad consequences had been created by breaking the rules, too much pain had been spread because of the iron grip her grandmother had on the rest of the family. She wasn’t perfect, and she wasn’t as upstanding as she’d made herself to be. If Eilidh’s story was true, then she was a murderer.

It was only a brave, or stupid, witch who openly challenged the clan chieftain. They were the most powerful member of the family and they had been selected to carry on the heavy legacy of the Tulloch line. Iona was neither brave nor stupid, so a direct confrontation with the family matriarch was out of the question. No doubt the truth would come out in time, as it often did, but until that day came Iona would keep some secrets of her own. 

The End

Episode 47 – The fulfilled wishes

Scots vocabulary

Bairns – children

Nutter – crazy person

Dobber – idiot/dickhead

Story

We had a full house for a change. Except I was somehow, inexplicably, still alone down in the shop. It’d started with a bet between my two familiars about the most recent item in storage that Fionn had become interested in. I didn’t really catch all of the details, but it ended with the two of them buggering off to storage, telling me to come and find them if they hadn’t come back in a few hours. Chronos, seeing where the conversation had been going, retreated to the peace and quiet of the Madam’s lap.

I began to clean, waiting eagerly for the next customer. When the bell echoed around the cavern, I whipped my eyes gleefully to the door, but felt my face drop slightly when I saw Flora. It must’ve been bad because she joked that I looked disappointed but reassured me that what she had to tell me was just as good as any customer’s tale.

I went to fetch the Madam and Chronos as Flora said she didn’t have time to sit for tea. She starts to tell us that for a few months she’s been tracking a rather strange item. The as yet unidentified object could, reportedly, grant wishes.

I glanced at Chronos. He looked at me, and if cats could narrow their eyes in contempt, he would’ve. It wasn’t long before I heard a “don’t ask ‘is it a lamp’” in my head.

As much as I don’t believe in the story of Aladdin, whichever version you want to use, it had to be based in some kind of reality. Given all of the items in the shop, there had to be more out there unaccounted for. Why wouldn’t one of those grant wishes?

Seems too good to be true. Almost like there’s a catch.

Flora noticed my face contort into scepticism, waiting for the sour grape. She let a smirk dance on her lips and said, yes, it wasn’t as simple as granting wishes. Just like in the darker versions of Aladdin and his lamp, this object did give the wisher what they wanted…technically.

You wished to be married? One drunken elopement to someone you’ve known for a few months and who’s actually been stealing from your bank account since day one; you can’t complain, you’re married, you got what you asked for.

You wished for bairns? You marry someone who has bairns, so you become a step-parent, but find out you’re infertile. You can’t complain, you have bairns, they’re just not yours by blood.

You wished for a promotion at work? It’s yours for the steep price of loathing for everyone you work with, especially those underneath you. They gossip about you, treat you like shite, and ostracise you whenever they have an opportunity. Your underlings don’t respect you, and your superiors think you’re a talking doormat. You can’t complain, you wanted a promotion.

Sounds great. Why was Flora looking for this thing? Speaking of; what was this non-lamp?

A button.

At least, Flora thought it was a button. She’d never laid eyes on it herself, and tracking it down was proving to be difficult, but she was fairly certain that it was a very old ivory button, dating to at least the 14th century, perhaps older.

The previous owner had been very careful not to broadcast it about that they were in possession of a wish granting button, so records of where it’d come from, and its centuries long journey, were on the thin side. However, the only reason Flora had heard about it recently was because the previous owner was dead, and their estate sold during an auction.

What’s the chance of this button being the only vicious thing this person owned? Why did I get the feeling that this was going to cause problems later down the line?

The new owner wasn’t so subtle, and according to Flora had been renting out the button to the highest bidder. For Christ’s sake, does everything have to make money these days? Understandably, the owner’s customers weren’t too happy about the way wishes were granted, but guess what? You got what you wanted in the end, so you can’t complain. I hope this person has their own estate in order because they’re not going to be long for this world with an attitude like that.

Flora wanted to tell the Madam so she could arrange to have this button moved into storage where it could do no harm. She evidently didn’t know about Fionn. The Madam nodded and Flora left after thanking us, and before any useful questions could be asked, like who was the new owner? Where could we find them?

Instead, I asked my boss with the faint hope that she’d have a divining rod of some kind that’d just lead me to the problem.

The rabbit will show you the way.

I’m always waiting for the punchline with my boss, and 2 years later I’m yet to hear one. Yet, there was something familiar about what she said. Hadn’t I followed a brown rabbit more than a few times in the past? One that no one else but me could see? How did she know, and what the fuck was that thing?

The wee man was my guide. A spirit of sorts, an extension of the deeper part of myself that was a lot smarter than I was, a secret sense that had been trying to guide me since day one. Understanding that I was dense, it had manifested itself as a rabbit to show me the way to things I needed to see or people I needed to find. The more I became in tune with my sense, the more I began to listen to it, the less I’d seen my wee cotton-tailed pal.

But I hadn’t bridged that gap enough to just begin walking and end up where I needed to be, so I’d once again have to follow my pal. Madam Norna motioned to the door and right enough, there it was waiting.

I’m glad no one could see that I wasn’t merely walking down the street aimlessly but following a mental projection of some vault deep in my mind that had limited access. No public transport was needed, although it was a long walk. We eventually came to a wee builder’s café that served fried everything and offered the option of putting sugar in your hot chocolate.

As I opened the door, my wee pal made a beeline straight for a young lad, who could’ve been no older than 25, sitting at a table. He looked at me when I came in, then away, evidently not who he was expecting. He obviously didn’t see my wee pal, who promptly disappeared now that it’s duty was done.

I take a seat further inside the café, facing the door so I can keep an eye on this lad. As much as I trusted my inner self, I wasn’t sure how useful it’d be to approach this lad immediately.

I ordered a full Scottish breakfast, because what’s a Thursday without second breakfast, and a coffee. I could only have taken my phone out for a few seconds, skimmed through the subject line of the latest email from uni, when I felt a familiar sensation, a familiar presence, like gas from a leaking pipe.

I glanced up and there she was, Madam Anora, sitting opposite me at this café. Before I could say anything one of the women who worked there delivered my plate of high cholesterol with bottles of brown and red sauce, placing it down between Anora and I.

The brief look of disgust on my company’s face is something I’ll treasure.

After sliding my plate towards me and picking up my fork, I commented that we’d been seeing a lot of each other lately. I didn’t mean it as a good thing.

She said nothing.

I asked her what she wanted? To give me more cryptic warnings?

Madam Anora wanted my help. To destroy Fate.

My food turned to ash in my mouth so suddenly I had to look down at my plate to confirm it hadn’t actually arrived as charcoal. What the fuck was this woman on? Noticing my revulsion at this statement she carried on.

Ever since I’d known her, Madam Anora had been trying to get out from beneath Fate’s control. She didn’t want to be a Madam anymore; she wanted her freedom. The very first time I’d met her in the shop she’d been coming to have a talk with my boss about this very thing, hoping to get her on side. This hadn’t worked as she planned, so her next idea was to get me, make a deal with an apprentice; for them to cease being an apprentice. This hadn’t worked either. She knew she couldn’t kill me. That was news to me, but apparently since I’m fated to become a Madam I can’t actually die until I fulfil that fate. Her next opportunity was agreeing to work with the academic that I put into a home last year, but again, I’d ruined that opportunity as well.

Seeing a trend, Madam Anora had decided to involve me directly with her plans.

What a fucking nutter. She’s proof that age doesn’t bring wisdom or even sense! Even if what she was trying to do were possible, why the fuck would I help someone who has tried to hurt my pals on multiple occasions, and has openly admitted to considering killing me? I blurted as much, but Anora had come prepared.

She reminded me of the time she had pointed Reid and I in a dying Fionn’s direction. Without her interference I wouldn’t have been able to make my deal with Death to save his life.

In all the chaos and heartbreak of the last few months I’d brushed this fact aside. How had she known where Fionn was and what had happened to him?

Turns out the dobber who’d killed Fionn in that alleyway had gone to Anora for a weapon strong enough to kill a wyvern, and being her twisted self, she’d supplied it. But she assured me that almost immediately afterwards she came to seek me out and tell me.

Before I could retaliate, she also slipped in a reminder that if it weren’t for her Whuppity Stoorie would still be roaming free, or worse, trapped in a prison that she didn’t deserve.

What a sly cow. Everything this woman does is calculated, everything she says borders on manipulation. But hadn’t I done the same thing with Whuppity? Spared her in exchange for a favour? I’ll admit, the realisation that I was more similar to Madam Anora than my boss still chills me.

I hated to acknowledge that Anora had a fucking point. If she hadn’t come to the shop the day Fionn died, we’d have been none the wiser. If she hadn’t cryptically warned me that there was more to Whuppity’s story than I knew, then it’d be her in the book and not the awful husband from the tale. I didn’t even have the moral high ground to stand on because it’s not like I’ve been an angel this last year.

Huffing irritably, I asked her what this grand plan of hers was, the one that would somehow defeat the being that lingered over our heads like a storm cloud.

*laughs* She didn’t even have one!

She had approached me, knowing how bloody fond I was of her, and what, just expected me to come up with a plan to clip the wings of, arguably, the most powerful being in the world? Me? Christ, what had this woman taken?

I was growing irritated by this point, given she’d distracted me from my job for no good reason. To spout wishes and ideals there was no way in hell of breaking. The Madams were as old as humanity itself, Fate ruling over them and everything else, yet this one Madam Anora was dissatisfied and wanted out, so she was going to take on Fate? I don’t think there’s been a Madam who wasn’t unhappy with her situation. I’m not even Madam and I’m not eager to take that mantle. This is the way the world works, everyone has a fate, and everyone must follow it, or dire consequences follow. Madam Anora may have no one she cares about, no one who’ll face the consequences for her mutiny, but I do, and she can fuck right off if she thinks I’m having anything to do with this.

I stood up, my chair scratching painfully on the tiled floor. I told her that there was a part of me that would love for Fate not to exist, to get out from underneath the burden that’s waiting for me, but that it was impossible. Only something as powerful as Fate could beat it, and currently, there was no such thing.

I stormed over to the lad. I hadn’t noticed, in the midst of my heated discussion, that he had a customer of his own. Before a package could be exchanged between the two, I swiped it from his hands. He went to stand up from his chair, but I dug my hand into his shoulder and drove him back into his seat with more force than I thought I possessed. I could feel the lulling hum through my veins and in my ears, a tingling through my entire body as though something wanted to get out, to hurt someone.

Digging my fingers deeper into his skin, watching his face contort with realisation that the button wasn’t the only strangely powerful thing in the world, I told him I was taking the wish fulfilling item before he could cause more harm, and walked out.

When I got back to the shop, I opened the small package, and Flora had been right, a small ivory button was wrapped inside. I picked it up, ran my fingers over the smooth surface, and wondered, briefly, if I wished for Fate to disappear would it work?

Thankfully, my inner sense and I were in agreement this time. I may be stupid, but I wasn’t that stupid.

Author’s notes: Fun Fact: I did actually visit a small café in Glasgow, like the one I described, and got offered sugar in my hot chocolate, which if you haven’t experienced it, is already like drinking sugar water.

Announcement of series ending: People might have started to notice that I’ve been tying up a few loose ends, and that is not unintentional. So episode 50 will be the final of the antique shop. I don’t really know if this is good or bad news, perhaps both to some. I feel like apologising, but also not. It’s a weird mix of emotions.

When I began the antique shop I intended to end it after 50 episodes, then at some point between episode 10 and 30 I thought I could get to 60, but the last year and a bit has shown me that I can’t. I’ve never been one of those writers who can prolong or stretch a story for longer than I intend. Let’s face it, stories that are very long, such as anime or manga, are loaded with filler. Which is fine when your world building, but there gets to a stage where you’ve built your world and then what do you write?

I decided after episode 40 that 50 was going to be my last. And I mean that with regards to podcasting in general. I am, I suppose, retiring? Going on indefinite hiatus might be a better word for it. I know I floated the idea of the monster jars last year, and whilst I still think that would be such a great project to work on, I want some time to work on something else. Since I released TMS I’ve essentially only written the podcasts. I was, and still am, mainly a novel writer, I have plenty of finished (and even more unfinished) novels on my various cloud drives, but I’ve hardly written or planned anything like that since I began podcasting, even though there has been ideas I’ve wanted to develop, I’ve never had the time to really dedicate to them because I was always planning podcasts. Last year I did begin to submit to literary agents, which went as badly as it usually does for unknown writers like myself. I was never that bothered, and I didn’t really have the time to dedicate to that torturous task, and going forwards I’d really like to take it on seriously.

The last 3.5 years have been so much fun, I’ve loved building this wee community of mine and hearing all of the lovely things you’ve said over the years. This was definitely a project of love for me, I never wanted to make a profit, my only goal was to break even, and I eventually did that through the very generous donations by all of my wonderful listeners. I am a storyteller, and I wanted to share my stories. I’ve said plenty of times in the past that I think fiction is a sacred door to escapism because that’s what it’s always been for me, a safe haven from the trials of life, and I really wanted to give people that space with the podcasts, and I feel like I’ve done that. It’s not every day that someone can say they’ve accomplished all they wanted to from something they’ve done, but I pretty much can. Having said that I was hoping getting published would be slightly easier, but I’m very much ok with being a bit optimistic on that front.

It has started to feel like I’m going away as the podcast is just growing bigger and bigger. Every episode gets more downloads, the podcast feels like it’s gaining traction (through no effort from me, I’m really bad at advertising it), but I don’t want more attention and downloads at the expense of the story. I think that’s a huge problem these days, people cashing in on their success and ruining the legacy of whatever they’ve made a sequel to or prequel to. Star Wars is probably a good example, but I feel like a few podcasts over the last few years have done the same thing. I’m not trying to throw shade, but as a podcaster it’s been fascinating to watch the evolution of those that came before me.

I feel like TAS has run its course, and if it were to go on any longer I feel like it’d lose a lot of its soul and personality. So, a very big announcement. Episode 50 will be the final episode of TAS.

Scots-ish language version

We had a full hoose fae a change. Except I was somehow, inexplicably, still alone doon in the shop. It’d started wi’ a bet between ma two familiars aboot the most recent item in storage that Fionn had become interested in. I didnae really catch all ae the details, but it ended wi’ the two ae them buggering aff tae storage, tellin me tae come and find them if they hadnae come back in a few hours. Chronos, seein’ where the conversation had been goin’, retreated tae the peace and quiet ae the Madam’s lap.

I began tae clean, waitin’ eagerly fae the next customer. When the bell echoed roond the cavern, I whipped ma eyes gleefully tae the door, but felt ma face drop slightly when I saw Flora. It mustae been bad because she joked that I looked disappointed, but reassured me that whit she had tae tell me was just as good as any customer’s tale.

I went tae fetch the Madam and Chronos as Flora said she didnae have time tae sit fae tea. She starts tae tell us that fae a few months she’s been trackin’ a rather strange item. The as yet unidentified object could, reportedly, grant wishes.

I glanced at Chronos. He looked at me, and if cats could narrow their eyes in contempt, he wouldae. It wasnae long before I heard a “don’t say is it a lamp,” in ma heid.

As much as I dinnae believe in the story ae Aladdin, whichever version ye want tae use, it had tae be based in some kind ae reality. Given all ae the items in the shop, there had tae be more oot there, unaccounted for. Why wouldnae one ae those grant wishes?

Seems too good tae be true. Almost like there’s a catch.

Flora noticed ma face contort intae skepticisim, waitin’ fae the sour grape. She let a smirk dance on her lips and said, yes, it wasnae as simple as grantin’ wishes. Just like in the darker versions ae Aladdin and his lamp, this object did give the wisher whit they wanted…technically.

You wished tae be married? One drunken elopement tae someone ye’ve known fae a few months and who’s actually been stealin’ fae your bank account since day one , ye cannae complain, you’re married, ye got whit ye asked fae.

Ye wished fae bairns? You marry someone who has bairns, so you become a step-parent, but find oot you’re infertile. Ye cannae complain, ye have bairns, they’re just no yours by blood.

Ye wished fae a promotion at work? It’s yours fae the steep price ae loathing fae everyone ye work wi’, especially those underneath ye. They gossip aboot ye, treat ye like shite, and ostracise ye whenever they have an opportunity. Your underlings dinnae respect ye, and your superiors think you’re a talking doormat. Ye cannae complain, ye wanted a promotion.

Sounds great. Why was Flora lookin’ fae this thing? Speaking of, whit was this non-lamp?

A button.

At least, Flora thought it was a button. She’d never laid eyes on it herself, and trackin’ it doon was provin’ tae be difficult, but she was fairly certain that it was a very old ivory button, datin’ tae at least the 14th century, perhaps older.

The previous owner had been very careful no’ tae broadcast it aboot that they were in possession ae a wish granting button, so records ae where it’d come fae, and its centuries long journey were on the thin side. However, the only reason Flora had heard aboot it recently was because the previous owner was deid, and their estate sold durin’ an auction.

Whit’s the chance ae this button bein’ the only vicious ‘hing this person owned? Why did I get the feelin’ that was gonnae cause problems later doon the line?

The new owner wasnae so subtle, and accordin’ tae Flora had been rentin’ oot the button tae the highest bidder. Fae Christ’s sake, does everythin’ have tae make money these days? Understandably, the owner’s customers werenae too happy aboot the way wishes were granted, but guess whit? Ye got whit ye wanted in the end, so ye cannae complain. I hope this person has their own estate in order because they’re no gonnae be long fae this world wi’ an attitude like that.

Flora wanted tae tell the Madam so she could arrange tae have this button moved intae storage where it could do no harm. She evidently didnae know aboot Fionn. The Madam nodded and Flora left after thankin’ us, and before any useful questions could be asked, like who was the new owner? Where could we find them?

Instead I asked ma boss wi’ the faint hope that she’d have a divining rod ae some kind that’d just lead me tae the problem.

The rabbit will show you the way.

I’m always waitin’ fae the punchline wi ma boss, and 2 years later I’m yet tae hear one. Yet there was somethin’ familiar aboot whit she said. Hadnae I followed a brown rabbit more than a few times in the past? One that no one else but me could see? How did she know, and whit the fuck was that thing?

The wee man was ma guide. A spirit ae sorts, an extension ae the deeper part ae maself that was a lot smarter than I was, a secret sense that had been tryin’ tae guide me since day one. Understandin’ that I was dense, it had manifested itself as a rabbit tae show me the way tae things I needed tae see, or people I needed tae find. The more I became in tune wi’ ma sense, the more I began tae listen tae it, the less I’d seen ma wee cotton-tailed pal.

But I hadnae bridged that gap enough tae just begin walkin’ and end up where I needed tae be, so I’d once again have tae follow ma pal. Madam Norna motioned tae the door and right enough, there it was waitin’.

I’m glad no one could see that I wasnae merely walkin’ doon the street aimlessly, but followin’ a mental projection ae some vault deep in ma mind that had limited access. No public transport was needed, although it was a long walk. We eventually came tae a wee builder’s café that served fried everything and offered the option ae putting sugar in your hot chocolate.

As I opened the door, my wee pal made a beeline straight fae a young lad, who couldae been no older than 25, sittin’ at a table. He looked at me when I came in, then away, evidently no who he was expectin’. He obviously didnae see ma wee pal, who promptly disappeared noo that it’s duty was done.

I take a seat further inside the café, facin’ the door, so I can keep an eye on this lad. As much as I trusted ma inner self, I wasnae sure how useful it’d be tae approach this lad immediately.

I ordered a full Scottish breakfast, because whit’s a Thursday withoot second breakfast, and a coffee. I could only have taken ma phone oot fae a few seconds, skimmed through the subject line ae the latest email fae uni, when I felt a familiar sensation, a familiar presence, like gas fae a leakin’ pipe.

I glanced up and there she was, Madam Anora, sittin’ opposite me at this café. Before I could say anythin’ one ae the women who worked there delivered ma plate ae high cholesterol wi’ bottles ae brown and red sauce, placin’ it doon between Anora and I.

The brief look ae disgust on ma company’s face is somethin’ I’ll treasure.

After slidin ma plate towards me and pickin’ up ma fork, I commented that we’d been seein’ a lot ae each other lately. I didnae mean it as a good thing. She said nothing. I asked her whit she wanted? Tae give me more cryptic warnings?

Madam Anora wanted ma help. Tae destroy Fate.

Ma food turned tae ash in ma mouth so suddenly I had tae look doon at ma plate tae confirm it hadnae actually arrived as charcoal. Whit the fuck was this woman on? Noticin’ ma revulsion at this statement she carried on.

Ever since I’d known her, Madam Anora had been tryin’ tae get oot fae beneath Fate’s control. She didnae want tae be a Madam anymore, she wanted her freedom. The very first time I’d met her in the shop she’d been comin’ tae have a talk wi’ ma boss aboot this very thing, hopin’ tae get her on side. This hadnae worked as she planned, so her next idea was tae get me, make a deal wi’ an apprentice fae them tae cease bein’ an apprentice. This hadnae worked either. She knew she couldnae kill me. That was news tae me, but apparently since I’m fated tae become a Madam I cannae actually die until I fulfil that fate. Her next opportunity was agreein’ tae work wi’ the academic that I put intae a home last year, but again, I’d ruined that opportunity as well.

Seein’ a trend, Madam Anora had decided tae involve me directly wi’ her plans.

Whit a fuckin’ nutter. She’s proof that age doesnae bring wisdom, or even sense! Even if whit she was tryin’ tae do were possible, why the fuck would I help someone who has tried tae hurt ma pals on multiple occasions, and has openly admitted tae considering killing me? I blurted as much, but Anora had come prepared.

She reminded me ae the time she had pointed Reid and I in a dyin’ Fionn’s direction. Withoot her interference I wouldnae have been able tae make ma deal wi’ Death tae save his life.

In all the chaos and heartbreak ae the last few months I’d brushed this fact aside. How had she known where Fionn was and whit had happened tae him?

Turns oot the dobber who’d killed Fionn in that alleyway had gone tae Anora fae a weapon strong enough tae kill a wyvern, and bein her twisted self she’d supplied it. but she assured me that almost immediately afterwards she came to seek me out and tell me.

Before I could retaliate she also slipped in a reminder that if it werenae fae her Whuppity Stoorie would still be roamin’ free, or worse, trapped in a prison that she didnae deserve.

What a sly cow. Everythin’ this woman does is calculated, everythin’ she says borders on manipulation. But hadnae I done the same thing wi’ Whuppity? Spared her in exchange fae a favour? I’ll admit, the realisation that I was more similar tae Madam Anora than ma boss still chills me.

I hated tae acknowledge that Anora had a fuckin’ point. If she hadnae come tae the shop the day Fionn died, we’d have been none the wiser. If she hadnae cryptically warned me that there was more tae Whuppity’s story than I knew, then it’d be her in the book and no the awful husband fae the tale. I didnae even have the moral high ground tae stand on because it’s no like I’ve been an angel this last year.

Huffing irritably, I asked her whit this grand plan ae hers was, the one that would somehow defeat the being that lingered over our heads like a storm cloud.

*laughs* she didnae even have one!

She had approached me, knowin’ how bloody fond I was ae her, and whit, just expected me tae come up wi a plan tae clip the wings ae arguably the most powerful bein’ in the world? Me? Christ, whit had this woman taken?

I was growin’ irritated by this point, given she’d distracted me fae ma job fae no good reason. Tae spout wishes and ideals there was no way in hell ae breakin. The Madams were as old as humanity itself, Fate ruling over them and everything else, yet this one Madam Anora was dissatisfied and wanted out, so she was gonnae take on Fate? I dinnae think there’s been a Madam who wasnae unhappy wi’ her situation. I’m no even Madam and I’m no that eager tae take that mantle. This is the way the world works, everyone has a fate, and everyone must follow it or dire consequences follow. Madam Anora may have no one she cares aboot, no one who’ll face the consequences fae her mutiny, but I do, and she can fuck right aff if she thinks I’m havin’ anythin’ tae do wi’ this.

I stood up, ma chair scratching’ painfully on the tiled floor. I told her that there was a part ae me that would love fae Fate no tae exist, tae get oot fae underneath the burden that’s waitin’ fae me, but that it was impossible. Only somethin’ as powerful as Fate could beat it, and currently, there was no such thing.

I stormed over tae the lad. I hadnae noticed, in the midst ae ma heated discussion, that he had a customer ae his own. Before a package could be exchanged between the two I swiped it fae his hands. He went tae stand up fae his chair but I dug ma hand intae his shoulder and drove him back intae his seat wi’ more force than I thought I possessed. I could feel the lullin’ hum through ma veins and in ma ears, a tinglin’ through ma entire body as though somethin’ wanted tae get oot, tae hurt someone.

Diggin’ ma fingers deeper intae his skin, watchin’ his face contort wi’ realisation that the button wasnae the only strangely powerful thing in the world, I told him I was takin’ the wish fulfilling item before he could cause more harm, and walked oot.

When I got back tae the shop I opened up the small package, and Flora had been right, a small ivory button was wrapped inside. I picked it up, ran ma fingers over the smooth surface, and wondered, briefly, if I wished fae fate tae disappear would it work?

Thankfully, ma inner sense and I were in agreement this time. I may be stupid, but I wasnae that stupid.

The Ninth Grain – Wandered in

After a few days she found she grew accustomed to her uncle’s presence. He was there when she got up, he would help her open up the shop, and his vast wealth of customer experience made the day run smoother. Very rarely in its history had there been two Tullochs running the shop, but perhaps the current method should move with the times. There were more people in the city now than ever before, which meant more customers and not enough time to see to them all. How Duncan had managed to balance it along with his clandestine deals was another area for Iona to be impressed. Iona liked having someone to speak to again. At the main estate there were always people, her grandparents, her uncle, and various other guests and visitors on official and unofficial business alike, over and above the regular staff members who came and cleaned, or the cook who came in early in the morning and left after she’d had dinner. In the shop there had only been Iona, the relics, and her memories, none of which had been decent company. It felt comforting to have another Tulloch present, especially one as precocious as her uncle.

A few days after her uncle had arrived, he stood behind the counter filling out the customer ledger as Iona was showing a curious older woman the herbs they currently stocked. After completing the purchase at the counter, she took a deep exhale.

“I was thinking we could close the shop early today,” her uncle began.

“Why?”

He hesitated as the pen was placed slowly back on top of the lined pages. The reluctant tilt to his gaze as he glanced briefly at her made her shrivel away in foreboding.

“Ye want to go and see aunt Isobel,” she surmised.

Iona was about to ask whether she had to go with him, but knew the answer and so remained silent. She had been expecting him to mention his younger sister at some point during his visit, but it had quickly been forgotten amidst the comfort his presence brought. Despite her visits to the home where her aunt was kept, she still felt some reluctance at the thought of going. Every time she went, she would remember what she did, and the subsequent consequences, neither of which made her feel good.

“You’ve been to see her, haven’t ye?” he queried with a hint of concern in his tone.

She wondered what his reaction would be if she said that she hadn’t. Her handful of visits to the home had been brief considering she engaged in a one-sided conversation, but her last visit to her aunt had revealed something that still disturbed her. After months of stubborn silence, Isobel had spoken a few brief words concerning the mysterious force that was hidden behind the war for the city.

“Only a few times,” Iona confessed, “but she isn’t very talkative.”

“That’s perhaps for the best,” he muttered, “Good, it’s settled, we’ll close early and go and visit your aunt.”

Iona was sure she had a small grimace perched on her face and tried her best to hide it. Visits to Isobel were emotionally taxing when she was on her own, but she felt as though the bubbling guilt inside of her would break its banks if she went with her uncle. For the first time since her tenure in the shop had begun, she found herself not wishing for the clock to move forwards, or for the shop to close. Her reluctance was hard to explain given that she had voluntarily visited the home several times since she had arrived in the city, but the thought of going with her uncle invoked a sense of great discomfort. No one had ever spoken about or really acknowledged what she had done to her aunt, therefore she had never bore the brunt of their hatred or disappointment. Did her uncle loathe her for what had happened? She found that it was a question she would gladly never have an answer to.

Even Tullochs couldn’t stop time, and quicker than her liking, the hour hand of the clock struck closing time, and with heavy feet she reluctantly locked the front door and flipped the sign. It was a short walk to the home, made even shorter by Iona’s persistent reluctance to go inside accompanied. The heat and concentrated smell of age and disinfectant were the first things to assault her nostrils as they entered. It was busier than she remembered during her last visits, with residents being escorted in their frames across the hall and up the stairs, whilst there were visitors waiting to be seen on the bench opposite the reception desk, apprehensive shadows on their faces as if the world were about to end. Her uncle went over to the reception to inform them who they were both there to see whilst Iona observed the many people in olive green t-shirts putting jackets on in the day room where her aunt usually spent her time. They all had a logo printed on their chests, and a word across their backs indicating that they were volunteers. During her first visit she remembered one of the nurses telling her that Isobel had a regular volunteer who spent a lot of time with her during visits. The group was all of differing ages, from what appeared to be teenagers all the way up to the woman with grey shimmers in her otherwise brown hair. Her uncle joined her and led the way into the day room, straight through the crowd of volunteers.

Iona brushed past them all but there was something in particular about one that made her look back. It was quite a young girl, perhaps the same age as Iona if not younger, and she had long, thick golden hair that hung down her back in silky waves. She never turned around so Iona couldn’t see her face, but there had been a taste of something as she had walked briskly past. Shrugging the feeling away as a part of her reluctance to be in the home, she continued to follow her uncle to where her aunt Isobel sat in the armchair staring out into the windswept garden. Differing shades of green rippled through the bushes and kempt grass, with hints of brown where the incessant rain had turned it into mud. The pruned, tidy trees swayed in the wind that promised to turn into a gale in a few more days.

“Isobel?” her uncle queried when he saw her, an array of emotions evident in his tone, “It’s Callum and Iona.”

Her aunt gave her older brother the same treatment that she’d given her niece every time she had visited. Her gaze continued to be drawn to whatever was of interest outside in the empty garden, and she never acknowledged their presence. Undeterred, her uncle pulled up a seat and sat beside her.

“I know it’s been a long time since I’ve seen ye,” he started, “How are ye doing here? They treat ye well, don’t they?”

At Isobel’s adamant silence Iona began to wonder if she was not the only family member whom her ire was directed at. She may have given her the potion that caused her infirmity, but it was her family who had thrown her into a home so far away from the main estate and left her there. Iona had never bothered to question why they hadn’t brought her back to the estate and hired a full-time nurse to take care of her. It was the first time she thought of how heartless it had been. Perhaps Isobel’s silence wasn’t down to her crippled mind, but her anger at how she’d been treated.

Silence followed her uncle’s questioning.

“We all miss ye, father especially. Unfortunately, I think they’re too old to leave the estate now. It’s strange seeing them age so rapidly when all I can remember them being is active. Mother’s still the same, age doesn’t seem to have caught up with her yet.”

Iona hadn’t seen her grandparents in months, but agreed with her uncle’s conclusions. Her grandmother was the head of the clan and had either refused or been too busy to use her age as an excuse for infirmity. She was still as active now as she had been ten years ago, but time hadn’t been as kind to her husband who suffered from regular joint pains and fatigue.

“They send their love.”

Iona observed as her uncle continued to have the same one-sided conversations that she conducted during her visits. This time Isobel did not reiterate her earlier warnings, and it left her wondering if she had imagined it. The longer he spent there the more disheartened her uncle became, and it was hard to watch. It only took half an hour for him to accept that all conversations with her were doomed to be unanswered. His depression affected him for the rest of the day, even after they returned to the shop.

***

Her uncle never suggested going to see his sister again, and never spoke of what had happened. If he hated Iona for it, he never showed it to her face. When they ran out of food, he was more than happy to go and get some, and she suspected it was more for a change of atmosphere than a genuine desire to mingle with mortals. She couldn’t blame him, at times the shop was filled with unwelcome memories, and leaving its four walls was often a welcome reprieve. It left Iona alone for the first time in four days and she found that she liked it less than she had before her uncle had arrived.  The silence was heavy when once it had been peaceful, and the niggling of guilt and regret crept up on her from the nooks and corners when it had been settled before. She felt a ripple in the boundary of the shop and looked out the door to see Leif Morrison standing waiting. Hurriedly she dashed for the door, afraid that her uncle would see the immortal being lingering outside the shop and think the worst.

“What are ye doing here?” she hissed, scanning the street frantically.

“It’s been a while since you’ve greeted me so abruptly,” he commented.

She threw him an exasperated look when she was sure her uncle wasn’t within sight of the shop.

“I was hoping you would join me for coffee.”

“That’s not a good idea,” Iona answered curtly.

Her anxiety that her uncle would return and see her speaking with Leif blinded her to the stung look he wore on his features after her abrupt reply.

“I was hoping to speak with you about something.”

“I’m not really in a position to handle your problems,” she threw, “I know I owe ye a favour or two, but it’s going to have to wait.”

The resulting silence crackled around her like an exposed electric socket with the wires carelessly cut. It caused her to stop scanning for her uncle and look straight at Leif Morrison. During their entire acquaintance she couldn’t remember ever seeing him visibly angry. His usual polite demeanour had vanished, and he looked at her with such a cold expression it made her insides recoil.

“I do apologise for being an inconvenience,” he stated heatedly, “Rest assured that you don’t owe me any favours, although I thought I’d made that clear when we last met. I won’t bother you again.”

Before she could open her mouth to say anything he had already disappeared and was halfway down the street. She was adamant she wouldn’t feel bad about their exchange but as soon as she closed the shop door behind her it was biting viciously at the back of her mind. Leif Morrison had helped her more times than she cared to acknowledge, he had released her from her servitude to a teenager, and prevented her from committing a cardinal sin, yet she had, with sickening ease, dismissed him. It oozed with ingratitude and selfishness. However, at the core of it all was the knowledge that she shouldn’t be so deeply involved with an immortal. Her fear of getting caught by her uncle, and therefore her grandmother, outweighed her sense of gratitude, and any other emotions she felt towards Leif. Once her uncle had left, she would need to seek him out and explain her behaviour. How was it that she was making so many enemies in the city, even when she wasn’t trying?

***

Her uncle had never told her when he planned to leave the city and return north to the main family estate, and the longer he kept his silence the worse she began to feel every time she relived her last encounter with Leif. Outwardly she couldn’t let it distract her, but at night she thought about sneaking out to go and explain. The longer she let it linger the more she thought Leif would assume she wished to cut off all ties.

One mid-afternoon, as the shop was beginning to reach its daily dip in customers, a man stumbled unsteadily over the threshold. It felt to Iona that every customer seemed to be in increasingly worse states when they found their way to the shop. She was sure the next one would be a corpse. The man, tall and very thin, was noted by her uncle who was chatting to a young herbal doctor. He managed to make his way, swaying this way and that, towards the counter where Iona stood. As he neared, he practically stumbled over his own feet and it took the counter to stop his fall. With tremors wracking through his arms he managed to prop himself up and give her a pleading gaze of such strength that it froze her blood.

“You need to help me,” he begged, “I think something’s gone wrong.”

His words confused Iona who was growing more concerned with every passing moment. Observing the customer more closely, she noticed that his clothes were crumpled and hung loosely around his frame, as if he had suddenly lost weight. The skin was drawn in around his cheekbones, and was discoloured to an unhealthy grey. The wedding ring on his finger looked about to carelessly fall off, and the way he swayed from left to right told Iona he wasn’t in a good state. This was further confirmed by his coughing blood all over the counter and then falling to the floor, what strength he’d had left in him evaporating. Almost immediately Iona and her uncle moved to the man, checking his vital signs and for any other symptoms that could identify the cause of his unconsciousness.

“We need to get him in the back room,” her uncle commanded tightly.

Together they managed to move the customer’s body to one of the worktops in the back room. Hurriedly Iona shooed away any remaining customers with vague excuses and closed the shop to any more disasters. When she returned her uncle stood shaking his head darkly. They were too late. It turned out her next customer was a corpse.

“What happened?” she queried with concern, going over to the body and examining it once again.

“I thought it might be poison, or a curse, and so placed one of the anti-magic stones on him and went to prepare an emetic and some charcoal, but he died before I even got to the drawer.”

“He said he thought something had gone wrong,” Iona recalled with a frown, “And he also came here instead of a hospital, which means he knew it was something enchanted.”

“Do you think he knew what it was?”

“Perhaps,” she conceded.

What had he meant by his words? What was it that had gone wrong? The man was a mortal, yet had come into the shop with some hope that they would be able to save him, which meant he knew what they truly did. Iona knew of many poisons that caused the same kind of harm to mortals, they didn’t necessarily have to be of magical origin, but this one evidently had been.

“What do we do now?” she queried, unsure of how to proceed.

Tullochs may be influential in the witching community, but in the city run by mortals they were just small business owners with very little power. They may be witches, but they also lived by the mortal laws.

“We’ll need to report it to the police,” he admitted, “It might not even be magically related.”

By his tone she was sure he didn’t believe his own words. No dying mortal dragged themselves into the Tulloch shop without being connected to magic in some way. She threw him a disbelieving glance.

“Alright,” he put his hand up and sighed heavily, “We’ll take some blood and find out what’s in it.”

Blood magic was something her uncle particularly excelled at. She was sure he could paint someone’s entire life story just from one drop of it. The type of magic itself took a great deal of concentration, grace, and finesse that many witches didn’t possess, Iona amongst their number. She and her uncle began to search through the back room for the right tools. Iona grabbed one of the mortars from the shelf painted white, whilst her uncle found a needle big enough to coax out the volume of blood he needed. 

Iona had only seen blood magic in process once or twice in her life and was fascinated by its dexterity. More complicated than divination, and more detailed than charms, it required a sharp, toned mind, one her uncle had been working on his entire life. Carefully he picked up the customer’s hand and drove the needle into the middle finger. Iona watched with morbid fascination as the drips of blood pooled in the bottom of the bowl, one large droplet after another until there was an adequate enough puddle for her uncle to conduct his work.

She had always thought the art was a bit like reading tea leaves. Interpretation was dependent on the pattern. When her uncle was finished, he returned the hand reverently and placed the bowl and needle on the table. Holding his palm flat over the rim he closed his eyes and concentrated. She felt a surge of power, her blood resonating with his own as he silently incanted a spell she didn’t know. After his magic settled, he picked up the bowl and gently blew on the surface of the blood, sending uneven ripples across its viscous surface. When he was finished the blood began to move languidly, splitting, opening and re-joining to make different symbols, like a letter in a different language. Iona didn’t understand blood symbols, but her uncle did. According to theory the symbols each represented something that had been deposited in a person’s veins, usually through ingestion. Sometimes it was emotions, diseases they had, and in very rare circumstances it was their future. Her uncle was able to discern the meaning of each different symbol in the bowl, of which there were a few.

“Can you write these down?” her uncle queried.

Quickly she swiped one of her notebooks from the counter and had her pen poised over a blank page.

“Rose water, dandelion, Maca, red clover, and Burdock.”

It only took Iona to get halfway through the list to realise what the herbs were most commonly used for in unison.

“This is a concoction to help fertility,” she told her uncle, “But it’s usually for women, and it isn’t harmful enough to kill.”

“Not on their own, but when accompanied by an enchantment herbs are powerful enough to do anything,” he frowned and placed the bowl back on the counter, “It’s ancestor magic that caused this.”

It perhaps should have been more obvious that any mortal with a magic related problem was also related to the spiritualists. There had been numerous incidents since Iona had arrived in the city when their spells were too powerful, and caused too much harm. Her mind wandered to the mysterious figure that was feeding both the spiritualists and the immortals. What had been the point in the fertility spell? Why make something so innocent into something fatal? Sometimes Iona thought they didn’t have a plan at all but were just out to create havoc. Laid before them was the evidence that spiritualists couldn’t be trusted to wield more powerful magic than their own.

“You’ve had problems with them before, haven’t ye?” her uncle checked grimly.

His characteristic calm demeanour had quickly been replaced with one of barely contained distaste. If her own opinion of spiritualism as a magic was as abysmal as it was then she could only imagine what disdain her uncle held it in. Now that they had killed an innocent mortal with their own stupidity, it was time for the grown-ups to step in.

“We need to report this to the police first,” he muttered and then went to find the phone.

All throughout their interviews with the police as their statements were taken her uncle maintained his air of disconnect. To look at him no one could have noticed that inside he was boiling with a rage that Iona knew too well. The police thanked them for their help but did warn that they might be called on again if the death was found to be mysterious. The deceased customer’s name was Ross Inglis, and he had cared enough about someone to voluntarily take a fertility tonic.

When the police left, they had dinner in relative silence. Iona let her uncle boil in his own outrage. She’d had many hostile meetings with the spiritualists and none of them had been to any avail. Her uncle could vent at them, he could even kill one or two if he chose, but Iona doubted any of it would change their attitudes or behaviour since they were in league with a powerful, mysterious figure. They assumed that their use of powerful spells would go unchecked, but it rarely did. There were always consequences to harming mortals, even for spiritualists. No magic was allowed to go on creating havoc, and whether it was done by her uncle, or one of the other witching clans, someone would be called into account eventually. Iona just hoped she was around to see it.

***

The next day she led her uncle to the Cemetery Bell, the popular haunt of the spiritualists in the city to share enchantments and ideas, and to come into possession of powerful spells. She had only been in twice before, but from the sense that assaulted her the closer they got she could tell that her destruction of their sacred cemetery hadn’t permanently damaged their power base. Her uncle strode at a brisk pace, his anger lapping off him like smoke from food that had been burnt in the oven. He had spoken very little about what he planned to do when they reached the hive of the spiritualists, and had snorted in derision when told about the arrogant Mistress. Iona scurried along beside him, wondering what he would do to the spiritualists upon their arrival. He was aware of the extreme measures she’d had to take against them when they refused to return one of the family relics, but the situation was different now than it had been then. Who would be held to account for the death of the mortal Ross Inglis? What sort of justice was her uncle permitted to give out?

Upon their arrival there was nothing reluctant in his demeanour as he threw open the door so forcefully it slammed hard against the wall, and marched in with broad shoulders rigid and braced for a fight. She could feel his power surge through his blood, resonating clearly with her own that was on edge in the face of unknown events. The same tense silence that had proceeded her own visits settled over the Cemetery Bell and everyone that was in it. Iona noticed the bar maid hurrying through the door she assumed led to the Mistress’s private rooms, or perhaps her throne room, she couldn’t be sure having never been across the threshold. They didn’t have to wait long before the young Mistress descended into the bar and greeted the Tulloch duo with as much grace and humility as she could muster. Iona’s uncle was an imposing man when he wished to be due to his stocky build and height advantage, and he would have made a successful policeman in another life.

“We don’t have any of your relics,” she stated coldly, her gaze sweeping over Callum Tulloch grudgingly.

“That’s the least of your worries,” her uncle growled, “You’re the Mistress, aren’t ye, the leader of this infestation?”

“Infestation?” the young woman baulked, “You’ve no right to speak of us like that.”

“I’ve every right to say what I want to the petulant teenager in charge of inept idiots!” he barked in reply, “Do ye know what your followers have been doing with their craft, how many mortals they’ve been harming, or do ye encourage them?”

“I have never encouraged them to harm anyone,” she bristled, “We’re different from Tulloch witches.”

Iona didn’t fail to notice the glare that was aimed in her direction.

“Then one of two things has happened. Your acolytes don’t respect ye enough to follow your encouragements, or your leadership is so haphazard that ye don’t know about the spells your followers cast. Either way, both make for a bad leader, which isn’t surprising considering you don’t even look old enough to be in a pub.”

Before the Mistress could speak in her defence Iona’s uncle had already launched into his own questioning of the rest of the spiritualists who were in attendance.

“Do any of ye know Ross Inglis?”

Questioning ripples and murmurs weaved amongst the observers but no one stepped forward to claim an acquaintance.

“What about Ross?” the Mistress demanded.

Iona observed as her uncle’s eyes narrow in disgust, “He’s dead.”

She had only seen the young woman look perturbed once before when she had been an observer to the brutal death of one of her followers. When she swallowed the news of Ross Inglis her skin visibly paled and she looked as though she would be sick.

“H…how? Why?” she stuttered.

“Ye should ask whoever gave him a fertility tonic,” Iona interjected.

“That wouldn’t have killed him!”

“Even weak magic can kill when cast by an idiot,” her uncle scolded, “You’re as responsible for his death as the one who gave him the tonic and cast the enchantment. The old magic clans have tolerated your cult for many years because we thought you didn’t pose any danger. I shouldn’t have to tell the leader of the spiritualists that harming a mortal is a crime, and if it happens again the clans will take action to prevent any further incidents.”

The warning was as clear as the chiming of a clock. Spiritualism was tolerated as long as they kept within the boundaries of the city, didn’t expose themselves, or do any damage to the mortal population. Just as they would do with a clan, if the spiritualists broke witching code they would be eradicated. The law was absolute, and no one who stepped into their world could go against it without feeling the repercussions.

“Are you threatening me?” the Mistress seethed.

“It’s only a threat if there’s no chance it’ll happen,” he warned darkly.

The room bristled, and with her uncle’s foreboding words everyone shrank back in their seats in the hopes they would avoid his gaze. Without another word, Callum Tulloch turned on his heels and stormed out of the Cemetery Bell with Iona close at his back.

***

It had been a short visit in many ways, and a long one in many other. Iona knew she would miss the company, in the shop during the day, and at the dining table in the evening, but what she would miss above all of the small details was her uncle’s reassuring presence. If something went wrong, if one of her many enemies decided to strike, she would be alone to manage the consequences. The shop was her responsibility, as were the customers and the city factions, but it was a heavy burden to bear in times of war, and even heavier when her own nature worked against her, depriving her of allies elsewhere. Her uncle was the best ally she could hope for, and one that deserved absolute trust. Without him she was on her own to defend the shop, her cousin and his clandestine family, and her incapacitated aunt. She knew she would have to become accustomed to having heavy burdens on her shoulders if she were to one day become clan chieftain, but that day still felt far in the distance, after some much needed days of development.

As she observed her uncle’s rucksack waiting for him beside the door to the shop she exhaled forlornly. The liberation she had been given in the shop came at a high price, a sense of security and company were sacrificed in exchange, and not for the first time since she had been told to stay in the city did she miss the main estate, but most of all she missed her uncle’s company. He had always been a connection to the father she had lost, and had always been the reassuring shoulder to lean on when things became too difficult. Iona had never wanted the responsibility of the shop, and she feared it may take her a while after her uncle’s departure to warm to it again.

Callum Tulloch emerged from the private rooms up the stairs fixing his watch tightly to his wrist and checking he had plenty of time before his train was due. Iona couldn’t tell if he was as reluctant to leave as she was for him to go, but what purpose would it serve? There had rarely been more than one Tulloch witch in the shop on a permanent basis, and she was sure that as they got older her grandparents relied on their only conscious child more heavily. He was needed on the main estate more than he was needed in the shop. Iona had wrongly assumed at first that her grandparents didn’t trust her to manage things in the city, and that was the reason they’d sent her uncle to check on her, but she was beginning to think she had been too cynical. If they didn’t trust her in the shop they would have sent her uncle there permanently to keep an eye on her, but they hadn’t. They trusted her enough in the city to recall their youngest son to the main estate, and leave her there alone, fully responsible for everything.

She turned to her uncle as he came towards her, a light smile on his lips. Asking him to stay would only indicate how much she was struggling, and it would arouse her grandparents’ suspicions more than necessary. Iona had chosen to bear her secrets, and Duncan’s, and there was a price for that concealment. Callum Tulloch stood in front of his niece, and she could sense his perusing eyes glancing over her once more in order to reassure himself that she was fine. What he chose to ignore was that it was rarely anything on the outside that posed the biggest problem.

“Ye know I’ll always be here if ye need me,” he reminded gently, “One phone call and I’ll be here.”

She nodded, knowing that if she replied she would start crying. It was better for everyone if her uncle, and her grandparents, thought that everything in her life was as mundane and uncomplicated as it always had been. They didn’t need to know how isolated and alone she felt, how every time she left the shop she was on guard from an attack from one of the many enemies she had created, or that Duncan had a family that she had arranged to hide away. Sometimes ignorance was bliss.

Her uncle hugged her tightly, silently reiterating his promise, before letting her go and picking up his rucksack. Iona stood in the shop window, watching as her uncle walked down the street to the bus stop, and out of sight. She took a glance around the shop, empty and hollower than she remembered. She knew it would be days until her routine returned, and she got used to, once more, being isolated.

Next Chapter

The Eighth Grain – Double Door

Iona wasn’t a forgetful person. Despite all that had happened in the past month the book of curses still lay as heavily in her mind as it did on the table in the back room. The stone, although smaller in size, proved to be a matter of greater anxiousness. She didn’t know what to do with it, but knew that if she were caught with it in her possession she would be punished. Her duty was to destroy it, but how could she when it left so many unanswered questions thickly in the air? After a month of walking past them, of moving them from one position to another, of flipping carefully through the crinkled, beige pages, she finally made up her mind.

As much as she knew she should destroy the stone not only to protect Duncan from any further punishment but to conform to the rules of witching law, she couldn’t bring herself to do anything but hide it away where she was sure none but her would know where to find it. The tome of curses was relatively easy so solve in that she would let the decision fall to someone else. She blamed some sense of curiosity for the reason she had kept it a secret for longer than was appropriate, but in reality, it was more out of a sense that it was powerful enough to protect her should she need it. Although she felt as though its curse hadn’t touched her in the same way it had done its last victim, even being in its presence had an effect on her.

 Curses weren’t a form of protection, and the longer she spent with the book the more she found she was willing to forget that. The phone call was short and abrupt, the consequence was a trip to the most powerful room in the shop to deposit it in one of the warded boxes, and keep it there until she was given further instructions. She could tell by the tone that her grandmother was curious as to its content and knew that it would need to be documented and recorded in the archive, but for once it was to be hidden away until the correct way to handle it was found. It was with a somewhat sneaky sense of relief that she closed the door to the room.

And that was where Iona thought it ended. A few days went by where routine returned, as did mortal customers, and for a blissful few moments she allowed herself to think that she was experiencing some calm before the inevitable storm that lay behind. It didn’t last nearly long enough. One afternoon, half an hour before closing, a familiar presence walked into the shop, welcomed openly by the four walls themselves. When Iona glanced at the door it was only to confirm what her own resonating blood was already telling her. The person who had just come in, large rucksack in hand, was her uncle.

He passed straight through the archway separating the two rooms and came to stop in front of the counter, placing his bag on the floor and a warm smile on his face.

“Uncle,” she stated, trying to ignore the bubbling suspicion at the back of her mind.

His face fell visibly, “You’re not pleased to see me.”

Iona couldn’t tell if it was a question or a statement, “I’m just surprised, no one told me ye were coming down.”

“It was a sudden decision,” he admitted as his eyes danced around the shop.

Those were rare in the family. Her grandmother possessed a keen sense of foresight, and Iona had often thought that there were no such thing as sudden decisions when it came to the old matriarch, only well thought out ones. If Iona hadn’t been hiding many things, and breaking many rules, she would have been overjoyed to have a conscious, walking Tulloch with her, but as it stood, her paranoia began to sour her happiness. Was he here to check on her? Did they suspect that she had fallen down the same rabbit hole as Duncan had? Had they found out about her strange relationship with an immortal?

“I’m glad you’re here,” she forced a smile on her face, and hoped that she would come to believe it.

***

Iona’s uncle was very different from his older brother, her father. Where she could remember her father being laid back, humorous, and nonchalant at times, his brother was practically the opposite. He had been born the second son with few hopes he would inherit the chieftain position, and so he had been brought up as a support, never to take the lead. He knew Clan law better than anyone else did and appeared to take it very earnestly. Iona remembered the conversation she had overheard the day Duncan had been banished to the shop, and had observed the conspicuous silence of her uncle on his son’s behalf. He was a very serious man, but he wasn’t a cruel one. It wasn’t his fault that he had been brought up to believe that Clan law was absolute, and that their values and teachings must be upheld, no matter the personal cost.

After closing the shop, she had taken her uncle’s belongings into the private room and begun dinner in the kitchen whilst he had sat at the table recounting the events that had happened on the main estate in her absence. Iona listened with half an ear, still thinking about the real reasons her uncle was in the city. Were her grandparents worried about the book of curses? Did they not trust her to deposit it in the archive and instead use it for her own personal vendettas? Had they disapproved of her tactics when dealing with the other inhabitants of the city?

“Iona?” her uncle pulled her from her troubling reverie as she was sweeping a stray pea around her plate over dinner.

“What is it?” she questioned.

“Is something troubling ye?”

More than ye know, she sighed internally. There were many things that had been troubling her lately and one always built on another until it threatened to crush her. Never in her wildest thoughts had she imagined that managing the shop, and the city, would be so time consuming.

“Some small things, the book I told Grandmother about being one of them,” she admitted, “Is that why they sent ye here, to deal with it?”

Her uncle hesitated, “The reason’s actually a wee bit more serious than that.”

If she could see her face she was sure she had paled as soon as she’d heard the words. Had they found out about Claire and her child? Had they found out the other multitude of secrets she was keeping to herself? The way her uncle had to build himself up to say his next sentence was torturous to watch.

“There’s a matter I need to discuss with ye,” he continued, “I’m sure you’re already aware of it, having been in the city for a while now.”

Her lungs constricted for a painful moment before releasing a small exhale. There were a lot of things she had become aware of during her time in the city, some the family should know, and others better kept swept under the rug. Iona kept her silence, encouraging him to elaborate.

“Recently something’s changed, an imbalance has been created. You’ve felt it, haven’t ye?”

The only imbalance the family ever took seriously enough to speak about was an imbalance in the fabric of nature, the void where all of their power came from. With a sense of shame and embarrassment Iona admitted to herself that she hadn’t really noticed if there was one, having been drowned by her own, and Duncan’s, secrets. Imbalances were normal, but they always evened out, as was the world’s nature, but if one was so strong as to concern her grandparents then it was worth taking a note of. It didn’t take any great stretch of the imagination to theorise the origin. Imbalances were almost always caused by power falling outside of the witching community, mainly mortals, or other branches of magic, casting spells that were too powerful for them to handle. Those hadn’t been rare occurrences in the city.

“I’ve noticed it more than felt it,” she admitted carefully.

It was only in that moment that Iona realised she had never once spoken of her experiences with the mysterious shadow in her life with her grandparents. She knew the origin of the imbalance, yet she had never thought to mention the problems it had created.

“There’s something I haven’t told Grandmother,” Iona hesitated, “Someone’s been handing out powerful spells and relics recently to the supernatural community in this city.”

Her uncle’s eyes widened with surprise before she could see his mind begin to turn.

“How long has this been going on for?” he inquired.          

“Ever since I arrived here, but I thought it was only coincidence at first. Spells that were cast were too powerful, but they were small and of no lasting harm. It’s gradually worsened.”

The Leslie pendant still remained with the Morrisons, and perhaps with time they would eventually realise what it granted to the wearer, but it was anyone’s guess what kind of spells the spiritualists had been given. Iona found it hard to believe that whoever was trying to interfere in the war would have only donated a handful of powerful, but equally insignificant, spells. The tome of curses locked away in the archive upstairs was evidence enough that the hidden enemy was slowly escalating their attempts.

“Ye mean the book of curses?” her uncle queried.

She nodded.

“Do ye know who’s behind it?”

“I’ve never met them although I’m certain they know me. The spiritualists have met them but refuse to tell me anything.”

 Iona didn’t mention that the immortals also had an acquaintance with the same mysterious figure in fear that it would arouse more suspicion. Rather than her uncle’s presence giving a sense of comfort, it began to make her feel ill at ease. She had harboured doubts that she could defeat whoever was lingering in the background of the war for the city, but now that her grandparents had deemed it necessary to send her uncle, it made her feel as though the situation was worse than she had realised. An imbalance serious enough to warrant interference from Clan Tulloch was not a light matter. What was the purpose of the shadowy figure? Why create an imbalance in the fabric of nature? Did they stand to gain something from it or were they just out to create havoc?

“They’re very powerful,” Iona continued, “I tried to see their face by using an object they’d touched but they’d erased themselves from the memory. I haven’t been able to get any closer to them. It feels as though they have everyone precisely where they want them to be, as if this city is a board, the opposing sides are the players, and this is all just a game.”

If that were the case then she wondered what role was reserved for her, someone who had tried to sit on the fence, and made enemies out of the opposing sides. She glanced to her uncle sitting across the table and observed his usual pensive look. She wasn’t sure what authorities had been bestowed upon him to handle whatever was going on, and she wasn’t entirely put at ease by his creased brow and troubled grimace. Iona couldn’t shake the feeling that there was something else, some other reason why he had been sent down in person rather than leaving it up to her. Perhaps her grandparents knew that whoever was responsible was more powerful than she was, or perhaps they just didn’t trust her enough to solve the problem. She couldn’t blame them considering she hadn’t reported anything about it.

“What’s grandmother anxious about concerning the imbalance?” Iona asked curiously, “It’s not the first time it’s happened. What makes this one stand out?”

Her uncle inhaled and turned his gaze up to look at her. She could see he was contemplating what to tell her and what to keep back, as he always did. Unlike his son, and Iona, her uncle had her grandparent’s absolute faith and trust. He had followed every rule laid out for him, and completed every task he was asked to do. Despite her formal position as heir, there had been many a time when she thought it would be taken from her and given to her uncle. He was certainly more deserving than she ever would be.

“Do ye remember the story in our family about one of our ancestors who turned himself immortal?” he began.

The Tulloch line stretched as far back as written history and beyond, many myths, legends, and bedtime stories had been created from ancestors who had lived many hundreds of years before her. Some could never be proven but made for good lessons, whilst others were fact and usually good for moral warnings.

“Vaguely,” she conceded, “but there’s no evidence to suggest that it’s true.”

It was a bedtime story filled with morals and the consequences to those who broke the natural laws. Tullochs drew their power from the earth, an art that was now referred to as old magic, and respected the laws of nature. Everything had a lifespan, and after that time was over they returned to the earth. It was the natural cycle of life, and to break that cycle was to commit a grave sin. To practice old magic, one must understand the cycle and respect it above everything else. Iona had always wondered at the irony that it was old magic who created immortals, yet it was against its main principle.

There was one tale in particular, of a Tulloch witch many hundreds of years ago who had decided to break the cycle. Using all of his power he had made himself immortal, thereby breaking Clan Law. He had disappeared and had never been seen since. His name was crossed from the family tree and forgotten by those who came after. Immortals couldn’t wield magic, and so he had given up everything his family believed in, and everything they had given him, for a life that would never end. It was meant to teach Tulloch children that one must never break the cycle by prolonging anyone’s life, but it was just that, a story.

“It is true,” her uncle admitted, “And it’s not something ye usually find out about until ye become Chieftain.”

She didn’t need to ask how her uncle knew, but it did make her wonder what else she didn’t know now because she wasn’t head of the clan.

“He lived during the 17th century and was the third son. From early on in his education he showed an interest in immortality. He would study everything he could, and he even began to experiment on the local villagers. Eventually he succeeded and used it on himself. The family tried to stop him, but he escaped and took a few of the family relics with him. As punishment, and to try and make him return, they killed a local witch that he was in love with. He vowed revenge on the family and disappeared.”

As disturbing as the story was, she felt that somehow it didn’t quite fit. Why after four hundred years would he appear now? What did the war for the city have to do with the Tullochs? Was his purpose to draw them out? Surely he could just descend on the family estate, which occupied the same part of land as it had done when he had been a witch? What made her grandparents think it was the ancestor? It hadn’t been Tulloch family relics or spells she had been observing. Ignoring her own doubts, she acknowledged that her grandparents probably had their reasons for suspecting it might be him.

“But he shouldn’t be able to use magic if it is him,” she pointed out, “Once you create an immortal you sever their bond with the earth. His powers would have been forfeit.”

“There are other forms of magic that don’t require a connection to the earth.”

It was an unwelcome thought. From Iona’s perspective she couldn’t see the point of all he had been doing, if it was her ancestor. If he had sworn vengeance on his clan he was conducting it in a very roundabout way.

***

Her conversation with her uncle made her realise that secrecy ran in her blood. There were many of them hidden in the branches of her family, ones she was not senior enough to know about. If she hadn’t been eager to take up her position as Clan Chieftain when the time came then recent events made the task seem more repulsive. At least she was gaining experience in keeping secrets from other family members.

She allowed herself to admit that it was a nice change to have someone else around the shop who knew what everything was and how to help customers. It had been a relatively lonely life since she had taken up the position, but now that her uncle was around to help the day went by much quicker, and more customer orders could be completed. There was a name that had not passed between them, and it was one Iona felt like an elephant in the room. It was near closing time two days after her uncle had arrived, and as soon as she bolted the door, she turned around to him.

“Visiting time at the hospital is soon.”

He abruptly stopped sorting the glass cabinet of gems and stones and continued to stare at them as if doing so would make them neat and tidy. Iona flinched at his reaction, afraid that she had taken a step too far.

“We can go toge-”

“I can’t go,” he intoned, still staring at the gemstones.

Iona faltered. Her uncle wasn’t an abrupt person, but she could see the rigidness that had set into his shoulders. She couldn’t tell if he had been ordered to stay away from his son, or he was disappointed in him and so had no desire to see him languishing.

“Not allowed to, or won’t?” she questioned.

“I can’t,” he rasped.

Pushing from the door she went to stand beside her uncle, hand hovering above his shoulder. Peering into his face she saw tears at the corners of his eyes that caused her heart to clench in pain. If Iona had been tempted to wake Duncan up, to break Clan law to do so, then the desire must be almost unbearable to the father. His silence at the time of the banishment hadn’t merely been a sign that he didn’t care, but of servitude, of knowledge that anything he could have said wouldn’t have changed the decision. Her uncle was not the heir, and he was not the chieftain, he was just another son who had created a branch of the Tulloch tree. As a result, he had no sway or influence with the decisions of his chieftain. They commanded and he had no choice but to obey, even with regards to his own son.

“If I go, I’m afraid of what I’ll do,” he whispered painfully.

Iona placed her hand on her uncle’s shoulder, feeling his palpable anguish. He turned around and embraced her tightly, like he used to do when she was a child. Iona couldn’t remember when the last time someone had embraced her like her uncle did. It was hard to hold affection for her grandparents who ruled her life in every way possible, and since coming to the city she had been isolated and alone with very few people who she trusted, and even less who she could wholly depend on. Feeling her eyes sting she wrapped her arms around her uncle’s large torso and squeezed. Slowly the tears dripped down her cheeks for everything that had happened, to Duncan, what she had done to aunt Isobel, for the helplessness she had been made to feel, and for the growing sense of unease and isolation that had been steadily building since her arrival. The relief she felt at having her uncle in the shop nearly crippled her.

“Iona?” her uncle questioned when he heard her sniff.

“I’m fine,” she reassured and held on tighter.

***

Together they had made dinner, and Iona couldn’t remember the last time she had so much fun or laughter. They reminisced about her childhood, the various things she and Duncan had got up to as much younger children, and the mischief he and her father had done at the same age. After dinner they began to speak more about Duncan, the small details she hadn’t known about his various misdemeanours at home, and how her uncle had tried to hide or control them. The one man she thought always obeyed the rules was slowly becoming very human. She had often observed that there weren’t many things a parent wouldn’t do to protect their children, and it was comforting to know that her uncle was just the same.

“He was always determined to flaunt the rules. I always blamed his mother, but perhaps it was my fault,” he theorised.

“How?”

“He saw what the rules did to his mother, and to yours, and to what extent they controlled everyone in the family. Maybe he wanted to change things.”

Iona had a clearer picture of Duncan now than she ever had when he was staying on the estate. He had continued to flaunt the rules in the city, away from prying eyes. What her uncle said sounded logical, as there had been very little evidence of him obeying them. She was torn whether or not to mention Claire and her child, his grandchild. Despite seeing a new side of her uncle, there was one thing that hadn’t changed. He was so adamant in upholding Clan law that he wouldn’t see his son in fear he would break those same rules. His sense of responsibility would mean that if he knew of a grandchild, he would tell her grandparents, and she couldn’t run the risk of trusting him enough not to. Every Tulloch had paid a personal price for carrying their name, every one of them had responsibilities, and Iona was reassured in her decision of sending the child away to lead a normal life, away from their family.

“It was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do,” her uncle confessed, pulling her from her thoughts, “To stand by and watch as they condemned my only son to his punishment.”

She could find nothing comforting or reassuring to say to someone who had seen his son punished in such a brutal way. Iona knew what it was to feel helpless, but she feared it dulled in comparison to the strength of feeling her uncle harboured.

“Why was he punished so severely?” she queried for the first time since it had happened.

There had been many times since she had come to the city when she had questioned its severity, especially considering what she had done was far worse. Her grandparents didn’t know about Claire and her child, or the stone Duncan had created to take a witch’s powers, all they had been aware of was that he had been giving, or selling, family relics to people who shouldn’t have them. Many times she had thought on the alternatives to his punishment. Why hadn’t they recalled him back to the estate and put him under house arrest? Why hadn’t they locked him out of the archive so he couldn’t sell them even if he wanted to?

“Your grandmother lost her patience with him,” her uncle told her with a grimace, “She’d warned him many times to fall into line and he refused to listen. She has a short temper, as you’re aware.”

There was a very good reason why Iona was afraid of her grandmother, and Duncan’s punishment only reinforced it. All those years ago it had been the reason she hadn’t wanted Isobel to tell about her sneaking out to pubs and nightclubs, and it was the reason now that she wasn’t informing her of the great-grandchild that was due.

“Why was I never punished?”

The words fell from her mouth so quietly she was unsure if she had said them out loud or not. It had been an area of anxiety and of guilt every time she had been to see Duncan or Isobel. Her crime had always been far greater than Duncan’s, yet she wasn’t the one lying in the hospital. She felt her uncle’s eyes on her, gauging why she had asked after so many years. 

“Ye were very young when that happened,” he reasoned.

“That’s it? Because I was young, I wasn’t punished for what I did?” she interrogated, “What I did surpasses all the wrong that Duncan’s done.”

Her uncle’s eyebrows drew together and she saw pity in the creases of his face. He had aged. She had never really noticed before but after not seeing him for months on end she could observe the small details. The dry, weathered skin seemed paler, and there were silver threads of hair glistening under the kitchen light. His face was drawn in where before it had been full, and there was a lingering sadness in his eyes that never seemed to fade.

“Ye can’t compare them in that way, Iona,” he explained gently, “As weak as it may sound to you your age was a factor. Every young Tulloch makes a mistake or two, it’s a consequence of our heritage.”

“Duncan’s not exactly old,” she pointed out.

“Listen,” her uncle leaned forward on the table, and pinned her with an authoritative stare, “Ye never intentionally did that to Isobel. Ye didn’t set out to harm her, ye were young and inexperienced with the use of potions. However, that wasn’t the only factor. It hadn’t even been a year since your father had passed. Mother and father were reluctant to punish ye because their grief was still fresh, and because ye were the new heir.”

She had known the reason all along. Her position as the heir gave her certain protections that weren’t handed to Duncan, the son of a second son. She remembered vividly the years after her father’s unexpected death, how drear the estate had been, and how long her grandmother had gone into mourning for. Iona hadn’t used it as an excuse for her actions during her first trip the city, grief was no excuse for what she had done, but whether she liked it or not her father’s death had protected her from punishment. Her theory that living the rest of her life with the knowledge she had ruined someone else’s was proving to be painfully wrong.

“Duncan stubbornly broke the rules, many times, despite warnings from everyone. Insubordination like that can’t go unpunished for long.”

Iona began to feel queasy that one grandchild’s life could be balanced against another. She was the heir, so did that make her more precious than Duncan who wasn’t? They punished him with a sickening ease, yet what she had done had been brushed quickly under the mat, or incarcerated in the home with Isobel, never to be spoken or discussed. The feeling that she had gotten away with an equal crime to Duncan just because of her place in the family hierarchy caused the dinner to sour in her stomach. When her uncle’s large, clammy hand reached across the table and took her own she was forced to look into his pitying gaze.

“I wouldn’t spare anymore thought on it,” he advised sagely, “What’s done is past and there’s nothing we can do to change it.”

Although the words were meant to be comforting it sounded more like a curse. Anyone who lived would always make mistakes, no matter how hard they tried to prevent them. People with good memories were cursed to remember their mistakes and live through the consequences. Iona was cursed having to live the rest of her life knowing she had taken someone else’s away from them, and knowing the only reason she wasn’t punished for her mistake was due to her position as heir apparent, a luxury that Duncan had been without. If he had been heir what would her grandparents have done?  Would he still be in the same position, or would his mistakes have been brushed under the rug like hers was? It was impossible to tell. Perhaps her uncle was right, time spent thinking about their fates was time wasted. The past couldn’t be changed, even by a Tulloch.

***

Carefully, she placed the bundle in her arms on the countertop in the private room and took a protective step back. She continued to dislike the effect the tome seemed to have on whoever was near it, regardless of skin contact. With an impressive level of dexterity her uncle peeled off the darkened white sheet she had used to cover it and stared at the embossed, worn leather covering for several moments. As she heard his sharp inhale, she realised he could hear the poisonous whispering just as strongly as she could.

“I didn’t think these existed anymore,” he breathed.

“You’ve heard of them?” she queried.

He nodded vaguely before flipping open the cover of the book. Instinctively they both took a few steps backwards, despite knowing nothing could fly out to harm them. The pages looked to be well worn, browning and crinkled, but that could simply be the curse placed on the book itself bleeding into the paper.

“They’re very rare, and according to history they’ve all been destroyed,” he informed.

“Except this one,” she pointed out, “Where does it come from? Who creates things like this?”

“A very embittered witch. To collect and create curses isn’t something that’s ever been encouraged. Although it’s not a crime, it’s frowned upon, and whenever one of these is found it’s destroyed. No one really knows where they come from because they’re never marked by the author.”

“Will this one be destroyed?”

“Probably,” he nodded, “But the other witching clans need to be informed of its existence first before a decision is passed down. It takes a lot of power to destroy one of these, especially one this old. We’ll need to keep it in the archive for now, moving it’s too dangerous.”

He flipped the book closed and covered it with the blackened sheet, patches of darkness colouring what was once a clean cotton duvet cover, but had been poisoned by the curses held within. The entire tome seeped dark intent and misery, and Iona was disappointed that it would remain in the shop.

“Where did you say ye got this?” her uncle checked.

“I confiscated it from a mortal woman who had used it to curse her unfaithful husband. I think she was badly affected by it. She wouldn’t tell me where she got it from, but I have an inclination it was the spiritualists, which means it must be the mysterious benefactor I was telling ye about.”

“I wonder what they want,” he mused.

It was something Iona couldn’t answer as she had been wondering the same thing since she had been made aware of their presence. Something else that had been plaguing her mind was why the spiritualists hadn’t used any of the spells and items they had been given to defeat the immortals. The tome of curses could certainly have incapacitated the Morrisons for many years, even placing it in their presence would have wrought havoc, yet they had kept it to themselves. Had they warned the spiritualists not to use any of them, hoping that its presence would be enough to create the imbalance? Or had they simply made an ally out of the spiritualists because they could, the book just a gift to sweeten the pot? Until the faceless figure showed themselves, all that Iona could hold onto were theories.

***

Late that night, once her uncle had gone to bed, she climbed out of hers and went to rummage around in the spare bedroom full of equally harmless objects. There were a few more things she would continue to keep from her family, especially her uncle, and Duncan’s forbidden stone was one of them. Despite her best attempts to try and forget about it, with possible danger from a mysterious force lingering in the shadows, threatening to tear the fabric of their world, Iona felt she needed something that could protect her and her family. Carefully, she picked up the clear plastic bag by its corner and gazed at the sparkling stone. The inside of it continued to churn and whirl like milk being turned into butter, throwing itself up against the clear sides of its prison as the sea collides with the sharp cliffs. Anyone looking deeply into it would think it was mercury, appearing solid but becoming liquid as soon as it was moved. Whatever the original properties of the mineral Duncan had chosen, they were long gone, and now the stone was meant for one purpose only. 

Gingerly, she opened the bag and fished out the handwritten note, squinting her eyes to read the smallest margin notes and reading over sentences more than once because his writing was nigh on illegible. Slowly she began to understand the complexity of creating and finishing such an object, and realised that if Duncan had simply applied himself to the family rules as much as he had applied himself to going against them, then he would have done very well for himself. Whether he would have been truly happy or not was something only he could have decided. Iona placed the plastic bag down on the floor in front of her, held her palms over it and began to concentrate, every so often glancing at Duncan’s instructions for reassurance.

If what she had done to Isobel had been deemed an accident, she was certain that what she was doing now couldn’t be viewed as anything but intentional. It was the first time she had broken Clan law, and the witching rules, and she found she did so with surprising ease. Where Duncan had begun the stone, Iona would attempt to finish it, proving to herself that, sometimes, rules were restricting.

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